have it because she had lent it to Jimmy two weeks ago. He needed to drive to New Jersey and didn’t want to take his own car. She had even been thoughtful enough to fill it up with gas for him. He must have done whatever he had to do by now. It was time she got her car back, and she knew she would have to take action to get it. He wasn’t just going to drive it home without her making a fuss.
Sometimes she had a hard time dealing with Jimmy. He wanted what he wanted, and didn’t take no for an answer. When they first met, she didn’t seem to notice how bossy he was. But that was back when she was working in the 5th. She didn’t know a lot of things then.
“Maybe I can help,” Sanchez offered with a smile.
She still didn’t know what Sanchez’s smiles meant. He pushed the front door open and held it for her. There were blue uniforms everywhere, watching him hold the door for her. Why did he do that? She looked at her feet and walked out to the street.
“Hi,” she responded to the greetings of some uniformed officers. “I don’t need any help,” she told Sanchez.
“Everybody needs help.” Sanchez shrugged. “You can help me whenever you want.”
They walked the few steps to the lot where his car was parked. Sanchez unlocked the Camaro on the passenger side and opened the door for her. April wasn’t used to that. She looked guiltily around before getting into the car. It was low and red. It occurred to her that although she and Jimmy had done some monkey business together, it wasn’t a passionate thing, the way she thought love was supposed to be. And yes, Jimmy did hold out the possibility of their getting married some day, but he had never really asked her, and never showed any eagerness for such a day to come.
“Why do you want to help me?” she asked.
Sanchez shrugged. “We’re in the Bureau, on the same team. We work pretty well together. I think you have a lot of potential. Why not?”
Could be sneaky. Could be to steal her credit, make her lose face. Could be for monkey business. Lose more face. She was very quiet on the way to Randall’s Island.
At the range, she took a place at the end of the line. There was already somebody next to her, and somebody next to him, firing almost at the same time. Sanchez had to stand way down at the other end. April wanted him far away so he wouldn’t be able to judge how she shot. Jimmy Wong took her to the range at the Academy once, and said she was one lousy shot. He said she took too long to get her rounds fired off and would be dead already.
He seemed to enjoy saying it. “You’re dead already, kiddo.”
Every time she went there, she remembered his satisfaction. Wouldn’t want to be her partner, he said smugly.
Now the thunder got to her before she even started. Even with the sound muffled, there was the vibration. She could almost see the air shimmer with it. It used to be hard for her to keep the gun from kicking up when she fired it. She still had to work out on her own to keep her arms and hands strong enough so that when she pulled the trigger, the recoil wouldn’t make the shot fly wild every time. By now she’d had enough practice to be able to shoot into the paper torso of the man most of the time. Sometimes when she felt really mad and wasn’t too guilty about her thoughts being not so nice for a girl, she could pepper the whole region of the heart. At this distance with a pistol, though, precision wasn’t too important. They were .38 slugs. If you got him anywhere, he’d go down. Today she shot with concentration, and when she checked her score, she found she had done a lot better than usual.
“Thanks for bringing me,” she told Sanchez. “See you,” as she finished up and passed where he was still firing.
He lowered the gun and pulled the headset off his ears. “What?”
“Thanks for the ride. I’m going now.”
“Hey, wait a minute. I’ll take you home.”
She shook her head. “It’s out of the way.” She knew he lived in the Bronx. She lived in Queens. They were in opposite directions, and he would have a lot of problems with the bridges. She hadn’t expected him to drive her home.
“It’s no problem,” Sanchez assured her.
“It’s all right,” she insisted, heading down the line as people continued to fire around them.
“What? You’ll have dinner with me,” he said. “Great.”
“I said I’ll take the subway!” she shouted as all the shooting stopped. The other officers on the range stared.
One laughed. “You tell him.”
Sanchez followed her out, and they handed the headsets back. “Yeah. Where are you going to get it?”
“Okay, you can take me to the subway,” she said.
They found his car and got in.
“Why don’t you tell me about the case,” he suggested.
“Which one?” She rolled down the window for some air, thinking about subway stops.
“The new thing. The letters.”
“I don’t know yet. It’s probably nothing. Wife is getting some letters. They’re kind of crazy, but they don’t threaten her or anything.” April looked out of the window.
“So why come to us?”
“Well, the husband’s some kind of doctor, and she’s in a movie.” They hit the bridge traffic and came to a standstill. April studied the fat man in the turquoise Toyota next to them. Why was she telling Sanchez this?
“No kidding. What movie?” He was interested, as she knew he would be.
“I don’t know. He didn’t say. He just thinks it might be some kind of Hinckley thing. You know, like a stalker.”
“What do you think?”
“I don’t know. I just got it. I’m not supposed to do anything anyway.” Maybe that would shut him up.
Sanchez was quiet for a minute. “So, who’re they from?”
“I told you they don’t know.”
“Don’t know that either.” The traffic started to creep forward.
“The postmarks, I mean.”
“They’re illegible. There must be something wrong with the machine. It’s not canceling right. Where are you going? This isn’t the way to the subway.”
Sanchez headed out to Queens.
“I know a really great Mexican restaurant. It’s near you. We could talk about the case. And then I could find out where these letters are coming from.”
“Thanks, I can’t.”
“What’s the matter, don’t you like Mexican food?”
“I really can’t.” April looked out the window.
“Why not?”
“Are you asking me for a date?” April said, still looking out the window.
“What’s the right answer? I like being with you. Is there anything wrong with that?” She had her head turned away and didn’t see it, but she knew he was smiling.
“I guess you’re involved with someone,” he said when she didn’t answer.
“Yeah, that’s it.”
“Oh, because the way you treat me, I kind of get the idea it might be something else. Like from your point of view there might be something wrong with me.”
“I don’t know you that well, Sergeant, but as far as I can tell, there isn’t anything wrong with you.”
“You’re just not interested.”
“I, uh, wouldn’t be interested in anybody in the Department,” April said. “It wouldn’t be professional.”
“I thought your boyfriend, what’s his name—Jimmy? Isn’t he in the Department?”
“This is close enough. I can get out here,” April said angrily.
“Okay, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that. I just get the feeling that things between you aren’t so—How shall I put it?”
“You know something I don’t?” April snapped.
