“Uh, hey.” She wasn’t quite sure what to say next. Already they’d spoken more words to each other in one day than they had in all their years at school together.
“Shall we go?” he asked her.
“Where?”
“I’ll walk with you to the station. That’s where you’re headed, right?”
At her alarmed expression, he laughed.
“Okay, that sounded weird. I’m not stalking you or anything, honest. I just walk past the station on the way to school, and sometimes I see you.”
“Me and lots of other people.”
“I guess.” He picked up his satchel and indicated the gate. “Yes?”
She shrugged. “Sure. Anywhere’s fine.”
Conscious of the occasional odd look from her fellow students, she set off with him down the road to the station. His legs were long, so his stride far outclassed hers, but he let her set the pace. They walked a dozen steps in silence, Clair feeling foolish but committed now, Jesse concentrating to all appearances on the tips of his sneakers. He was either growing a very slight goatee or he hadn’t gotten around to shaving his chin for a few days. She tried not to stare at it, but with his eyes hidden behind his hair, it was hard to avoid.
“So . . . ,” she said. “This is about a friend. I’m worried that . . . actually, I don’t know what I’m worried about. There’s this d-mat meme going around. Have you heard of Improvement?”
He shook his head. “I’m not really the target audience.”
“Yeah, right. Anyway, my friend d-matted ninety times yesterday and she’s convinced Improvement worked—changed her—although it can’t possibly have, and I’m worried about her because she’s behaving a little oddly.”
“Oddly how?”
Clair shrugged, remembering the fleeting conversation that morning. “Mood swings, headache . . . I know it doesn’t sound like much, but I can tell it’s not normal.”
“What’s Improvement supposed to do?”
“It’s like a chain letter. You receive a message. It tells you that you can be prettier, smarter, taller, whatever. You write a code on a piece of paper and list all the things you’d like to have changed. You take the note with you through d-mat, under your clothes, and supposedly it happens. Do it enough times, the meme says, and you’ll be . . . Improved.”
“Just like that?” he said.
She shared his skepticism. The idea was absurd, a fairy tale, just as Ronnie kept telling her. “I didn’t say it was real. Just that this is why she did it.”
“What’s the code?”
She called up the original message and sent it to him.
Charlie X-ray Romeo Foxtrot
Whiskey Uniform Hotel Bravo
Oscar Echo
Tango Kilo
Alfa Papa Juliet Zulu
“Does it mean anything?” she asked.
“If I had to guess I’d say it’s supposed to act as a kind of signal to the system, alerting it to the presence of someone who wants to be Improved. The system reads the note, takes on board what the bearer wants, and manipulates their pattern to make it happen.”
“I thought that was impossible.”
“If you believe VIA. But maybe if you fiddled the books bit by bit . . . tiny alterations that supposedly don’t affect the hash sum of the entire transmission . . . maybe that’s how you’d get away with it.”
Clair nodded warily, even though she didn’t know what a hash sum was. She was surprised he was taking it so seriously. “So it could actually work?”
“I don’t know,” he said. “I mean, the note isn’t a
“So it
“Then there’s the whole idea of Improvement itself. How does the system know what to change in order to make people the way they’ve asked to become? It’s not a plastic surgeon or a genetic engineer. It’s just a means of moving data around. It’s not designed for anything else.”
“So it’s a scam after all.”
“Can you imagine how illegal it would be if it wasn’t? I mean, you’d have to get past both of VIA’s AIs every time someone used it—and there’s no program or anything to go with the note, so it’d have to be done manually. If you were caught, you’d be locked up for the rest of your life.”
“Jesse, just tell me:
He shrugged. “Beats me. I’m not as good with this stuff as Dad is. He’s the expert.”
They walked in silence for a minute, Clair fighting a sense of disappointment and frustration. All she wanted was to know for certain, either way.
“It was Libby, wasn’t it?” Jesse said out of nowhere. “Liberty Zeist?”
“What, you stalk her, too?” Clair said a little more sharply than she intended.
“No. I just guessed. She wasn’t at school today.” He shrugged, making his satchel bounce against his shoulder. “Besides, the only people who would consider using Improvement are those who are already beautiful but don’t appreciate it. Chasing the impossible dream, you know? Libby’s one of those.”
Clair couldn’t tell if he was insulting Libby or just trying to be weird now.
“Don’t tell me you’re not tempted,” she said.
“Me? Hardly. Have you forgotten what I am?”
“An Abstainer, yeah . . . so what were you doing at the station this morning?”
He glanced at her sideways.
“Being hassled by the PKs. For no reason. You really didn’t see me?”
She remembered a disturbance and seeing a peacekeeper’s helmet above the crowd.
“That was you?”
“A return performance in Civil Harassment 101. The starring role, in fact. It was written for me.”
“You must have been doing
“Don’t you start,” he said, brushing his hair off his face and staring at her with a resentful expression. “You think I was trying to plant a bomb? For my friends in WHOLE? Because all Stainers are terrorists? That’s right, I keep forgetting. If you’re not with the herd, then you’re against it.”
His hot gaze returned to his sneakers.
“I was just curious,” he said in a cooler tone. “There’s no law against that, is there?”
“So you really have never—”
“No, not ever. I suggested it once, and my dad threatened to kick me out on the street. Said he didn’t want what I’d come back as rattling around the house—because it wouldn’t be me, not in his eyes.”
“What do you mean?”
“He thinks anyone who uses d-mat dies inside. You know, it takes you apart, destroys you, and what it rebuilds is just a good copy, not the real thing. Soulless. Empty. Hollow.”
“For real?”
“Yes. He calls people like you
That was a horrible thought—someone thinking she wasn’t real when she knew without question that she absolutely was.
“Do you call us that too?”
“I think the soul question is one thing d-mat has finally put to rest. Thank God.”
A softer glance accompanied this small joke, as though he was embarrassed for his snappy tone a moment ago. Or embarrassed for his father. She couldn’t tell.
