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including me.'

April nodded.

'But I did some checking today. I found out the girl is not enrolled at the university she said she attended. She does not live where she said she lived, and her name is false, too. We don't know who she is, or where she lives, or why she faked her identity to get into the program.' He got up and started pacing the living room.

Something clicked. 'Is the girl you're talking about five-four, about a hundred pounds, black hair, brown eyes, anorexic, very pretty?'

'How did you know?' Jason was surprised.

'Woody and I interviewed her only a few minutes ago. She was waiting for Maslow in his office. She was also the last person seen with him last night.'

An expression of intense relief settled on Jason's features. 'Good. Where is she now? I need to talk to her right away.'

April shook her head, feeling a little queasy. She didn't want to say she didn't know where the girl was. 'She didn't seem dangerous to us. She seemed like a kid who had a crush on her doctor,' was what she said.

'April, in the fifty-year history of the Institute, nothing like this has ever occurred. If something's happened to my supervisee because of an error in selecting a patient, it's my fault. It happened on my watch.'

April shook her head again. 'I don't think this girl has anything to do with Maslow's disappearance. I interviewed her myself. She didn't even know he was gone.'

'You have to understand the elaborate hoax she pulled off. She lied to all of us.' Jason was pacing again in his agitation.

April felt bad for him. She could see how a dangerous mental patient, violent and on the loose, could be a hot- button item for him. Like a convict who breaks parole with a repeat crime, the psychiatric patient who becomes violent while under treatment casts suspicion on the whole field. April thought she was pretty good with her takes on people, and that wasn't the girl she'd just seen. Or was the little white ghost playing tricks on her, too?

'Well, this is just my intuition. I may be wrong. In any case, we have to investigate other avenues as well. What about Maslow's other patients, his friends, parents?' she asked.

'Well, his parents are a sad pair. They don't seem to know their son very well. They were no help.' Jason gave April an enigmatic smile. 'Let's get back to Alle-gra. What did she tell you?'

'She told me Maslow annoyed her during their session yesterday, so she walked out. She saw him going into the park later and wanted to apologize. But he wouldn't let her. He walked away from her and that was the last she saw him. She hung around for a while, but when he didn't come back she went home to Riverdale on the subway.'

'And you believed her?' Jason shook his head. 'This girl is a good liar. Clearly she's very intelligent, a self- mutilator. Maslow was upset about her. I need to talk to her myself. You'll have to find her.'

April's face went deadpan with the order. She intended to find her. 'I'd like her file, Jason. Are you sure she hurts herself?'

'Oh yeah, she's a cutter; she uses razor blades. She was examined by a doctor; her injuries are genuine.'

'Does she cut other people?'

He sank into an armchair, ready to lecture. 'It's very rare for someone who hurts herself to attack others. For her, cutting brings relief from tension and misery. People who do it feel better when they see their blood trickling out. Then they feel ashamed of themselves later.'

April had to get out of there. 'Why are you so concerned?'

'I told you, the girl was lying about her identity, as well as a lot of other things. She's highly motivated and highly organized. It's not beyond the realm of possibility that she cut herself just to get into the program. Who knows what she wanted to achieve and how Maslow fits into the picture. Certainly she gained Maslow's sympathy around the issue of her self-destructiveness, as well as her lack of a safe and protective father. She claimed she was raped from the age of five or six by her own father. It's clear Maslow was attracted to her, cared for her a great deal, and was very troubled by her. He would have been better defended against someone whose angry feelings and aggressive acts were outwardly directed,' Jason mused. 'And of course he was worried about suicide.'

'Patients lie,' April murmured. She was scared silly that she'd missed something.

'Patients lie all the time, but psychiatrists are not supposed to get duped.'

April pointed to her watch. 'Look, Jason, I have to go'

'Well, find her, will you? And thank you, really. Do I count on you too much?' For a second he looked concerned about it, but only for a second.

April smiled. 'No. Of course not. And I love the baby. Emma looks terrific. What a great mother she is. I'm happy for both of you.'

Jason got up and gave her a hug. 'Anytime you want some help getting there yourself give me a call.'

'Moi, consult a headshrinker?' April laughed nervously. 'I wouldn't have a thing to say.'

'Everybody has a story, April. And again, I can't tell you how much I appreciate this.'

Downstairs, Woody was standing by the car muttering to himself for being kept waiting so long. He was really upset when she told him they'd let a suspect go.

Twenty-five

At Midtown North, John (Pee Wee) James was not in the interview room where April had left him, but she wasn't surprised not to find him there. Detectives used the rooms twenty-four hours a day. She started searching for him. She now believed he was the only one who knew what happened to Maslow Atkins. But Pee Wee wasn't in the holding cell in the squad room or any of the cells downstairs, either. Deeply distressed, she ran around the precinct looking for him. It wasn't until Woody asked at the front desk that she found out John James had been released soon after noon, eight hours ago.

April panicked. Who had questioned him? Who had sent him on his way? Where was the paperwork? Her brain whirled. He was their only lead, and by now he'd be drunk and out of it again. She headed to the stairs that led up to the detective unit.

'You can't trust anybody. We'll have to go out and find him,' she complained to Woody.

'He wasn't in the park all afternoon. Maybe he's taken off.' Woody made a point of tapping his watch. 'I want to get these photos developed.'

'Forget the photos. Just because we didn't see him doesn't mean he wasn't hiding out somewhere. He hates to leave the park. Shit!' She charged up the stairs with her head down.

'Hey, querida.' Mike was standing at the top of the stairs looking relieved.

'Mike!'The sight of him made her heart soar. In one second she went from cold rage to meltdown. He had that sweet look on his handsome face that she found irresistible. He was wearing one of the blue shirts she'd given him and a very pretty tomato red tie.

'How long have you been here?' she asked, putting on a stern expression to cover her soft feelings.

'Five or ten years. Where have you been?'

'Working. Pee Wee's been released, and I wanted to talk to him when he was sober. Now I have to go out and find him. I'm sorry.'

Mike shook his head. 'Let's go eat.'

'Sounds great,' Woody said. 'I have a date, can I bring her?'

'You have a date?' Mike was incredulous.

'Yeah, I have a date.' Woody tugged at his tie.

'I'm sorry, Mike, I can't. I have to work.' April didn't want to admit yet that she'd lost two suspects in one day.

'The case can wait. We're having dinner.'

April's scalp prickled with alarm. That wasn't like him. 'What do you mean?' she asked slowly. The case couldn't wait. She was aware that they'd become a tableau on the stairs. Mike blocked