may be something as inconsequential as the right day of the week or a time that can be checked. It’s only there to add confusion, to make us jump to the idea that if any truth is there, he can’t be telling lies. It is only a smoke screen, there to confuse us so the predator can continue his stalking uninterrupted and unobserved.
The sociopath uses lies to find more victims. Lying is often a fishing process, targeting the soft hearted. He gets his victims’ cooperation with his smiling lies. But he goes too far. He reaches a point where his response to questioning leaves you unsatisfied, confused, weary of his false front. The oft-told lie wears thin and is seen for what it is. It is here you must not turn away. It is at this point where questioning must bombard him until he slips and gives himself away. To pull away, to turn the other cheek, would only give the predator a free pass for bigger impropriety. When you reach this point, get away. Protect yourself. Put distance between the predator and his pawn. And perhaps the hardest thing of all, get the authorities involved. It has been your often thankless job to discover his indecency. It has been a dark and lonely job. Turn the evidence over to the police. Let society shine the bright light of truth on what has happened. And thank the Lord you finally got away.
Chapter Six — THE CLOSET
I was visited with heartbreaking emotions when I first proposed to write this book. I didn’t want needed details to again exploit any of his earlier victims. How, I wondered, could I teach people to avoid being victims in the future if I denied them the experience of the past? I strongly considered diluting the emotions, diluting the exploitation, diluting the impact on the individual. I was torn between wanting to protect others, and the natural tendency to protect myself from revisiting the terrible truths that wanted to seek me out and harm me once again. I wanted to hide. I wanted to dig a hole and pull myself in and never deal with the terror again. But if I truly wanted to help others avoid the traps set by a sociopath, I had to look straight into the face of the devil one more time. That sounds grand and altruistic, but admittedly, I had to use the truth to heal myself as well. If I looked away from evil, that evil would live inside me. If it continued to live inside me, I knew it would destroy me. I decided it was paramount to the truth, important to the reader, and absolutely necessary to my well being to be open and frank and relentlessly honest. There were times I turned away from memories too painful to consider. But I always came back. I began again, in spite of the pain, and as the truth found its way into print, the pain was slowly replaced by pride. Surely the truth would be important to strangers who happened on this book. And surely, I began to see and understand, the truth would heal me. I prayed the truth might set me free.
I have minimized personal, identifying details. I have tried to protect the victim’s identity. Still, I had to use enough detail that the behaviors of the sociopath could be put on display and recognized by the reader. Protecting identity while fully exposing techniques and tools used by the sociopath has been hard. I suspect I have erred in each direction. I hope I have not strayed too far in either misdirection. I ask the reader to look past the personal details of the sociopath’s victims, and see the manipulator, the devil himself, at work. Observe closely. And being aware, beware. Observe the manipulations, lies, deceits, disguises, and deviant patterns of the sociopath. See the absence of conscience, emotional vacancy, total disregard and contempt for his victims. Imagine no loyalties, no concern or caring for anyone but himself. Imagine no restraints. Imagine, if you dare, the blank tablet inside the sociopath’s mind.
Chapter Seven -THE PHONE CALL
I remember every detail of the phone call. I have perfect recall of the emotions that swept over me and threatened to pull me under. I recoiled from the fear that filled me. I remember my knees buckling and collapsing on the couch. The voice was telling me that Marvin was accused of being a pedophile, of seducing children. The sociopath beside me had finally gone too far. Children had talked and told, and while a dread nearly filled my soul, a small part of me felt a tiny tremor of hope. Now, perhaps, there might be a reckoning. But that call turned many lives upside down past understanding. The call brought horror out in the open and nearly robbed me of reason. I remember the voice on the phone being partially drowned out by a loud ringing noise in my ears, and how I was struggling to keep from passing out. I remember dropping the receiver onto the cushion next to me because my hand was trembling so violently that I could no longer grip the phone. I was so traumatized by the news that it took me a full minute to realize that the sobbing voice saying, “I’m so sorry, I didn’t know”, over and over again, was mine. The guilt and responsibility that I felt was crushing. My not knowing, my turning away from the truth, had protected Marvin. My turning a blind eye had let the sociopath beside me work his evil. It was my fault. My fault. My fault. Just as Marvin had intended.
I fell into his trap once more. My fault. My fault. But of course it wasn’t. Marvin had turned the pointing finger toward everyone else in his ever expanding circle. He didn’t have to give himself permission to be a pedophile. He was that already. It was his nature. But somewhere along the path, he had given himself permission to act on that base impulse. He had to give himself permission to act out against our most vulnerable, our children. He gave himself permission to rob children of their childhood, their innocence, their future. And all the while, he pointed the finger of blame in every direction but his own. Marvin did not have the ability to feel guilt. He told himself he was smarter than all the rest, that whatever happened to feed his desire was acceptable. If he could put blame on others, so much the better. The children’s lives were forever changed. Despite the result of the investigation, they will bear their scars forever. But “my fault, my fault,” I told myself, just as Marvin had intended.
The authorities began their investigations. Children as young as 8 years old were asked emotionally painful questions. They were led away from the darkness they had endured, but they were never completely cleansed. A corner of their mind stayed black. There was always and forever a place inside their head they visited in dreams, a place where the sociopath smiled and beckoned into the dark again. “My fault, my fault,” they thought. “My fault, my fault,” they cried, just as I had cried, and just as Marvin had intended all along.
Most of the children involved were initially escorted from their school classroom into a nearby conference room. How frightening that first interview must have been. They had to discuss this horrifying subject without warning. They had nowhere to hide, nowhere to escape. Again, just as Marvin had intended.
The entire community learned of this issue. The school became a haunting reminder of these events. The younger children whispered to each other. The older children spoke the horror out loud, and pointed at the victims as they passed by in the hall. The searching interviews were so psychologically scarring that some parents denied authorities access to their children and their stories. Once again, it was just as Marvin had intended.
All the interviews were documented in writing and videoed so no details would be forgotten. The amount of humiliation that these children, these victims, endured from self-accusation and self-doubt was nearly insurmountable. It was beyond heartbreaking. The investigation uncovered many secrets. I personally brought forward ten children, some as young as 8 years old, who told of Marvin’s sexual improprieties. Did we find them all? There is a substantial amount of evidence indicating otherwise. The evidence suggests they will not be the last. The trauma was massive and far-reaching. The school and all the children who attended, the neighborhood and all the children that lived there, all of the people who loved those children, struggled. They struggled to emotionally survive these hideous discoveries. Some of them struggle still. Some will never get past this painful experience. Some will struggle all their lives. Some will die without resolution. Some will always have the monster in their minds.
Here are some of the techniques Marvin used to further his sexual exploits. He used his own, unsuspecting son to bait his trap, to lure other children into his depraved lair. The victims included not only children but also family members and friends of his only child.
He was well known in the neighborhood for extending frequent social invitations to his son’s friends and playmates on his child’s behalf. The idea for a party or gathering of children always came from Marvin, never from his son, though the opposite seemed the case. The number of parties was excessive, as was the number of children invited. A neighbor described his house as “having a steady stream of children parading through it, children pouring out the windows and doors. We thought of Marvin as a pied piper”. In retrospect that was an apt analogy. Just as the Pied Piper led the mice of Hamlin to their death, so did this modern day piper lead the neighborhood children down a destructive path to a devil’s playground. Under the guise of “Mr. Fun,” he beckoned the children, and the children followed him home.
