She noticed a little glass jar filled with Q-tips. 'What other pictures do you take?' she asked, hurrying into the living room.
He followed. 'What is it?'
'Nothing.'
His skin was bright, pressurized. 'You think I'm strange?'
'No.'
'Yes, I think you do.'
'Why would I think that?' she said.
'I can tell.'
Maybe he had taken a pill. 'We're all strange.' Christina clutched the purse. I'm not scared of him, she told herself. I wouldn't sleep with him in a bazillion years, but I'm not scared of him.
'Let's sit down and talk,' he suggested.
She looked at her watch. 'I should go.'
'I want you to stay. We've barely-'
'My friend is waiting for me.'
'I was going to show you my other pictures.'
'Your other pictures? Not the pills?'
He pulled a large album of photographs off a shelf. 'This is the first series.'
She sat down and flipped open the album. Q-tips. Forests and constellations and waterfalls of Q-tips.
'I worked very hard on that, he said, pointing at one. 'The light's tricky.'
'You took these pictures in your bedroom?'
'How'd you know?'
'Just a guess.'
He was pleased, and again ran his hand over his head.
'How many did you take?' she asked. 'Of the Q-tips, I mean.'
'Over the years, probably, what?' He contemplated the question. 'A thousand rolls. Thirty-six to a roll.'
'You took thirty-six thousand pictures of Q-tips.'
He nodded. 'No one else has ever done that, I suspect.'
'Rahul, I have to go.'
'Please don't.'
'I do.' He'll lock me in the basement and I'll use the cell phone, she thought. That line about going to Germany the next day was a lie.
'Can I have your number?' Rahul asked.
'Not quite yet.'
He fiddled with his watch. 'I'm rich, you know.'
'I can see that.'
'You're very beautiful.'
'Right,' she said.
'I know men always say that, but I have a special ability to see things.'
'Will you see me to the door, then?'
'Not yet. Please.'
She stood.
'I can make you happy!'
She ran to the hallway. God, am I stupid, she thought, brushing drunkenly against the pill photos. I must be stupid and desperate to let myself-
'Wait!' he cried, following her. He caught her arm at the front door. 'You can't just leave me. Wait, you-'
She opened the door, but he was stronger and pushed it shut.
'I said wait, bitch.'
She lifted her knee into his crotch, which stopped him long enough for her to tear open the locks and dash down the steps and along the street, almost running, looking behind her. He didn't follow.
At the corner she stopped and lit a cigarette, her heart beating too fast. She felt buzzy and sickish, her forehead hot. Next to her, the cars blew down the avenue and people plunged confidently into the further possibilities of the evening. She breathed out the cigarette, waiting for it to calm her. It didn't. She looked back along the street. Nothing. Her fingers felt funny and she realized she was shaking. I'm out of control here, she thought, a little out of control.
Snyder, Wainwright, Lovell amp; Passaro Fiftieth Street and Lexington Avenue, Manhattan September 20, 1999
He had not found her. Not yet, or not exactly. On the Thursday and Friday previous, he'd taken a sweaty lunchtime taxi over to Martha's office to meet two or three women in a row. Eager, sweet, healthy women, bright and full of life. And thoughtful and attentive, no doubt reassured by Martha's gruff motherliness. Each had seemed acceptable; none was right. Yet now he walked into Martha's office feeling-maybe even hope, Charlie told himself. The third-quarter sales numbers were going to be good enough to singe Marvin Noff's eyebrows, and he had been able to sit through the Jets game on television the previous afternoon without Ellie mentioning the retirement community once. Maybe she'd given up on the idea. Even his appointment for dinner with Mr. Ming that evening seemed propitious. He would talk about the factory, Ming would smile. He would buy dinner, Ming would release the next ten million.
'We've received your application,' said Martha as they welcomed the woman who lived on a farm upstate, Pamela Archer. Tall and slender, she wore a plain dress and running shoes. No braces as a teenager, a sandbar of worry on her brow. 'My name is Martha.'
'And I'm Charlie Ravich.'
'Are you the-the businessman?' Pamela Archer asked.
'I am,' he said gently.
They sat down in a conference room. 'Miss Archer,' continued Martha, 'our intention here is to ask you a few questions, and perhaps to answer yours.'
She smiled with polite nervousness. 'Okay.'
'I want to explain this idea, first conceptually, and then specifically,' Martha said. 'So that we are clear. The arrangement will be spelled out in a document of course, and if you were to be the selected party, we would understand that you may wish for your own attorney to review it. I want to emphasize that the intention here is to work in good faith-very good faith, the best of faith, in fact-and that the well-being of the selected woman is of paramount importance to us, to me.' Martha paused to see that Pamela Archer understood. 'This is meant to be as caring an arrangement as possible.'
They continued from there to the structure of the agreement-the duties of each party, the method of payment, the proof of paternity, the schedule of reports on the child's well-being.
'We also have two other areas of inquiry,' said Martha, getting up to pour herself some coffee. 'The first is your health. From this appointment you will be taken by a private car to a doctor's office for examination. That includes a gynecological exam and blood work.'
'Seems quite expectable.' Pamela Archer smiled at Charlie.
'They'll go over your medical history,' Martha continued. 'But we have some medical questions that we ask in an attempt to determine your character, not your health per se.'
'All right,' Pamela Archer said.
'Do you smoke?'
'Never,' she announced proudly.
'Never?'
'Never.'
'Drink?'
