‘Centurion Publius Sextius is in Modena, on your orders, Caesar.’
‘Yes, yes, I know that, but according to my calculations he should be heading back by now. Has he sent a message?’
‘No, not that I know of.’
‘If a letter arrives from him, inform me immediately, at any time of day or night and no matter what I am doing.’
‘You’re expected shortly at the Temple of Jupiter Optimus Maximus at the Capitol to offer a sacrifice. If you’re feeling strong enough, of course.’
Caesar took another sip of the potion and looked Silius in the eye.
‘Of course. At times I forget I’m the High Priest of Rome and yet it should be my foremost concern. . No bath and no massage, then.’
‘That depends on you, Caesar,’ replied Silius.
‘Remember: wake me, even if I’m sleeping.’
‘Sorry?’
‘If a message from Sextius arrives.’
‘Of course. Don’t worry.’
‘It should be the first of my concerns. .’ he repeated, as if talking to himself.
Silius looked at him with a puzzled expression, trying to follow Caesar’s meandering thoughts.
‘. . my priesthood, that is. And yet I’ve never believed that the gods care a whit about us. Why should they?’
‘It’s the first time I’ve heard you say such a thing. What are you thinking of, commander?’
‘Don’t you know why we burn victims on the altar day after day? It’s so that the gods will see the smoke rising from our cities and remember not to trample them when they walk invisibly on the earth. Otherwise they would crush us as easily as we crush an ant.’
‘What an interesting analogy, sir,’ replied Silius. ‘Antistius said to drink it all,’ he added, pointing.
Caesar picked up the cup again and downed the potion.
‘In fact, there is no smoke so black or so dense as that of scorched flesh. Believe me, I know.’
Silius knew as well. And he knew what his commander was thinking of. Silius had been at his side at Pharsalus and at Alexandria, in Africa and in Spain. Ever since Caesar had crossed the Rubicon, the bodies he’d seen burning had been those not of uncivilized enemies but of citizens like himself. The bodies of Roman citizens. Burned into Silius’s memory were images of the battlefield of Pharsalus covered with the corpses of fifteen thousand fellow citizens, including knights, senators, former magistrates. From his horse, Caesar had scanned the field of slaughter with the eyes of a hawk. He had said, ‘It’s what they asked for,’ but in a low voice, as if talking to himself, as if to clear his conscience.
It was Caesar who shook Silius from his thoughts this time, saying, ‘Come now. They’re waiting for us and I still have to get ready.’
They went down together and Silius helped Caesar to wash and dress.
‘Shall I call for the litter?’ Silius asked.
‘No. We’ll go on foot. The stroll will do me good.’
‘Then I’ll call your guard.’
‘No, don’t bother. Actually, I’m thinking I should get rid of them.’
‘Of your personal guard? Why would you do that?’
‘I don’t like the idea of going around my own city with bodyguards. That’s what tyrants do.’
Silius regarded him with amazement but said nothing. He blamed Caesar s strange attitude and behaviour on his illness. Could the disease be influencing the way he thought?
‘After all,’ Caesar continued, ‘the senators have approved a
Silius was dumbfounded. He couldn t believe what he was hearing and was already thinking of how to prevent Caesar from taking such a foolhardy decision. He asked to be excused, went down to the ground floor and instructed several of the servants to follow them at a distance with a litter.
They walked down the Sacred Way, passing in front of the Temple of Vesta and the basilica that Caesar was building with the spoils of his campaign against the Gauls. Although he had dedicated it two years before, driven by a sense of urgency even then, the work had not yet been completed.
It was a magnificent structure nonetheless, clad in precious marble, with a wide central nave and two aisles. The basilica was one of the gifts that Caesar had offered the city, but certainly not the last. Since his return from Alexandria, Rome no longer satisfied him. The city had grown in a disorderly, unharmonious way, building upon building, creating an impression of unseemly clutter. The imposing roads, majestic palaces and extraordinary monuments of Alexandria, which excited the admiration of visitors from every part of the world, were utterly lacking in Rome.
The Forum to their right was beginning to fill up with people, but no one noticed Caesar because he’d pulled his toga over his head and his face wasn’t visible. They passed in front of the Temple of Saturn, the god who had ruled during the Age of Gold, back when men were happy with what the soil and their flocks offered them. Back when men lived in simple wooden huts, sleeping soundly after a modest meal shared around the table with their wives and children, before waking to birdsong.
Silius found himself thinking that the age destiny had reserved for him was quite different: an age of ferocity and greed, of incessant conflict, civil strife, the slaughter of Romans by other Romans, citizens banished, exiled, sentenced to death. A violent age, an age of war and betrayal. And hatred between brothers was the fiercest and most implacable hatred of all, Silius mused, as he glanced over at Caesar’s face, which was carved by the shadows of the toga that fell at the sides of his head. He wondered whether this man might truly be the founder of a new age. An age in which these seemingly endless hostilities would run their course and open on to an era of peace so lasting that it would make men forget how much blood had been spilled and how tenaciously their rancour had gripped them. He raised his eyes to the grand temple which dominated the city from the top of the Capitol.
The sky was dark.
2
Rome, the Sacred Way, 8 March, seven a.m.
A massive battle steed came forth from the main gate of Alesia, its proud rider dressed in gleaming armour and wearing the
Caesar waited, cloaked in red, seated on the magistrate’s chair outside the camp fortifications, surrounded by his officers and legionaries.
The city bastions were packed with a mute, unbelieving crowd, who watched as their supreme leader went forth to give himself up.
The great warrior rode his horse once around the man who had defeated him, then dismounted and cast off his weapons. He threw them at Caesar’s feet and sat down on the bare ground. By handing himself over to the Romans, he hoped to spare the city and the people he had ruled.
AGAIN: one of those flashes of memory that struck him with such force and frightening realism that he could not distinguish it from the physical world around him. He started when he heard Silius’s voice.
‘Are you not feeling well, commander?’
Caesar turned towards the Tullian prison. ‘Why did I have Vercingetorix killed?’ he murmured.
‘What are you saying, commander? It’s the law, everyone knows that. A defeated enemy is paraded behind the triumphal chariot and then strangled. That’s the way it’s always been.’
