acorns in the eaves, snapping hands and faces with a grim promise of winter.
A cool night in late October, a Sunday, and dark.
... and so the boy, who really wasn't a bad kid but nobody really knew that because of all the things he had done, he looked up in the tree ...
'Don, for god's sake, give me a break, okay? I'm not one of those dumb little kids of yours, you know. I don't believe in fairy tales.'
He laughed silently at the telephone and snuggled closer to the wall, stretching his legs out until his bare feet were braced against the staircase. The chill of the wood felt good against his soles. 'I thought you liked my stories. I thought you needed something to take your mind off things.'
Tracey groaned loudly. 'I'm in pain, Vet, remember? I am a patient of the only hospital in the world that serves food the Geneva Convention banned from World War Two. And I am not supposed to be tortured.'
'Torture?' he said, his voice high-pitched and insulted. 'I don't recall you ever thinking I was torture before.'
'I didn't say you,' she answered softly. 'I wasn't talking about you.'
'I know,' he said just as softly. 'That was a joke.'
'Oh.' A pause. She forced a laugh. 'I see. A joke.'
Water ran in the kitchen. He looked in and saw his father at the sink, a towel over his shoulder, an unlighted cigarette dangling from his mouth-the same thing he had been watching for the past three days.
'Well, listen,' Don said.
... and he saw the crow sitting on the highest branch in the biggest tree in the world. A big crow. The biggest crow he had ever seen in his life. And the boy knew, he really and truly knew, that the crow was going to be the only friend he had left in the world. So he talked to the crow and he said ...
'Enough,' Tracey pleaded with a laugh. Then, abruptly solemn, 'Please, Don. No more. You promised me no more.' He sighed and nodded. 'All right.' 'Are you okay?'
'I'm supposed to ask you that, remember?' 'You know how I am. I want to know how you are.' He was fine, he thought, all things considered. After he had taken Tracey to the hospital in the station wagon, fighting the rain that washed in through the broken windshield, he had waited until they had brought Jeff in as well. A concussion and some deep lacerations, he was told, nothing more, and his statement to the police had been accepted without question-he had gone for a walk after leaving his father, and saw the results of the accident, ran home to call since it was only a block away, and found Tracey wandering around in a daze. He supposed, when he was asked, they had skidded during the storm.
His mother was still unconscious, and Dr. Naugle had put him in charge of his father. To get some sleep, some food, so he would be ready when she woke up.
'Don, I have to go. The wardens have come with the pills.'
'All right,' he said. 'I'll come around tomorrow.'
They rang off, and he wandered into the kitchen, watched his father silently, then went up to his room. He was exhausted, and he dropped onto the bed and fell asleep almost instantly, not waking until after midnight to undress and sleep again.
At school on Monday he spoke to no one, avoiding their puzzled eyes, cutting biology when he saw the substitute at the head of the room. He ran for an hour afterward, feeling oddly distanced from the sound of his feet on the red cinder track, as if he were floating through a tunnel, looking for someone he knew he wouldn't find. Then he went home to fix his father's supper. Norman ate little, smoking as he did, finally pushed his plate away and left the room without a word.
Don didn't follow. He rinsed off the dishes, dried them and put them in the cupboard, then went upstairs to change his clothes for the evening visit to his mother, Jeff, and Tracey. When he came down again, Norman was at the door, impatiently jingling the keys to the car he had rented while the station wagon was being repaired.
'You know,' he said as he drove through the wet streets, 'you seem awfully calm these days.'
'And it seems to me you're spending an awful lot of time with that girl.'
'She's a friend. So's Jeff.'
'And your mother is your mother. I think it would help if you stick around her room a bit more.'
'Okay.'
He could feel his father look at him, not quite glaring, but he didn't much care one way or the other. He had been trying to sort out everything he felt, and it bothered him that he couldn't make up his mind whether or not he should feel guilty. He was afraid something had happened to him that night in the park, and just as afraid that he might blurt out the truth and be considered a case for the men in the white coats. His father, on the other hand, had spent a lot of time on the phone-with the mayor, with several board members, and with Dr. Naugle.
Don was ashamed to think Norman was more worried about the mayor.
On Tuesday Jeff was released and showed up after school to watch him run. There were questions, but he didn't ask them, and Don soon stopped worrying about what the boy had seen. Even if it had been just a glimpse, it could easily be explained as an aftereffect of the accident.
On Wednesday he decided not to use the track but to walk home right after last class. There was homework to do, and his father would have to go to see his mother alone.
'Hey, stranger!'
He stopped and turned around, and shifted his feet when Chris came running up, her hair unbound, her shirt out of her jeans.
'Hi,' he said.
'God, you've been a ghost, you know that?' she said. 'Where've you been hiding?'
He gestured toward the house, toward the men on ladders fixing the window. 'Cleaning up, seeing my mom ... you know.'
'Yeah. Hey, I'm sorry about what happened.'
She moved closer, and he could smell the perfume she used.
'Is it true,' she said, 'that your father is leaving?'
'Yeah. A leave of absence. What with all the trouble and my mom and all, he needs the time, you know?'
'Boy, do I,' she said. 'Is he really going to run for mayor?'
He shrugged. 'I don't know. He's thinking about it, but I have a feeling things have changed.' Then he looked at her eyes and saw something missing. Her expression was friendly enough, her tone as gentle, but there was still something missing and he couldn't figure it out.
'Hey, uh, look,' he said at last. 'It's Halloween this weekend, and ...
well, we kind of got screwed up last week, because of what happened. And I was wondering ... that is, I-'
He jumped then when a car horn blared behind him, and Chris laughed, tapped his arm and walked over to Brian's car.
'Hey, Duck, what's up with your mom?' Brian asked as Chris opened the door and got in.
'She's okay,' he said flatly.
'Good. Tell her I said hi.' He cocked a finger-gun at him and gunned his engine, and as he drove away with one arm around Chris's shoulder, Don heard him say 'Quack,' and heard Chris say, 'Quacker quack,' and laugh.
'What?' he said. 'What are you talking about?' 'Now look,' Norman said.
'I haven't got time to argue with you. I've done all the figures, and what with the medical expenses and the house, there just isn't enough money. I'm sorry, but I can't pull it out of the air, and I can't spend it when it isn't there. You'll have to start looking closer to home, at the state colleges, where it's cheaper. Besides, the way your grades are going, you'll be lucky to graduate.'
Tracey was sitting on the living room couch, her mother in polite attendance. When he told her about his father's dicturn, she commiserated and suggested he start looking at scholarships, student loans, and some of the local organizations who sponsor kids in college.
He hadn't thought of it; he thanked her; he wanted to kiss her, but her mother wouldn't leave.
In the cafeteria Jeff groaned and made to dump his tray over Don's head.
'What's the big deal with Chris anyway, huh? I thought you and Tracey were ... you know.'
'We are, I guess,' he said. 'I don't know.'
