“That’s correct.”
“You have come a long way,” said the Dorje Lama.
“Yes,” said Christopher, his voice feeling cracked and awkward.
“From. India. From Kalimpong.”
“Further than that,” the abbot contradicted him.
“Yes,” Christopher said.
“Further than that.”
“Why have you come? Please be truthful with me. No-one comes here for a trivial reason. There must be matters of life and death to bring a man to us. What has brought you here?”
Christopher hesitated. He feared and distrusted the abbot. This man had played a major role in what had happened. For all he knew, Zamyatin was himself a pawn in a greater game.
“I was brought here,” he replied.
“By three of your monks:
Tsarong Rinpoche and two trap as Tsarong Rinpoche killed my guide, a Nepalese boy named Lhaten. He killed him merely because Lhaten was injured. Before I answer any of your questions, I demand justice for the boy.”
“You are making a serious charge.” The abbot bent forward, as though trying to see the truth in Christopher’s face.
“It is not my only charge. I met Tsarong Rinpoche before that in Kalimpong. He admitted killing someone else there: an Irish doctor called Cormac. Did you know of that? Was he acting under your orders?”
The abbot sighed and straightened himself again. His face was that of an old man, but extremely pale. The eyes were still pools of sadness, but Christopher sensed another emotion in that look.
Compassion? Love? Pity?
“No,” he said.
“He was not acting under orders from me. I had no reason to want either the doctor or your guide dead. Please believe me. I have no wish to cause the death of any sentient being.
My purpose on earth is to diminish suffering in any way I can. If Tsarong Rinpoche has acted wrongly, he will be punished.”
The abbot paused and blew his nose gently on a small handkerchief which he took from inside his long sleeve. The ordinariness of the man’s action was more reassuring to Christopher than his words.
“Tsarong Rinpoche tells me,” the abbot continued, ‘that when he met you, you were on the borders of Tibet, just beyond the Sebula. Is this true?”
Christopher nodded.
“Yes.”
“He also tells me that he warned you not to leave India, not to attempt to enter Tibet. Is that also true?”
“Yes. That is true as well.”
“You had been warned of possible danger. Danger to yourself and anyone who travelled with you. You chose a route that you must have known to be almost impassable. Tsarong Rinpoche tells me he thinks you were already seeking for this place, for Dorje-la.
Is that true too?”
Christopher did not say anything.
“You do not deny it is true? Very well, then I must conclude that something of great importance drove you here. Or perhaps I should say “drew you here”. What would that thing be, Wylamla? Can you tell me?”
Christopher remained silent at first, his gaze fixed on the old man. On the abbot’s chest, a silver gau caught particles of light from the lamps and transformed them into shadows.
“Not a thing,” Christopher said at last.
“A person. My son. His name is William. I believe he is here, in this monastery. I have come here to take him home.”
The abbot stared at Christopher with a look of intense sadness.
All around, snow kept falling. It lay sprinkled on the old man’s hair and covered the cushions on which he sat.
“Why do you think your son is here, Mr. Wylam? What possible reason could there be for his presence in this place?”
“I don’t know the reason. All I know is that a man called Zamyatin ordered my son’s kidnap. Zamyatin’s instructions were carried out of Tibet by a monk named Tsewong. Tsewong is dead, but a letter was found on him that identified him as your representative. Carpenter, the Scottish missionary in Kalimpong, has told me that my son was taken to Tibet by a Mongolian called Mishig. Mishig is Zamyatin’s agent.”
The Dorje Lama listened to all of this with his head bent, as though Christopher’s words weighed him down. There was a lengthy silence.
“You know a great deal, Wylam-la,” he said finally.
“A very great deal. And yet you know very little.”
“But I’m right. My son is here. Isn’t he?”
The abbot folded his hands.
“Yes,” he said.
“You are right. Your son is here. He is alive and well. He is being looked after with the greatest possible attention.
There is nothing for you to worry about.”
“I want to see him. Take me to him at once.” Christopher stood up. He felt faint and angry.
“I’m sorry,” the abbot said.
“That will not be possible. There is so much you do not understand.
But he is no longer your son.
That much you must try to understand. For your own sake. Please try to grasp what I am saying.”
“What do you want with him?” Christopher was shouting now.
He could hear his voice echoing in the empty, snow-filled chamber.
“Why did you bring him here?”
“He was brought here at my request. I wanted him brought to Dorje-la.
As yet even he does not understand. But in time he will.
Please do not make it difficult for him. Please do not ask to see him.”
The abbot reached down and picked up a small silver bell from a low table. He rang it gently, filling the room suddenly with a loose, fluttering music, like fine crystal being struck. There was a smell of old incense, like crushed flowers in a tomb.
“You will have to leave now,” he said.
“But we shall meet again.”
Footsteps sounded behind Christopher. He turned to see the steward waiting for him. As he walked away from the abbot, the old man’s voice came to him out of the shadows.
“Mr. Wylam. Please try to be wise. Do not attempt to find your son. We do not wish any harm to befall you: but you must take care. You ignored Tsarong Rinpoche’s warning. Do not ignore mine.”
Christopher was taken back to the room in which he had been confined before. He sat for hours in the silence of his own thoughts, trying to come to terms with his situation. The revelation that William was alive and being kept here in Dorje-la had shaken him.
He needed time to think, time to decide what to do next.
Several times he went to the window and looked down at the pass below. Once, he saw a party of monks moving along a narrow path away from the monastery. He watched until they vanished from sight. Later, he saw someone running to the monastery from a point just above the pass. From time to time, he heard the sound of chanting, punctuated by the steady beats of a drum. On a terrace below him and to his left, an old monk sat for hours turning a large prayer-wheel At sunset, the trumpet on the roof brayed into the coming darkness; it was quite near him and very loud.
A monk came and left him some food, lit his lamp, and left again without saying a word in reply to his
