need to get out more, Poppy. Need to grow up.

I drove home slowly, trying to work out how I felt before I had to make small talk with my babysitter. It was one in the eye for Phil, surely? Emma wasn’t exactly beating her breast and rending her hair, so stick that in your pipe, Mr Shilling; nobody’s mourning you now. I glanced guiltily up to the heavens, feeling bad. Guilt. Another feeling that had ambushed me lately. But why should I feel guilty? Emma should be the one with her life turned upside down, yet she was way ahead of me. No life on hold for her. Oh no, just the money, please, I thought suddenly. I could see her holding out her hand, clicking her fingers impatiently, nails freshly painted. Just hand it over. I gripped the steering wheel hard. Yes. Right. We’ll see about that. Had it helped my resolve, I wondered, seeing that little vignette? D’you know, I believe it had. As I drove up to my house I caught sight of my reflection in the mirror, caught my own eye, as it were. For some reason it reminded me of Mum. Or … was it the woman I might have been, had Mum not died? Whoever it was seemed flintier than me. Had more of a glint to her eye. She seemed to say: find a bit of inner strength, Poppy dear. A bit of steel, hm?

Felicity was just putting my phone down hurriedly when I went into the kitchen. She went pink.

‘Oh, I hope you don’t mind, Poppy. I couldn’t get a signal on my mobile.’

‘Not at all,’ I said, unwinding my scarf and thinking that every time Felicity babysat I found her on my phone, something that never happened with Frankie.

‘Gosh, I love your bag,’ she gushed in a confident manner. ‘Is it new?’

‘No, I’ve had it for years, but thanks.’

Flattery to ingratiate, I thought uncharitably as I took my coat off. Understandable, of course, in a fifteen- year-old who’s been found running up my phone bill. She flicked back her long tawny hair as she crossed the room to retrieve her bag from the table, just as Emma had crossed the room to the window and swept back her fringe. Some girls knew the way forward, didn’t they? Had the savoir faire, the pretty learned manners. Did I want Clemmie to flick back her hair with a jewelled hand? I wasn’t sure. I tailed Felicity thoughtfully down the hall to the door.

‘Have you seen anything of Frankie, now you’re back?’ I asked. The girls had been at the village school together.

‘Frankie?’ She turned at the door. ‘Um, no, I haven’t. I must get in touch with her.’

Somehow I knew she wouldn’t. Since she’d gone to boarding school, Felicity’s social path had been very different to Frankie’s. Not her fault, of course, but a shame, when they’d been close.

‘But it’s nice she’s got a boyfriend, isn’t it?’ she said.

‘Frankie? I didn’t know.’

‘Oh. Well, I may have got that wrong. Maybe don’t say anything to Jennie? Just in case?’

In case of what, I thought, nevertheless agreeing as I closed the door behind her. In case he didn’t exist? Or in case he wasn’t suitable? The latter, probably. I did hope Frankie hadn’t been serious about flirting with the teachers at school. Don’t be ridiculous, Poppy. Nevertheless I couldn’t help thinking that if it was just a sixteen-year-old boy, why hide it? Why wasn’t Jennie up to speed? I went back to the kitchen to turn out the lights. Perhaps she was and didn’t want to share with me. Recently Jennie had become more secretive, and I respected that. We couldn’t know everything about our friends, could we? If we did, where would it end? Laying bare the contents of our heads and hearts and saying: here, take a gander at that? Imagine the shock on their faces.

The following morning, on my way to the village shop with the children, I felt perkier. On a scale of one to ten – always my acid test – I was five, rather than four. It was a beautiful blue-sky morning, so perhaps that helped, and being late in the year, long dramatic shadows were cast at my feet as I walked across the green. Trees mostly, but also the shadow of a man, right behind me. I glanced over my shoulder. Odd Bob, dressed uncharacteristically in a tweed jacket and tie, appeared to be tailing me. I turned. Stopped.

‘Hi, Bob.’

How bizarre. He appeared to have a buttonhole. A little white carnation in his lapel. He beamed. Caught up with me.

‘Hello, Poppy. How are you?’

‘Fine, thanks. You look very smart.’

‘Oh, you know. Thought it was about time.’

For what, I wondered as we continued to the shop together.

‘Um, Poppy. I wondered if you’d have dinner with me next week.’

I stared. Couldn’t believe my ears. Odd Bob? Jacket and tie? Outside the village shop?

‘Sorry?’

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