And me? Obi-Wan wanted to ask. How do you see me, Qui-Gon? success, or failure?
Qui-Gon didn't speak for a few minutes. He seemed to devote himself to enjoying the beauty of the day, as though he needed it to chase away sorrow.
'You are just beginning your journey, Obi-Wan,' he said at last. 'Do not concern yourself with success or failure. If you act rightly, those words lose their meaning. There is only the good that you do.'
'It's hard not to think of failure, considering I've been put on probation,' Obi-Wan said.
'That has nothing to do with failure,' Qui-Gon said gently. 'You must not think it does. The Jedi path is a difficult one to walk. The Council knows this. If someone strays, especially at a young age, they understand. But still they must be certain of your commitment. You will have to meet with them, spend time at the Temple renewing your dedication. It will be a good thing for both of us, I think. There is a time for missions. And then there is a time for meditation and study.'
'You will be at the Temple too?' Obi-Wan asked.
Qui-Gon nodded. 'It is time for reflection for me as well. And I will help you with the Council. They must understand why you made the decision to leave. I have come to understand it.'
'You have?'
'I was slow to do so, I admit,' Qui-Gon said. 'But yes, I have.' He paused. 'I know you are on probation and can't be my official apprentice. But you are my Padawan, Obi-Wan. I do not need the Council to tell me so.'
Obi-Wan took a deep breath. 'Then you'll take me back?'
'We will take each other back,' Qui-Gon said.
Obi-Wan had hoped for this. He had tried to control his impatience for it. Now here it was, and he found he had no words. He was too deeply moved to form them.
'I fought our bond from the first,' Qui-Gon said. 'But you knew something I didn't. You knew that some things are meant to be. Now I know it, too. You will make a fine Jedi Knight. I would be proud to continue the journey we started together.'
Obi-Wan lifted his head. Now he, too, saw the beauty of the day. The sky was dazzlingly clear. For the first time in what felt like a long while, the future was clear as well.
'I am not saying the way will be easy,' Qui-Gon added. 'We have different temperaments. No doubt we will clash. You will come to challenge me again.'
'I will try not to,' Obi-Wan told him earnestly.
'You don't understand, Padawan.' Qui-Gon gave the smile he gave so rarely, a full smile that lit up his blue eyes and caused them to sparkle with warmth. 'I look forward to it.'
