It was another poem, in Bradshaw's handwriting:
TO LAURA
If light were dark
And dark were light,
Moon a black hole
In the blaze of night,
A raven's wing
As bright as tin,
Then you, my love,
Would be darker than sin.
At breakfast I had read the same poem aloud to Arnie and Phyllis. It had been printed twenty-odd years ago in the Bridgeton _Blazer_, over the initials G.R.B. I had a gestalt, and Bridgeton and Pacific Point came together in a roaring traffic of time. G.R.B. George Roy Bradshaw.
'When did he write this poem to you, Laura?'
'Last spring, when he lent me the Yeats.'
I left her reading it over to herself, trying to recapture the spring.
chapter 30
Passing through the lobby of the Surf House, I noticed Helen's mother sitting by herself in a far corner. She was deep in thought and she didn't look up until I spoke:
'You're sitting up late, Mrs. Hoffman.'
'I don't have much choice,' she said resentfully. 'I'm supposed to be sharing a cottage with Mrs. Deloney, and it was entirely her idea. But she put me out so she can entertain her friend in private.'
'You mean Roy Bradshaw?'
'That's what he calls himself now. I knew George Bradshaw when he was glad to be given a good hot meal, and I served him more than one in my own kitchen.'
I pulled up a chair beside hers. 'All this adds up to an interesting coincidence.'
'I think it does, too. But I'm not supposed to talk about it.'
'Who says so?'
'Mrs. Deloney.'
'Does she tell you what to do?'
'No, but it was nice of her to take me out of that crummy room in the Pacific Hotel and--' She paused, considering.
'And stash you in the lobby here?'
'It's only temporary.'
'So is life. Are you and your husband going to take orders from people like the Deloneys until the day you die? You get nothing out of it, you know, except the privilege of being pushed around.'
'Nobody pushes Earl around,' she said defensively. 'You leave Earl out of this.'
'Have you heard from him?'
'I haven't, and I'm worried about Earl. I tried to phone home two nights in a row, and nobody answered. I'm afraid he's drinking.'
'He's in the hospital,' I said.
'Is he sick?'
'He made himself sick with too much whisky.'
'How do you know that?'
'I helped to get him to the hospital. I was in Bridgeton yesterday morning. Your husband talked to me, quite freely toward the end. He admitted Luke Deloney had been murdered but he had orders from the top to let it go as an accident.'
Her eyes darted around the lobby, shyly and shamefully. There was no one in sight but the night clerk and a couple who didn't look married renting a room from him. But Mrs. Hoffman was as nervous as a cricket on a crowded floor.
'You might as well tell me what you know,' I said. 'Let me buy you a cup of coffee.'
'I'd be up all night.'
'A cup of cocoa then.'
'Cocoa sounds good.'
We went into the coffee shop. Several orchestra members in mauve jackets were drinking coffee at the counter and complaining in the language of their tribe about the pay. I sat in a booth facing Mrs. Hoffman and the plate glass door, so that I could see Bradshaw if he came out through the lobby.
'How did you come to know Bradshaw, Mrs. Hoffman?'
'Helen brought him home from City College. I think she was stuck on him for a while, but I could see that he wasn't stuck on her. They were more friends. They had interests in common.'
'Like poetry?'
'Like poetry and play-acting. Helen said he was very talented for a boy his age, but he was having a hard time staying in college. We wangled him a part-time job running the elevator in the apartments. All it paid was five a week, but he was glad to have it. He was as thin as a rake and as poor as Job's turkey when we knew him. He claimed he came from a wealthy family in Boston, that he ran away from his freshman year at Harvard to be on his own. I never really believed him at the lime--I thought he was maybe ashamed of his folks and putting on the dog--but I guess it was true after all. They tell me his mother is loaded.' She gave me a questioning look.
'Yes. I know her.'
'Why would a young fellow run away from all that money? I spent most of my own life trying to get a little to stick to my fingers.'
'Money usually has strings attached to it.'
I didn't go into a fuller explanation. The waitress brought Mrs. Hoffman's cocoa and my coffee. I said when she had retreated behind the counter:
'Have you ever known a woman named Macready? Letitia 0. Macready?'
Mrs. Hoffman's hand fumbled with her cup and spilled some brown liquid in the saucer. I was fleetingly conscious that her hair was dyed an unlikely shade of red and that she might once have been a handsome woman with a good figure and a gaudy taste in clothes. But she couldn't be Tish Macready. She'd been married to Earl Hoffman for over forty years.
She put a folded paper napkin under her cup to absorb the spillage. 'I knew her to say hello to.'
'In Bridgeton?'
'I'm not supposed to talk about Letitia. Mrs. Deloney--'
'Your daughter's in a refrigerated drawer and all you give me is Mrs. Deloney.'
She bowed her head over the shiny formica table. 'I'm afraid of her,' she said, 'of what she can do to Earl.'
'Be afraid of what she's already done to him. She and her political pals made him seal up the Deloney case, and it's been festering inside of him ever since.'
'I know. It's the first time Earl ever laid down on the job deliberately.'
'You admit that?'
'I guess I have to. Earl never said it out in so many words, but I knew, and Helen knew. It's why she left us.'
And why, perhaps, in the long run Helen couldn't stay honest.
