him and disgusted with myself. I locked the door and searched though his papers. I found a pad on which he'd taken down notes at one of his religious meetings and discovered that at the back of it he'd written a list of times and places. I remember the first entry: it was Avonmouth fuel depot. I photographed the page with a miniature digital camera Silverman had given me.

He was delighted with the list and said it was evidence that Nazim and his friends were planning to hijack a fuel tanker and crash it into one of the four power stations. He even speculated that they were planning multiple hijacks and hoping to blow a hole in the side of a reactor. He wanted to know more. I told him the relationship had broken down, but he insisted I get as close to Nazim as I could. No detail was too small - changes in mood, the slightest alteration in appearance - he wanted to know everything.

I did what I was asked. Throughout June I contacted Silverman nearly every day. I observed Nazim become increasingly distracted and withdrawn. He missed lectures and classes. He wouldn't speak to me or any of the other students. I became concerned and asked Silverman what was going to happen to Nazim. He wouldn't answer. He just told me to keep reporting.

By mid-June I had convinced myself that Nazim was genuinely involved in a terrorist conspiracy. Then something happened to change my mind. Out of the blue he stopped me in the corridor - I think it was on the 24th - and said that he was sorry he had behaved so badly towards me. His mood had completely altered: it was the first time I'd seen him smile in weeks. I asked if he was OK. He said he was fine. He touched my hand and then walked away. We never spoke again.

On Saturday 29 June 2002 Silverman phoned and arranged to pick me up outside Goldney Hall. He drove me up to Bristol Downs and handed me an envelope containing ?5,000. He told me that Nazim and Rafi Hassan had been arrested - he didn't say by whom - and that I wasn't to say a word to anyone. He didn't make any specific threats, but he didn't need to: his manner told me everything I needed to know.

About a week later he called again and instructed me to give a statement to the police, saying that I had overheard Nazim talking to Asian friends in the canteen about going to fight in Afghanistan. He told me to keep it short. I didn't dare disobey him.

He contacted me once more in late July. He said he was leaving the country to work abroad but that he'd hold good to his promise. In the first term of my third year I was sent an application form to apply for a Stevenson scholarship to Harvard. I was successful: I studied there for three years and gained a doctorate in 2007.

I have no knowledge of what happened to Nazim Jamal or Rafi Hassan. From the little that Silverman told me, I formed the impression that they had been arrested by the Security Services. As I became better informed about the political situation, I speculated that they had been taken into custody by the US authorities and removed to a foreign country, but I have no evidence for this.

I am now in the protective custody of the British Security Services and make this statement freely, willingly and am receiving no reward or favour in exchange.

Khan shot to his feet.

'Ma'am,' he said, with an expression of complete incredulity, 'are you honestly proposing that the contents of this statement cannot be reported or made known to anyone outside the immediate families of the deceased? If what Dr Levin says is true, words cannot describe the depth of corruption that this represents.'

Collins, sitting alongside him, nodded in agreement. Havilland shifted uncomfortably in his seat. Martha Denton wore an expression of impassive detachment.

'I'm not proposing anything, Mr Khan. How each of us behaves with a gun pressed to our heads is a matter of individual conscience.'

Khan was defiant. 'I refuse to be silenced. I intend to make the evidence we have heard public by whatever means possible.'

Jenny felt the eyes of Golder, Rhys and Moreton on her. She realized that the wall of silence that had been erected around her proceedings would never be breached. Immediate imprisonment awaited any newspaper editor or broadcaster who disobeyed the order. If Khan wanted to spread the word he would be restricted to megaphone and soapbox or an obscure extra-territorial corner of the internet, where he would compete for attention with the cranks and conspiracy theorists.

'You must do as you see fit, Mr Khan,' Jenny said, and began her summing up to the jury.

A sense of anticlimax greeted the verdict of unlawful killing. There was no sense of a blow being struck for justice, no surge of satisfaction that the truth would now be made known to a waiting world. Rather it was a guilty, furtive moment in which everyone in the room felt as if they had tacitly participated in the concealment of an evil too monstrous and powerful to confront. The uneasy feeling of complicity was completed when Jenny reminded the jury that every last word they had heard must remain absolutely secret, even from their immediate families.

She couldn't decide whether she had uncovered the truth, or buried it more deeply.

As the jurors shuffled from their seats, she looked across at Mr Jamal. He wiped tears from his cheek, gave her a brief nod of acceptance, and made his way to the back of the hall, where police officers waited to escort him to his car. It was cold comfort, but she sensed he was glad there would be no publicity.

Not so Khan. He burst outside and announced to waiting supporters that their brothers had been murdered by American and British agents. A minor riot broke out. There were scuffles and arrests, cracked heads and screams of pain, but no reporters to witness them.

Jenny met Golder and Rhys in the restaurant at the bird sanctuary. They sat by the window overlooking the pond. The light was fading from a brilliant sky and the flamingos wading in the water gleamed fluorescent pink.

'Do you like birds?' Gillian Golder asked, stirring sweetener into milky tea.

'Most kinds. Don't you?'

'As long as they're not grubby,' Golder said. 'I think all the pigeons in London should be exterminated.'

'I rather admire their tenacity.'

Alun Rhys cut in, 'What do you want to know, Mrs Cooper?'

Jenny sipped her tepid coffee. There was so much she wanted to be told, and she trusted them so little.

'Who is Silverman?'

Golder answered. 'As far as we can ascertain he was an American agent operating outside the usual channels of cooperation. He appeared to have access to our intelligence, but we knew nothing of him or his activities.'

'You're denying all knowledge of him?'

'They were fearful times. The Americans were understandably jumpy and we had let the grass grow under our feet rather. Not that that's any justification for summary killing, I grant you.'

Jenny remained sceptical. 'If they thought they'd identified terrorists, why not just hand them over to you or fly them out of the country?'

Golder and Rhys exchanged a look. Golder said, 'We're still working on that. All we have at present is the little Alec McAvoy told us. Apparently Tathum confessed that he and his colleague - since killed in Iraq, if that's any consolation - brought the two boys straight from Bristol to the woods, where they were met by Silverman. He interrogated them for most of the night, extracted nothing except denials, then shot Hassan as an incentive to Jamal. Seemingly it didn't have the desired effect.'

'You're in contact with McAvoy?' Jenny tried not to show her excitement.

'He made a single call to the police. There's been no other communication.'

'Will he be prosecuted?'

The loyal Crown servants exchanged another glance. 'That's a decision that depends on many factors,' Rhys said, 'not least of which is whether he's still alive. The police found a vehicle yesterday which we think may be his.'

'Where?'

'Just along the estuary from here, at Aust, near the bridge.'

Jenny gazed out at the birds and told herself it was a ruse on McAvoy's part. He was buying time, that was all, throwing them off the scent while he worked out his next move. He wouldn't leave her now, he had promised . .

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