“I’m not brooding” …
“Lucas!” Vicky tugged angrily at his sleeve. “At least answer David when he speaks to you.”
“I’m sorry.” Hutchman focused his eyes on David who now had his school blazer on and was about to leave. “Have a good day, son. Did you finish your spellings last night?”
“Nope.” David tightened his lips obstinately, and the face of the man he would one day become momentarily overlaid his features.
“What will you say to the teacher?”
“I’ll tell her…” David paused for inspiration “…to stick her head down the lavatory.” He strode out of the kitchen and a few seconds later they heard him slam the front door as he left for school.
“He tries to sound tough at home, but Miss Lambert tells me he’s the quietest boy in his class,” Vicky said.
“That’s what worries me. I wonder if he’s all that well adjusted to school.”
“David is perfectly adjusted.” Vicky sat down at the table and poured a second cup of coffee, not enquiring if he would like one — a sign that she was annoyed with him. “You could give him more help with his homework.”
Hutchman shook his head. “Telling a kid the answers to his homework problems doesn’t help him. What I’m doing is teaching him a system of thought which will enable him to solve
“What does David know about systems of thought?” Vicky’s voice was scornful.
“Nothing,” Hutchman said reasonably. “That’s why I’m teaching him.” He felt a flicker of malicious pleasure as Vicky compressed her lips and half-turned away from him to increase the volume on the radio. On an average of once a week he cut her short in an argument by the simple, though logically irrelevant, expedient of answering a rhetorical question as though it had been posed seriously. Vicky never rephrased the question. He suspected this was merely because she had an instinctive contempt for formalism, but its effect was roughly equivalent to a conclusive victory on his part. Now that Vicky had chosen to listen to the radio she seemed to be shutting him out, addressing all her being to it. The morning sun reflected upward from the floor, permeating her dressing gown with light, making the flesh of exposed breast and thigh creamy and powdery and translucent.
“Oh, Christ!” Vicky switched the radio off with a violent flourish. “Did you hear that?”
“No.”
“Some pop singer has burned down his house in Virginia Water — as a protest.”
“A protest?” Hutchman spoke absent-mindedly. It had just occurred to him that he was going to need a gas centrifuge to purify the cestron sufficiently for use in a laser.
“With full press and television coverage, of course. How much do you think the publicity will be worth to him?”
“Perhaps he wasn’t looking at it that way.”
“Perhaps my ass,” she said with uninspired coarseness. “You don’t understand the whole ‘Be a millionaire for peace’ philosophy, Lucas. The thing, is to do exactly what you want to do, gratify every dirty or selfish little desire you have, but proclaim loudly that you’re doing it for peace. That way you can have a hell of a good time and still feel morally superior.”
“There’s no point getting into a state about it.” Hutchman was suddenly impatient to get into the office and start going through Westfield’s catalogue library. He should also be able to get advice from someone in the purchasing department.
“I can’t stand hypocrisy,” Vicky snapped.
“There’s hypocrisy about hypocrisy,” Hutchman said incautiously, his thoughts now wholly centered on the antibomb machine.
“What do you mean?”
Hutchman saw the danger of suggesting that his wife was jealous rather than indignant. “Nothing. Just playing with words.” He swallowed the cold remainder of his coffee, not because he wanted it, but to indicate that he was in a hurry to go to work.
Walking through the Westfield research building toward his office, he saw the first indications that the annihilation of a crowded city had made some kind of mark on everyday life. A few of the smaller offices and cubicles were empty, and others were unusually populated as staff got together to discuss the newscasts. There was an atmosphere of tension, heightened rather than relieved by occasional bursts of defiant laughter. Hutchman was strangely reassured. He knew perfectly well that Vicky was capable of concern for other human beings — more than once she had fled from the room in tears when surprised by the face of a murdered child on the television screen — but her determined, pragmatical insularity of the previous evening had frightened him. That, perhaps, was what the dream had been about. A woman, a womb-carrier, a life-source, looking at death with coolly disinterested eyes.
Muriel Burnley arrived at his office at the same time as Hutchman. She was carrying the straw basket which served her in place of a handbag, arid under her arm was a roll of paper which looked like yet another travel poster for her office.
“Good morning, Mr. Hutchman,” she said watchfully, the verbal equivalent of moving pawn to king four in the day’s new battle.
“Morning, Muriel.” Without quite understanding it, Hutchman could sense the importance Muriel attached to the daily exchange of formal greetings and he had never risked not responding. He opened the door to her office, followed her into the claustrophobic cave, and picked up the small sheaf of mail from her desk. Muriel slipped out of her brown tweed coat, a movement which involved a zooming upward of her incongruously large bosom. Hutchman averted his eyes — knowing she was studying him from behind her brown lenses — and riffled through the mail.
“There’s nothing very pressing here,” he said. “Take care of it for me, will you? Use your own judgment. I’m going to be busy today and I don’t want any interruptions.”
Muriel sniffed disapprovingly and took the bunch of envelopes from him. He went into his own office, closed the connecting door carefully, and after a few moments’ thought rang Cliff Taylor, Westfield’s chief of electronic development. Taylor sounded both surprised and sleepy, but he made no complaint about being called so early in the morning.
“What can I do for you, Hutch?”
“Ah… well, I’m trying out something involving microwave radiation and I want to do the breadboard work myself. I wondered if you could give me the use of a room for a month or so.”
“I don’t know, Hutch. We’ve got all kinds of requirements being thrown at us on the Jack-and-Jill program… Is it important?”
“Very.” Hutchman traced a large D on the glassy surface of his desk. D for death. Big D used to mean Dallas and death, now it means Damascus and…
“Well, why don’t you get Mackeson to slap a few priority points on it to satisfy the computer gang?”
“It’s a semiprivate job, Cliff. Could be valuable to Westfield eventually, but I want to keep it to myself in case the whole thing fizzles out into nothing. I couldn’t go to Mackeson.”
“Can’t help you then. I mean… what sort of facilities did ou want?” Taylor was beginning to sound querulous, apparentlY sensing that Hutchman was being dishonest with him.
“Nothing much. A bench in a room I can lock up. The power supplies don’t even have to be stabilized.”
“Just a minute, Hutch. You said microwave a minute ago. How micro is micro?”
“Pretty micro.” Hutchman could feel the conversation getting out of hand — the very first person to whom he had mentioned what would have to be the world’s most secret project was becoming suspicious and asking pertinent questions. “Maybe 6 x 10^18 Hertz.”
“Christ! That kills it altogether. The zoning regulations don’t allow us to squirt that sort of radiation around unless we have all kinds of special shielding installed in the building. Sorry, Hutch.”
“It’s all right.” Hutchman put the phone down and sat staring at the frosted-glass partition and the moving gray blur which meant that Don Spain had arrived in the office earlier than usual. The project was going as he might have predicted, following the same pattern as his previous brushes with physical reality — at the lowest level — the “ten-minute” car repair jobs in which, after a full hour, he was still struggling to budge the first nut. Some people had the blessed knack of controlling their circumstances and mastering materials — others, like Hutchman, had to be content with building beautiful edifices in logic, knowing all the while they were incapable of translating them into actuality. His throat was constricting with helpless rage when the internal phone rang. He snatched it before Muriel could pick up the extension.
“Hello, Hutch.” It was Taylor again. “I’ve been thinking around your problem. Did you know that Westfield’s have the use of a lab in the Jeavons Institute over at Camburn?”
“I’d heard about it, vaguely.” Hutchman’s heart began a steady, peaceful pounding.
“It’s a fairly informal arrangement we fixed up about the time they got old man Westfield to outfit their cryogenics suite. What it boils down to is that we have the use of the lab when they aren’t pushed for space.”
“And what’s the situation now?”
“As far as I know they’ll be pretty well marking time till after Christmas. If you like I’ll ring Professor Duering and see if I can fix it for you to go over there.”
“I’d be grateful if you would, Cliff.” Hutchman, choking on a tide of warm thankfulness, had difficulty getting the words out in a normal tone. When he set the phone down he experienced a heady moment of certitude. He left his office and hurried upstairs to the purchasing department, where he spent more than two hours making notes in the catalogue library and checking on the availability of major items. In the afternoon he got confirmation from Taylor that the Jeavons Institute Laboratory was available, and drove over to look at it and collect the keys from Duering. By five o’clock, his normal quitting time, he had not done a single stroke of work on behalf of Westfield’s, but he was ready to begin drawing detailed schematics for the antibomb machine. He got Muriel to order him a pot of tea as she was leaving, and, as the building fell silent for the weekend, settled in to preparing the first drawings.
An hour later, when his concentration was at its height, he became aware of a sudden unease, a sense that something was wrong. His mind had sunk too deeply into the complex of lines and symbols to be easily distracted, but part of him began to keep guard, to spread its network of perception.
He started convulsively as he realized he was being observed through the frosty glass, then came the secondary realization that it had to be Don Spain. The accountant must also have been working late, but the unnatural silence which had made Hutchman unaware of his presence for an hour could only have been achieved by intent. With cool ripples of shock still coursing through his system, Hutchman casually slid his sheets of graph paper into a folder and covered it with his blotter. Spain’s face remained motionless at the partition. Hutchman took a small pencil sharpener from a drawer and threw it hard at the ghostly face. It struck the partition with a sharp crack, almost splintering the glass, and Spain disappeared from view. A few seconds later he opened the connecting door and entered from Muriel’s office.
“What’s the idea, Hutch?” he asked indignantly. “You might have smashed that glass into my face.”
“What the hell’s the idea of standing out there staring at me?”
“I didn’t know you were here. I was working late and I thought I heard a noise in your office so I came out to see what it was.”
“Thanks,” Hutchman said heavily, making no attempt to conceal his dislike of the other man. “It didn’t occur to you to open the door?”
“I didn’t want to burst in on you. After all…” Spain chuckled throatily “…you might have had a woman in here.”
“That’s the first thought that popped into your mind, is it?”
Spain shrugged and continued to grin. “It isn’t like you to work late, Hutch, and you’ve been acting a bit strange all day. Those symptoms are all part of the Batterbee syndrome. You remember Batterbee, don’t you?”
Hutchman nodded as his dread of Spain returned in full force. Batterbee had been a senior project engineer, much celebrated in Westfield lore, who had lost his job through being caught
