Later you discuss ethics as if they are an important concept.
You say: your job prevents you from judging other people.
You say: other reporters could not get interviews if we take such lethal sides.
You do not say: I lacked the courage to die for my beliefs.
And that is the bottom line. Behind the talk of ethics and jobs and callings lies a simple truth.
You can look. You can see.
But you cannot feel.
If you feel, you will see that your calling is simply a job, a dirty often disgusting one at that, and you realize there were times when you should have acted. When you could have saved one life or a dozen or maybe even a hundred, but you chose not to.
You chose not to—you say—for the greater good.
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She shows me the documents the hospital had her sign. She shows me the diagrams, the little marking some doctor made on a chart of a newborn baby, showing where the chips would be—“chips that will enable her to live in the modern world,” the doctors told her.
She shows me computer downloads, bank accounts her husband set up in her daughter’s name, the college enrollment forms—required for a wealthy child of age four to get into some of Cairo’s best private schools—the plans she and her husband had for her daughters future, her son’s future,
The authorities, she tells me, believe her husband created all these accounts and family documents to protect her, to prove that she and her son had nothing to do with the family’s patriotic explosion.
Only he is not political, she tells me. He never was, and no one believes her.
They believe her enough to send her here instead of killing her as so many other families have been killed in the past. They don’t even try or imprison her. They just disown her, her and her son, make them people without a country, refugees in a world filled with refugees.
She can afford this tent on this sandy piece of land. She pays for the space closest to the medical tent. She hoped that someone would befriend her, that the medical personnel—the aide workers—would help her and her unjustly accused son.
Instead, they shun her like everyone else does. They shun her for failing to protect her daughter.
They shun her for failing to participate in her husband’s crime. They shun her for being naive, for forcing the so-called patriots to ignore her husband and daughter s martyrdom, for failing to die with her family.
They shun her because they cannot understand her.
Or because they do not want to.
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I speak to all the parents in this part of the enclave. All of them survivors—some male, some female—of a once-intact family. All of them claiming to be non-political, claiming they did not know—nor did their spouse—that their child was programmed to die.
I ask for proof. They give me similar documents. They give me bank accounts. But, tellingly—at least to me —the names of the hospitals vary, the names of the doctors vary.
“It is the nursing staff,” one man says to me.
“It is an outpatient procedure,” says another woman.
“Anyone could do it,” says a second man. “Even you.”
The rules of journalism have tightened in the past forty years. The scandals of fifty years ago, the tales of made-up sources, or badly researched material or political bias—true or not—nearly destroyed the profession.
When you were hired, you were reminded of those past scandals, told that any story with less than three
Hire an editor for your own work, you’re told. You will be watched.
We’re all watched.
So you become an observer and a detective, a recorder of your facts and a disbeliever in someone else’s. You need to verify and if you cannot, you risk losing your job.
You risk damaging the profession.