Want To Play (Monkeewrench)

a stranger who was going to change her life.

She’d always known that fate would find her, that she wouldn’t have to go looking for it like ordinary people. Let the plain girls settle for the trinity of boredom – education, marriage, children – Alena was better than that, more beautiful than that, and soon everyone would know it.

Alena shivered as a gust of wind hit her. She hoped she wouldn’t have to take off the dress – it wasn’t much protection from the cold, but at least it was something. She also hoped there wouldn’t be any sex involved. She’d heard that photographers sometimes tried to have sex with their models before they were stars. But it didn’t really matter, she supposed. She’d had sex for worse reasons before.

‘Here we are.’

Alena stopped and looked up at the huge sculpture and immediately understood the heavy, garish makeup, the fishnet hose and the revealing dress. She could see now what the photographer envisioned for the first photograph in her portfolio: a whore transported on the wings of an angel. A striking image – a mesmerizing photograph – and not so very far from the truth after all.

The climb was difficult, especially when she had to worry about the stone snagging the stockings or scraping her brand-new nails, but eventually she managed to position herself across one of the cold, massive wings. ‘Is this all right?’

‘Almost perfect. I’m just going to climb up and clip your hair back. It’s beautiful, did you know that?’

Alena smiled. Of course she knew that.

‘But it’s blocking part of that million-dollar face. We certainly can’t have that.’

The fingers were soft on her cheek as they tucked her hair behind her ear, and they lingered there a moment. ‘You’re going to be very famous, Alena.’

And even though that had been the whole point, when Alena felt the cold circle of metal that didn’t feel like a hair clip at all, thoughts of fame disintegrated in an instant. She thought of her mother, saw her warm, gentle face, and then she felt the wing of the angel shift powerfully beneath her, and start to lift her up.

9

Sheriff Michael Halloran pushed his chair back from his desk and rubbed his eyes with the heels of his hands. When he opened them again, he saw Sharon Mueller standing in his office doorway.

‘Those things’ll kill your eyes.’ She nodded toward the green-shaded lamp on his desk.

‘It’s a reading lamp. I’ve been reading.’

‘It’s too dark in here for reading.’ She reached for the wall switch, dropped her hand when he shook his head. She was wearing her heavy jacket, collar pulled up around her ears because her hair was too short to do the job.

‘You coming or going?’ Halloran asked. ‘And if you’re going, what’re you still doing here? It’s almost midnight.’

‘Stuff on the Kleinfeldts. Don’t worry. I’m off the clock.’

‘I’m not worried, and you’re not off the clock.’

She wandered into the office and started touching things – furniture, books, the cord for the blinds Halloran never pulled over the big window. He’d known a lot of women who did that whenever they entered someone else’s environment, as if they could gather information through their fingertips. She stopped directly in front of his desk. ‘How’s your hand?’

‘What do you mean?’

‘Bonar said you put it through a wall at Kleinfeldts’ this afternoon.’

‘I was annoyed.’ And he was annoyed now, too. ‘I asked you what you were doing here so late.’

She looked at him for a minute, then sat down in a chair facing his desk. ‘I’ve been looking at all the interviews from today. Mine and everybody else’s.’

‘Did Simons tell you to do that?’

‘No, but it needed doing.’ She tossed a thick file folder onto his desk. Several sheets of paper were stapled to the front cover. ‘Individual reports are inside. That’s a list of all the parishioners, all checked off except a couple – one guy was in the hospital, another couple was visiting their daughter in Nebraska, like that. No red flags anywhere.’

‘You talked to everybody they tried getting banned from the church?’

‘Oh yeah. Twenty-three of them, can you believe that? Four are actually gay, in case you’re interested.’

‘They told you that?’

‘Hell, no. But they are.’

Halloran glanced down at the list and saw names he’d known his whole life. Sharon had marked the ones the Kleinfeldts had accused of homosexuality with a yellow highlighter. When he caught himself wondering which ones were actually gay, he set the list aside. ‘But no red flags.’

Sharon shrugged. ‘Not really. Oh, a lot of them were pissed; a few of them even tried beating the Kleinfeldts at their own game – getting them kicked out of the church for bearing false witness or something like that. But it turns out the Catholics will forgive you for breaking one of the Ten Commandments. You can still be a card-carrying Pope dope. On the other hand, practice a sexual preference in the privacy of your own home with a consenting adult and you’re out of there. Jerks.’ She blew out a long, exasperated sigh. ‘Anyway, after the first few accusations, nobody paid much attention anymore. I mean, the Kleinfeldts thought Mrs Wickers was gay. The woman is eighty-three years old and totally around the bend, doesn’t have a clue what a homosexual is, let alone if she might be one. Her kids are bitter about it – hell, a lot of the twenty-three are – but none of them are homicidal. Trust me.’

‘I do.’

‘Okay. I also checked in with VICAP and NCIC. We’ve got the only creative thoracic carver in the country at the moment. At least with a religious theme. There’s a guy in Omaha doing breasts, but he’s just chopping them off, and if you were talking genitalia, even faces, they’ve got a wide assortment . . .’ Suddenly she pressed her lips together and stared hard at a point on the wall behind his head. ‘There’s stuff going on out there you wouldn’t believe, Halloran, you know?’

She looked at him, stood up, then sat down again. ‘You look bad. You need to go home.’

‘So do you. Good night, Sharon.’ He pulled a stack of papers into the pool of light and started reading again.

‘You want to talk about it?’

‘About what?’

‘Danny.’

‘Christ, no.’ He kept reading.

‘Well, I do.’

‘Then go do it somewhere else.’

‘It wasn’t your fault, Mike.’

‘I am not one of your abuse cases, Sharon, and I don’t need analysis from a kid with a penny-ante U of W psych degree, so give it a rest.’

‘You’re doing the mea culpa Catholic thing. It’s stupid.’

‘Fuck you, Sharon, goddamnit.’

‘Well, that might help, but I don’t think you’re ready for it yet. Never heard you say the F-word before.’

Halloran looked at this nice young Wisconsin woman who dealt with sexual abuse of children almost every day of her life, and yet couldn’t bring herself to say the F-word. ‘Get out of here,’ he said wearily. ‘Go home. Leave me alone.’

She sat there quietly for a moment, staring at the stacks of papers on his desk. ‘What are you looking for?’

‘Go.’

‘Can’t do it. I love this place. The buzzing fluorescent lights, the lingering smell of sweat, the sexual harassment – I can’t get enough.’

Halloran pushed his chair a few inches back from his desk and looked at her. ‘Tell me what I’ve got to do to