barren,

congregations blink, agonized and dumb.

     In the turns of his journey

heavy trees he sleeps under

mature into cinder and crumble:

     whole orchards join the wind

like rising flocks of ravens.

     The rocks go back to water, the water to waste.

And while Isaiah gently hums a sound

to make the guilty country uncondemned,

     all men, truthfully desolate and lonely,

as though witnessing a miracle,

behold in beauty the faces of one another.

FLOWERS FOR HITLER

WHAT I’M DOING HERE

I do not know if the world has lied

I have lied

I do not know if the world has conspired against love

I have conspired against love

The atmosphere of torture is no comfort

I have tortured

Even without the mushroom cloud

still I would have hated

Listen

I would have done the same things

even if there were no death

I will not be held like a drunkard

under the cold tap of facts

I refuse the universal alibi

Like an empty telephone booth passed at night

and remembered

like mirrors in a movie palace lobby consulted

only on the way out

like a nymphomaniac who binds a thousand

into strange brotherhood

I wait

for each one of you to confess

I WANTED TO BE A DOCTOR

The famous doctor held up Grandma’s stomach.

Cancer! Cancer! he cried out

The theatre was brought low.

None of the interns thought about ambition.

Cancer! They all looked the other way.

They thought Cancer would leap out

and get them. They hated to be near.

This happened in Vilna in the Medical School.

Nobody could sit still.

They might be sitting beside Cancer.

Cancer was present.

Cancer had been let out of its bottle.

I was looking in the skylight.

I wanted to be a doctor.

All the interns ran outside.

The famous doctor held on to the stomach.

He was alone with Cancer.

Cancer! Cancer! Cancer!

He didn’t care who heard or didn’t hear.

It was his 87th Cancer.

THE DRAWER’S CONDITION ON NOVEMBER 28, 1961

Is there anything emptier

than the drawer where

you used to store your opium?

How like a black-eyed Susan

blinded into ordinary daisy

is my pretty kitchen drawer!

How like a nose sans nostrils

is my bare wooden drawer!

How like an eggless basket!

How like a pool sans tortoise!

My hand has explored

my drawer like a rat

in an experiment of mazes.

Reader, I may safely say

there’s not an emptier drawer

in all of Christendom!

THE INVISIBLE TROUBLE

Too fevered to insist:

“My world is terror,”

he covers his wrist

and numbers of the war.

His arm is unburned

his flesh whole:

the numbers he learned

from a movie reel.

He covers his wrist

under the table.

The drunkards have missed

his invisible trouble.

A tune rises up.

His skin is blank!

He can’t lift his cup

he can’t! he can’t!

The chorus grows.

So does his silence.

Nothing, he knows

there is nothing to notice.

OPIUM AND HITLER

Several faiths

bid him leap —

opium and Hitler

let him sleep.

A Negress with

an appetite

helped him think

he wasn’t white.

Opium and Hitler

made him sure

the world was glass.

There was no cure

for matter

disarmed as this:

the state rose on

a festered kiss.

Once a dream

nailed on the sky

a summer sun

while it was high.

He wanted a

blindfold of skin,

he wanted the

afternoon to begin.

One law broken —

nothing held.

The world was wax,

his to mould.

No! He fumbled

for his history dose.

The sun came loose,

his woman close.

Lost in a darkness

their bodies would reach,

the Leader started

a racial speech.

IT USES US!

Come upon this heap

exposed to camera leer:

would you snatch a skull

for midnight wine, my dear?

Can you wear a cape,

claim these burned for you

or is this death unusable

alien and new?

In our leaders’ faces

(albeit they deplore

the past) can you read how

they love Freedom more?

In my own mirror

their eyes beam at me:

my face is theirs, my eyes

burnt and free.

Now you and I are mounted

on this heap, my dear:

from this height we thrill

as boundaries disappear.

Kiss me with your teeth

All things can be done

whisper museum ovens of

a war that Freedom won.

HEIRLOOM

The torture scene developed under a glass bell

such as might protect an expensive clock.

I almost expected a chime to sound

as the tongs were applied

and the body jerked and fainted calm.

All the people were tiny and rosy-cheeked

and if I could have heard a cry of triumph or pain

it would have been tiny as the mouth that made it

or one single note of a music box.

The drama bell was mounted

like a gigantic baroque pearl

on a wedding ring or brooch or locket.

     I know you feel naked, little darling.

I know you hate living in the country

and can’t wait until the shiny magazines

come every week and every month.

Look through your grandmother’s house again.

There is an heirloom somewhere.

ALL THERE IS TO KNOW ABOUT ADOLPH EICHMANN

EYES:.......................................................Medium

HAIR:.......................................................Medium

WEIGHT:..................................................Medium

HEIGHT:...................................................Medium

DISTINGUISHING FEATURES:......................None

NUMBER OF FINGERS:....................................Ten

NUMBER OF TOES:..........................................Ten

INTELLIGENCE:.........................................Medium

What did you expect?

Talons?

Oversize incisors?

Green saliva?

Madness?

SKY

The great ones pass

they pass without touching

they pass without looking

each in his joy

each in his fire

Of one another

they have no need

they have the deepest need

The great ones pass

Recorded in some multiple sky

inlaid in some endless laughter

they pass

like stars of different seasons

like meteors of different centuries

Fire undiminished

by passing fire

laughter uncorroded

by comfort

they pass one another

without touching without looking

needing only to know

the great ones pass

HITLER

Now let him go to sleep with history,

the real skeleton stinking of gasoline,

the Mutt-and-Jeff henchmen beside him:

let them sleep among our precious poppies.

Cadres of SS waken in our minds

where they began before we ransomed them

to that actual empty realm we people

with the shadows that disturb our inward peace.

For a while we resist the silver-black cars

rolling in slow parade through the brain.

We stuff the microphones with old chaotic flowers

from a bed which rapidly exhausts itself.

Never mind. They turn up as poppies

beside the tombs and libraries of the real world.

The leader’s vast design, the tilt of his chin

seem excessively familiar to minds at peace.

THE FAILURE OF A SECULAR LIFE

The pain-monger came home

from a hard day’s torture.

He came home with his tongs.

He put down his black bag.

His wife hit him with an open nerve

and a cry the trade never heard.

He watched her real-life Dachau,

knew his career was ruined.

Was there anything else to do?

He sold his bag and tongs,

went to pieces. A man’s got to be able

to bring his wife something.

WHEELS, FIRECLOUDS

I shot my eyes through the drawers of your empty coffins,

I was loyal,

I was one who lifted up his face.

THE MUSIC CREPT BY US

I would like to remind

the management

that the drinks are watered

and the hat-check girl

has syphilis

and the band is composed

of former SS monsters

However since it is

New Year’s Eve

and I have lip cancer

I will place my

paper hat on my

concussion and dance

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