a sailor, you'd wonder whether he trolled the women's mousse and spray aisles.
Eddie Blackhawk, the other guy with them, shook his head. “If he's not interested, that doesn't make him foolish.”
“Says you.”
“Live and let live, Adrian. It's better for everyone.”
As the guy eased back on the velvet couch, Eddie was more Biker than Goth in his jeans and shitkickers, so he looked as out of place as Jim did—although given the hulking size of the guy and those weird-ass red-brown eyes of his. it was hard to imagine him fitting in with anyone but a bunch of pro wrestlers: even with his hair in that long braid, nobody razzed him at the construction site—not even the meathead roofers who gave the biggest lip.
“So, Jim, you don't talk much.” Adrian scanned the crowd, no doubt looking for a Blue Dress of his own. After focusing on the dancers who writhed in iron cages, he flagged their waitress. “And after working with you for a month, I know it's not because you're stupid.”
“Don't have a lot to say.”
“Nothing wrong with that,” Eddie murmured.
This was probably why Jim liked Eddie better. The SOB was another member of the Spare Club for Men, a guy who never used a word when a nod or a shake of the head could get his point across. How he'd gotten so tight with Adrian, whose mouth had no neutral on its stick shift, was a mystery.
How he roomed with the fucker was inexplicable.
Whatever. Jim had no intention of going into all their hows, whys and wheres. It was nothing personal. They were actually the kind of hardheaded smart-asses he would have been friends with in another time, on another planet, but here and now, their shit was none of his business—and he'd only gone out with them because Adrian had threatened to keep asking until he did.
Bottom line, Jim lived life by the code of the disconnected and expected other people to leave him to his I- am-an-island routine. Since getting out of the military, he'd been vagabonding it, ending up in Caldwell only because it was where he'd stopped driving—and he was going to hit the road after the project they were all working on was finished.
The thing was, given his old boss, it was better to stay a moving target. No telling how long it was going to be before a “special assignment” popped up and Jim got tagged again.
Finishing off his beer, he figured it was a good thing he owned only his clothes, his truck, and that broken- down Harley. Sure, he didn't have much to show for being thirty-nine—
Oh, man…the date.
He was forty. Tonight was his birthday.
“So I gotta know,” Adrian said, leaning in. “You have a woman, Jim? That why you're not picking up Blue Dress? I mean, come
“Looks aren't everything.”
“Yeah, well, they sure as hell don't hurt.”
The waitress came over, and while the others ordered another round, Jim shot a glance at the woman they were jawing about.
She didn't look away. Didn't flinch. Just slowly licked her red lips like she'd been waiting for him to make eye contact again.
Jim refocused on his empty Bud and shifted in the booth, feeling like someone had slipped lit coals into his shorts. It had been a long, long time for him. Not a dry spell, not even a drought. Sahara Desert was more like it.
And what do you know, his body was ready to end that stretch of nuthin' but left-handers.
“You should go over there,” Adrian said. “Introduce yourself.”
“I'm cool where I am.”
“Which means I may have to reassess your intelligence.” Adrian drummed his fingers on the table, the heavy silver ring he wore flashing. “Or at least your sex drive.”
“Be my guest.”
Adrian rolled his eyes, clearly getting the picture that there was no negotiating when it came to Blue Dress. “Fine, I'll lay off.”
The guy sat back into the sofa so that he and Eddie were striking similar sprawls. Predictably, he couldn't stay silent for long. “So did you two hear about the shooting?”
Jim frowned. “There another one?”
“Yup. Body was found down by the river.”
“They tend to turn up there.”
“What is this world coming to,” Adrian said, throwing back the last of his beer. “It's always been this way.”
“You think?”
Jim leaned back as the waitress planted freshies in front of the boys. “Nope, I know.”
So he was very aware of what she did and why she had to go to confession at least once a week. “Go, my child. Be well.”
As he closed the panel between them, panic nailed her in the chest. In these quiet moments when she laid out her sins, the degrading place where she'd ended up was exposed, the words she spoke shining a brilliant spotlight on the horrible way she spent her nights.
The ugly images always took a while to fade. But the choking feeling that came from knowing where she was headed next was just going to get worse.
Gathering her rosary together, she put the beads and links in her coat pocket and picked her purse up off the floor. Footsteps right outside the confessional stopped her from leaving.
She had reasons for keeping a low profile, some of which having nothing to do with her “job.”
When the sound of heavy heels dimmed, she pulled open the red velvet curtain and stepped out.
Caldwell's St. Patrick's Cathedral was maybe half the size of the one down in Manhattan, but it was big enough to inspire awe in even the casually faithful. With gothic arches like the wings of angels and a lofty ceiling that seemed only inches away from Heaven, she felt both unworthy and grateful to be under its roof.
And she loved the smell inside. Beeswax and lemon and incense. Lovely.
Walking down by the chapels of the saints, she weaved in and out of the scaffolding that had been erected so that the clerestory's mosaics could be cleaned. As always, the racks of flickering votive candles and the dim spotlights on the still statues calmed her, reminding her that there was an eternity of peace waiting at the far end of life.
Assuming you were allowed past the pearly gates.
The cathedral's side doors were closed after six p.m., and as usual, she had to go out the main entrance— which seemed like a waste of the thing's effort. The carved panels were much better suited to welcoming the hundreds who came for services each Sunday…or the guests of important marriage ceremonies…or the virtuous faithful.
No, she was more of a side-door kind of person.
At least, she was now.
Just as she leaned all her weight on the thick wood, she heard her name and looked over her shoulder.
No one was there, as far as she could see. The cathedral was empty even of people praying in the pews.
“Hello?” she called out, voice echoing. “Father?” When there was no reply, a chill licked up her spine.
On a quick surge, she heaved herself against the left side of the door and burst out into the cold April night. Holding the lapels of her wool coat together, she moved fast, her flats making a
As she panted, she looked around. Shadows curled on the ground beneath leafless trees, and the moon was
