It was a cheap shot.
Jimmy shifted his weight from one foot to the other. His face turned the colour of guava juice.
'We're working things out,' Garrett told me.
'With a gun?'
'Jimmy and I made a pact for the day, man. No arguing. You want to stay here, abide by that rule.'
His tone made me remember trips to Rockport when I was in middle school, Jimmy and Garrett college kids, forced to babysit me while my dad got drunk down on the jetties. Garrett had resented me tagging along, told me to shut up so they could meet some girls. The memory brought back that irrational anger, shaped in the mind of an elevenyearold, that this was all Jimmy Doebler's fault-that he had always inserted himself into our lives at the wrong time.
I shoved the Lorcin back into the bag, tossed it to Garrett. 'Lars Elder passed along some headlines you've been making in the hightech magazines. Betatesting problems. Glitches in the software. I didn't understand half of it, but I understood several million in debt. Millions, Garrett, with six zeroes. And your friend here wants me to back off? '
Jimmy said nothing.
Garrett rummaged in the bag, found a prerolled joint, stuck it in his mouth. 'If we thought it was your business-'
'You pawned the ranch.'
'And Jimmy got divorced today,' he yelled. The joint fell out of his mouth, into his lap.
'Okay, Tres? So shut the fuck up.'
His voice wavered, was closer to breaking than I'd ever heard.
Jimmy Doebler stared down at his unfinished brickwork.
I remembered years ago, seeing heat tester cones in Jimmy's old portable kiln-how they turned to pools of liquid rock in the fire. Right now, Jimmy's eyes looked a little hotter than those cones.
'All we want to do,' Garrett told me, 'is build this damn kiln. You want to help, fine. You want to criticize, get your sorry ass home.'
I looked at the halfbuilt little pig house.
I looked at my brother's fingers, scarred and bleeding and crusted with mortar.
My anger drained away, left a taste in my mouth not unlike a TV dinner tray.
I said, 'Hand me a trowel.'
CHAPTER 3
By seven o'clock, we'd built the exterior walls four feet high around the cook box. The chimney and the doorway arch were finished.
The sun was sinking behind the hills on the far side of the lake. My skin itched from sweat and lime dust, my shoulders felt like sandbags, and I was thinking warm thoughts about cold margaritas.
I can't say I felt any better about being around Jimmy and Garrett, but I'd managed to keep my mouth shut and coexist with them for an afternoon.
Jimmy surveyed our masonry.
'Good,' he decided. 'Got to place the kiln goddess.'
He ambled to his pickup and came back with a ceramic statuette-a misshapen female gargoyle glazed a nasty shade of KoolAid red. With great reverence, Jimmy placed her over the doorway, readjusted her a few times to get the angle right.
Garrett said, 'What the hell is that?'
'Kiln goddess. You know-keep my pots from breaking. Keep them from turning out ugly. I'm naming her Ruby.'
Garrett grunted. 'You're a masochist.'
I wasn't sure Jimmy knew what that word meant, but he grinned slowly. 'Stayed friends with you, haven't I?'
Garrett let him have the point.
We left Garrett's van and Jimmy's pickup at the kiln site, piled into my Ford F150, and drove back up the gravel road to Jimmy's house.
The white dome was visible from just about anywhere on the lake-an upsidedown radar dish Jimmy had gotten cheap from a military salvager when Bergstrom Air Force Base closed down. He'd hauled the thing up here piece by piece, reassembled it at the top of his six acres, insulated it, wired it for electricity, and bingo: a two thousandsquarefoot fibreglass igloo.
We stayed long enough to use the outhouse, grab barbecue supplies, stock the ice chest. Jimmy loaned me a fresh shirt that said RACAfest '98. We loaded my Ford and rumbled back down to the waterfront, where we proceeded to use Jimmy's new kiln as our cooking pit.
The summer sun had just set. A line of clouds was thickening on the horizon, charging the air with the metallic smell of storm. Around the curve of Jimmy's cove, the wind blew black lines across the water, dipping the buoys in the boating channel. In the distance, I could make out the edge of Mansfield Dam-a concrete monolith turning blue in its own shadow.
Garrett made the fire. Jimmy marinated fajitas in Shiner Bock and jalapeno juice, snapped a branch off the nearest wild sage plant to use as a basting brush. I mixed highoctane margaritas and poured them into Jimmy's handmade ceramic goblets.
We watched the sunset fade to purple and the storm clouds roll in. Nobody said a word about anything important.
After dinner, lightning traced veins in the clouds. The chirr of crickets replaced the daytime hum of cicadas. Flames glowed in the doorway of the kiln, washing the ugly little goddess in orange light.
Leave it to me to ruin a perfectly good ceasefire.
'Techsan,' I said. 'Give me the full story.'
Jimmy reclined against a mesquite, putting himself back into the shadows.
Garrett looked toward the kiln-the shelves of unfired pots, their plastic cover ballooning in the breeze. 'You ever make yourself a promise, little bro? Tell yourself someday, you'll do suchand such?'
'Play pro ball,' I answered. 'Be a Fellow at Christ College. Neither happened.'
Garrett nodded. 'I told myself years ago I was going to make a quick fortune, get out of programming, spend the rest of my life hitting Buffett concerts and Caribbean islands.
Jimmy, he wanted to settle down making ceramics right here. Am I right, Jimmy?'
'You're right,' Jimmy murmured from the shadows.
'Then we turned thirtyfive, little bro. Then we turned forty.'
'You quit your job,' I said. 'Sixteen years, and you quit.'
In the firelight, Garrett's face looked as red as the kiln goddess'.
'Maybe you can't understand. We've been in Austin, Jimmy and me, way before the hightech boom. We go back to the Apple lie days-working our little grunt jobs in the big companies, making peanuts. Then suddenly we start seeing twentyyearolds getting signup bonuses for four times our yearly salaries, zitfaced kids at UT writing programs for their undergrad theses and retiring multimillionaires the next year, bought out by venture capitalists. It's fucking unreal. Jimmy and me-we realize we've missed the Gold Rush. We were born too early. You have any idea how that feels?'
'So you decided to risk a startup company,' I said. 'And you screwed up.'
His eyes had a look of vacant anger, like an old soldier struggling to remember the details of a battle. 'Mr. Sympathy. All right, yes. We screwed up. Lady named Ruby McBride-somebody Jimmy and I knew from way back. She invited us for drinks at this bar she owns down at Point Lone Star-she owns a whole fucking marina, okay?
Ruby said she had some money to invest. She'd done some programming, had some ideas for a new encryption product. She wanted our help. The three of us agreed we could do something big togethersomething we could control all the way from the planning stages to the IPO. Ruby and Jimmy…'
