Lost Girls

a miracle would do, judging from the set faces of the jury who, although thoroughly screened to exclude socialists, feminists, and those who believed O. J. did it, knew a bona fide creep when they saw one. So as I raise my head from the pillow and blink my eyes open to the abusive light of a Toronto September dawn, I search my mind for a savior for the otherwise doomed Leonard Busch.

And nothing comes to me. But this is not unusual, given the time of day. The left ear buzzes, the right ear hums, my brain swollen inside its skull. Roll my head from side to side and let the whole mess slosh around. It's on occasions like these (i.e., the beginning of every day) that I thank God I live alone, for the fact is I find it difficult to tolerate close contact with others under the best of circumstances, and utterly impossible before nine. This may have to do with my particular habits and addictions, or it may not. But no matter if I've been drinking the night before or sipping herbal tea (if I ever have sipped herbal tea), I have woken with hangover symptoms every morning since I started practicing law. That was five years ago. Waking up in a state of physical and mental suffering is simply a side effect of my vocation. And just as the butcher endures his bloody aprons or the garbageman his stinking fingers, I have learned to live with it.

I raise myself stiffly from the white expanse of a singly occupied king-size bed and scuff over to the kitchen counter where, piled into a crystalline white anthill, my inspiration sits. Reduce its mass to a circle of powdery residue in two sinus-burning whiffs and with this I am able to swiftly conclude that the only chance Leonard has is Lisa, the accused's eighteen-year-old girlfriend.

Leonard Busch himself is fifty-two, barrel chested, butter nosed, and the owner of Pelican Beach, a nightclub located in a former auto parts warehouse stuck beneath the cement buttresses of the Gardiner Expressway next to the harbor. It's one of those hangar-size places that boast ''coed'' beach volleyball in February, wet T-shirt contests in April, and Ladies' Night every Tuesday (a free rose and half-priced tequila until midnight, at which point the ''ladies'' are in generally good enough shape to be hauled back to a stranger's futon). Leonard ran the whole vile affair from his office suspended above the dj booth with mirrored windows overlooking the seething dance floor. It was there that he conducted his business, where business means the counting of receipts, the consumption of Ballantine's on the rocks, and the interviewing of girls seeking waitress positions. Early evidence from a number of them indicated that Leonard took these opportunities to ask questions of dubious purpose (''Are you wearing any underwear right now?'') and to squeeze bottoms in the interest of determining the applicants' qualifications.

All of these details, however unseemly, were not of any particular concern to me. But Leonard's fondness for plying certain female staff with liquor, taking them for early morning drives down to the docklands, and heaving himself on their half-comatose bodies was substantially more troubling from a legal perspective, especially given that one of his dates came forward the next day and insisted that Leonard Busch, her employer and friend (''At first I thought he was kinda sweet''), had taken his pleasure with her without her consent. Indeed, as she testified, she would've been unable to voice her permission even if she'd wanted to, as her brain had been made so mushy with booze, she could only slap her palms against his back and try to remember the names of the teddy bears in her old bedroom at her parents' house.

Shower, shave, stick a hastily assembled margarine sandwich into my breast pocket for the rare moments that hunger visits, and head up Spadina and over Queen Street to the courthouse. The air is unseasonably chilly but I only half notice, concentrating instead on the approach to take with dear little Lisa. More stupid than the prevailing standard among mall vixens of her vintage, she was not only foolish enough to be Leonard's sole long-term lover, but to be in love with him as well. Attended every day of the trial, finding a place in the back row and trying to make eye contact with her beloved every time he rose to be shackled and led away to his cell. Initially I thought the girl might be a potential asset to our case, but when asked about it, my client dismissed the idea.

''Forget it. She's fuckin' nuts. Besides, my wife don't know about her'' was Leonard's exact phrasing.

It wasn't clear to me how Mrs. Busch would be more upset over the disclosure of a mistress than the conviction of her husband as a rapist, but I said no more about it.

Until today. When I arrive at the court I descend to the basement holding cells, shake my head at Leonard, and voice my suggestion through a hole in the Plexiglas wall between us.

''We got anything else?'' he asks.

''Not a thing.''

''Then talk to her. But I dunno what she could say to help. I didn't even see her that night.''

When the court convenes the judge begins by asking if I'm prepared to deliver final submissions. I advise him that I require a brief adjournment to make a final survey of the defense's evidence before concluding the case. The judge orders us all back following lunch. I have three hours.

After the few courtroom spectators mill out into the hallway I snake up behind my prey and, bending low enough for my nose to be filled with the lemon styling gel of her perm-crinkled, bleach-yellowed hair, whisper an invitation for her to follow. Without a word she steps behind me to an interview room at the end of the hall where she sits and I lock the door with an echoing clack. Shuffle over to the chair opposite hers and settle myself in its cup of orange plastic.

''I'm not going to waste any time here, Lisa, because frankly we don't have any time to waste,'' I start with a beleaguered sigh. ''Can you appreciate that?''

''Yes, Mr. Crane.''

''Then let me tell you that I'd like you to be the final witness in this trial. I'd like you to tell your side of the story, Lisa.'' Inhale deeply. ''That Leonard couldn't have committed the crime of which he is accused, because he was with you on the fourteenth of August. That's what I'm asking you to do for me.''

''But I can't say that.''

''Why not?''

''Because it's not true.''

In one movement I stand, kick my chair back, and send it sliding over the waxed marble floor into the wall behind me.

''You can say whatever you want, Lisa! Let me show you.'' Lean forward over the table so that my face is all that she can see. ''Open your mouth.''

''What?''

''Just open your mouth.''

The mouth opens.

''Now, say, 'This whole thing is my fault.' ''

''No--he--''

''Just say it!''

''This whole thing is my fault.''

''Lovely! And therein lies the lesson of the day: it is possible to tell a different story from that which we know.''

I move back from the table and cross my arms in my football coach pose, the whole time holding the girl's black-pupiled eyes in mine. ''And you're going to say he was with you that night. That you two met as you usually did, that he drove you down to the docks as usual, that you had sex in all the usual positions until around three, at which point he drove you uptown and dropped you off a couple blocks from your house as per usual.''

''But that's not true,'' she attempts, lower lip trembling and voice cracking wide open. ''Mr. Crane, that didn't happen. Not that night.''

Then the tears start, a shaking torrent, and I know I've won. In my experience tears are a strong sign of a mind willing to be changed.

''You've forgotten your lesson already, Lisa! Listen to me. Listen to me now.'' Move forward again so that the closeness of my voice cuts off her sobbing. ''I wouldn't want you to make a very big mistake because you failed to appreciate the seriousness of the situation, so let me make this extremely clear. We--you and I--are going to save Leonard's life. Because if Leonard goes to jail, he will die.''

I allow a slight smile now, a suggestion of my full and sympathetic understanding. ''You do love Leonard, don't you?''