don’t know-I’ve been Angel for so long…’
She fell silent, except for the harsh sound of her breathing, and Vittorio slipped his arms about her.
‘Come back to the house,’ he said gently. ‘It’s getting cold.’
But she didn’t seem to know that he was there.
‘I hate Angel,’ she said, still in the same gasping whisper. ‘She’s shallow and stupid and she knows nothing except how things look, and the right thing to say and wear, and what jewellery costs the most, and-’
‘Hey, steady, steady,’ he said, drawing her closer. ‘Why are you suddenly talking like this? Is it because of that nonsense in the magazine? How can you let it worry you?’
‘Because it drags me back,’ she said in despair. ‘I thought I could get free, but I can’t. There’s no way out because it changes you into someone else-someone you don’t want to be.’
He held her, feeling her trembling in his arms, cursing his own helplessness. He couldn’t cope with this. The woman that he knew infuriated him, kept him awake at night wondering, made him want to yell his frustration to the heavens. But when she collapsed into this vulnerable creature it devastated him, and all he wanted was to see her restored. It made no sense at all, and that scared him.
‘You’ve got to stop this,’ he urged. ‘It isn’t you.’
‘What is me? Do you know?’ Angel had a small flash of anger. ‘You’re another one who thinks he knows what I’m really like. To blazes with you. To blazes with all of them!’
‘That’s better,’ he said. ‘Fight me. Tell me I’m a pain in the neck. You know that’s what you really think.’
‘Yes,’ she said shakily.
‘And that’s what I’ve been ever since you came?’
‘That’s true.’
‘And I’m going to go on being just that.’
‘Stop it,’ she said, thumping him lightly. ‘I can’t take this. I just need to go and-and-’
‘What you need to do is hit me properly, which is what you’ve been longing to do from the start. It’s easy. Go on.’
She did as he said, thumping his shoulder harder and then harder as he urged her on.
‘You can do better than that. Remind yourself how much you hate me.’
‘No, it’s you who hates me,’ she said, laughing and crying together. ‘Because I’m a spoilt, rich bitch who took your home. You surely remember?’
‘I’m not sure I do,’ Vittorio said wryly. ‘
‘Didn’t I prove it today?’
‘Oh, that,’ he said, casting his mind back to an incident that felt like a hundred years ago. ‘Is that what you were trying to prove? You don’t do it very well. I don’t think being a vamp comes naturally to you.’
‘Oh, hell! I’m sorry, it’s just that you-no, it’s not your fault. It’s me-Angel-one of us. She really is selfish and horrible. You read what Gavin said.’
‘Don’t tell me this is about that oaf?’
‘Not him-everything. Gavin, and Joe, and Sam and-everything.’
‘Who’s Sam?’ he asked, not sure he’d heard her properly.
But Angel was weeping again as the dark waves chased through her mind, and Vittorio gave up talking, just held her tight.
At last he drew away from her, and looked at her face in the faint light from the moon.
‘You’re a mess,’ he said gently. ‘Come on, I’m taking you home.’
She choked slightly. ‘Not yet. I don’t want-’
‘I said I’m taking you home,’ he said firmly. ‘Don’t argue.’
She let him draw her to her feet and slip his arm about her waist. They walked in silence until the house was in sight, and she said, in a more normal voice, ‘I’m all right now. I don’t want anyone knowing about-anything.’
‘Don’t worry,’ he said, releasing her. ‘I won’t say a word. You can trust me.’
She nodded. ‘I know I can.’
They entered the house separately. Angel talked normally to Berta, almost as if her black mood had passed, but Vittorio watched, wondering. After a while, he went out to his battered old car, where he sat for a while, looking up at the window of her room, the room that had once been his own, but which now seemed strange and mysterious to him because she was there.
But no light appeared, and at last he drove away.
Standing at her window in the darkness, Angel watched Vittorio’s headlights gradually fading. Then she went to bed, fell asleep at once, and lay undisturbed all night. When she awoke in the morning, the sun was shining and she felt well and strong again.
CHAPTER FIVE
IT WAS several days before Angel saw him again. She was used to him dropping in during the evening, ostensibly for a friendly chat with Berta, but always having a word with her before he left. Gradually she’d come to look forward to these chats, which took the form of more or less friendly bickering, with an exciting edge.
But suddenly Vittorio vanished. She told herself he was just busy, but once, after a trip to Amalfi, she returned to find some estimates of necessary expenditure on her desk. Berta explained that he’d left them there while she was out.
It might have been an accident, but Angel had noticed him as she had driven past him, and could have sworn that he’d seen her. Which meant he’d come to the house when he had known she wasn’t there.
Taking the papers, she went out to find him, where he was working in the lemon orchard.
‘Do we really need to replace so much of the cliff railing?’ she asked. ‘You dealt with the place where I fell.’
‘Yes, and since then I’ve had a much closer look at the rest. It’s old, and money needs to be spent on it. I’d been planning it next year, but it’s worse than I thought, and the work needs to be done before winter. With your permission, I’ll put it in hand.’
‘Yes, please do that,’ Angel sighed.
She would have liked to stay and chat, perhaps even to tell him how his kindness had helped to chase away her demons. But his manner was that of a man impatient to get back to work, and it was as though the word
Angel understood. He was telling her that they were still mistress and servant, and the events of the other day must be forgotten. He would not presume on them, but-equally important-neither must she.
With a sigh, she turned away. When she looked back a few moments later, Vittorio was absorbed in his work, his head bent. She might not have existed.
As she returned to the house a decision was forming in her head. The thoughts had been hovering for a while as the bills mounted up remorselessly. When the fertiliser had been paid for, a machine would break down and either had to be repaired or bought new. Now she could no longer avoid facing the truth.
After hesitating a little longer, Angel picked up the phone and dialled a London number. It was the direct line to the editor of
‘Mack?’ she said brightly when he came on the line. ‘I’ll bet you never thought you’d hear from me.’
‘My pet, I knew you’d call. You never could resist a good deal, and I offered you a great deal.’
‘Oh, you think so? You want to invade my home and pay me peanuts?’
‘Invade your home, nothing! We’ll do a really high-class photo shoot, showing you in beautiful Italian surroundings, dressed to kill. You talk about your new life, how happy you are, how Joe Clannan can go soak his head because you’ve found something much better. It’ll be a couple of days’ work and you’ll pocket a nice fat fee.’
‘Not quite fat enough, I’m afraid,’ she said, trying to sound casual, although her heart was thumping. The next few minutes would be crucial.
‘Oho, you want more! OK, I’ll play-up to a point. How much more?’
