'I'm sorry!' Argyll said quickly, but without looking at her. 'I did not mean to imply blasphemy against your father. We shall never know what demons drove him to such a resort. Even Mary I could forgive, if she had not taken Toby with her! That… that is…' He was unable to continue. The tears spilled over his cheeks and he turned away, shadowing his face.
Jenny stood up, stiff and unsteady. 'Thank you for coming, Mr. Monk. I think there is little of any use that we can tell you. Perhaps you would excuse us. Pendle will see you to the door.' She went to the bell rope and pulled it. The butler appeared almost immediately and Monk and Orme took their leave, after having given Mr. Argyll a card and requested that he formally identify the bodies the following day, when he was a little more recovered.
'Poor devil,' Orme said with feeling when they were outside on the icy footpath again. Mist was veiling the streetlamps as if in gauze. A frail sickle-shaped moon sailed between the stars, high above the rooftops. 'Both of 'em lost family in the one night. Funny 'ow an instant can change everything. D'you think she meant to?'
'Go over herself, or take him?' Monk asked, beginning to walk down towards the Westminster Bridge, where they would be more likely to find a hansom. He was still hoping it had been an accident.
'Not sure as I know,' Orme replied, keeping step with him. 'Din't look to me as if she were trying to jump. Facing the wrong way, for a start. Jumpers usually face the water.'
Monk felt a rush of warmth even though the slick of moisture on the footpath was turning to ice under his feet. He was not going to let go of hope, not yet.
Monk reached home before nine o'clock. His return was far later than it would have been on a more usual day, but there was little that was routine in his new job. Even his best effort might not be enough; second best certainly would not. Every day he learned more of the skills, the knowledge, and the respect that Durban had had. He admired the qualities that had earned that respect, and they awed him. He felt continually a step behind Durban. No, that was absurd. He was yards behind him.
He knew people and crime; he knew how to smell fear, how to probe lies, when to be confronting, and when to be oblique. However, he had never known how to inspire the love and loyalty of men under his command. They'd admired his intelligence, his knowledge, and his strength, and they'd been frightened of his tongue, but they did not like him. There'd been none of the fierce honor and friendship he had sensed from the beginning between Durban and his men.
He had crossed the river by ferry-there were no bridges this far down-and he was on the south bank now, where he and Hester had moved after accepting the new job. They could hardly live in Grafton Street anymore. It was miles from police headquarters in Wapping.
He walked up Paradise Street. The lamps misted and he could smell the river and hear the occasional foghorn as the mist drifted across the water. There was ice on the thin puddles in the street. It was still strange to him, nothing familiar.
He put his key into the lock in the door and pushed it open.
'Hester!'
She appeared immediately, apron tied around her waist, her hair pinned hastily and crookedly. She was carrying a broom in her hand but she dropped it as soon as she saw him, and rushed forward. She drew in breath, perhaps to say that he was late, then changed her mind. She studied his face and read the emotion in it.
'What happened?' she asked.
He knew what she was afraid of. She had understood why he had to accept the job in Durban 's place, both morally and financially. With Callandra gone to Vienna they could not afford the freedom or the uncertainty of taking on only private cases. Sometimes the rewards were excellent, but too often they were meager. Some cases could not be solved, or if they were, then the clients had the means to reward him only modestly. They could never plan ahead, and there was no one to whom they could turn to in a bad month, as they had before. Nor, it must be said honestly, at their ages should they need to. It was time to provide, not be provided for.
'What is it? What's wrong?' she asked when he did not answer.
'A suicide off Waterloo Bridge,' he replied. 'In fact, two, in a way. A young man and woman went off together, but we don't know if it was partly accidental or not.'
Relief flashed across her face, then instantly pity. 'I'm sorry. Were you called to it?'
'No, we were actually there. Saw it happen.'
She smiled gently and touched his face with the back of her fingers, perhaps aware her hands were dusty. Had she been still occupied with housework this late in the evening to keep her mind from worrying about him?
'That's horrible,' she said bleakly. 'They must have been very desperate to jump into the river at this time of the year.'
'They'd die whatever time it was,' he replied. 'The tide is very strong, and the river's filthy.' To another woman he would have moderated his answer, avoided the facts of death, but she had seen more people dying and dead than he had. Police work, no matter how grim at times, hardly compared with the battlefield or the losses afterwards to gangrene and fever.
'Yes, I know that,' she answered him. 'But do you suppose they knew before they jumped?'
Suddenly it was immediate and painfully, agonizingly real. Mary Havilland had been a woman like Hester, warm and full of emotions, capable of laughter and pain; now she was just an empty shell with the soul fled. Nobody anymore. He put his hands on Hester's shoulders and pulled her towards him, holding her tightly, feeling her slender body yield almost as if she could soften the awkward bones and shape herself to him.
'I don't know if she meant to jump and he tried to stop her,' he whispered into her hair, 'or if he pushed her over and she clung on to him and took him with her, or even if she meant to. I don't know how I'm going to find out, but I will.'
She held on to him for a few minutes longer, silently, then she pulled back and looked at him. 'You're frozen,' she said, suddenly practical. 'And I don't suppose you've eaten. The kitchen is still not really finished, but I have hot soup and fresh bread, and apple pie, if you'd like it.'
She was right: He was still cold from the long ride and the even colder river crossing afterwards. The butler's sandwich seemed a long time ago. He accepted. Between mouthfuls, he asked her about her day, and her progress in redecorating the house. Then he sat back, realizing how warm he was in all the ways that mattered.
'Who was she?' Hester asked.
'Mary Havilland,' he replied. 'Her father took his own life a couple of months ago.' He saw the shadow of grief in Hester's eyes, and the tightening of her mouth. 'Her sister believes that she did not recover from it,' he added. 'I'm sorry.'
She looked away. 'It's over,' she said quietly. She was referring to her own father, not Havilland's. 'Why did he do it?' she asked. 'Was it debt, too?'
'Apparently not,' he replied. 'He believed there was some danger of an accident in the tunnels. They're building some of the new sewers.'
'And not before time!' she said fervently. 'What sort of an accident?'
'I don't know.' He explained the family relationships briefly. 'Argyll says his father-in-law had a terror of landslips, cave-ins and so on. He became obsessed, lost his senses a bit.'
'And is that true?' she pressed, clearly still forcing herself to think only of the present case.
'I don't know.' He went on to tell her about Mary's proposed engagement to Toby Argyll, and that she had broken it off, but no reason had been given, except her distress over her father's death and that she refused to believe that he had caused it himself. She could not let the matter go.
'What was it, then?' Hester asked. 'Accident? Or murder?' She was being severely practical, but he saw the stiffness in her, the deliberate control, and the effort.
'I don't know. But the police investigated it. It was Runcorn's patch.' He looked at her steadily with a bleak smile.
She understood why that added irony and pain to the case. More than he wished, she had seen his ambition for authority, the way he had fought with, crushed, and infuriated Runcorn in the past. She did not know the flashes of memory and shame that Monk had had since then, the realization of how he had used Runcorn in his own climb to success, before the accident that had taken his memory. There were things that it was kind for forgetfulness to cleanse from the mind.
'But you're going to find out,' she said, watching him.
'Yes, I have to. She'll be buried in unhallowed ground if she meant to do it.'
'I know.' Tears filled Hester's eyes.
