Fell Purpose

The tears began to leak again. He pressed them back, Canute-like, with the filthy handkerchief.

‘You knew where she was going,’ Slider tried. ‘Why follow her? Or did you, perhaps, think that she wasn’t going to Sophy’s house? Did you think there was some deception going on?’ Wilding still didn’t answer, but now he reached for a tissue and blew his nose, and then took another to blot at his eyes. He had done it in what seemed an automatic gesture, but Slider saw it as a sign of lowered resistance, and pressed a little more. ‘I’m surprised you should suspect your lovely daughter of hiding something from you. Or did you have some reason to think her friends were conspiring to do her harm?’

That provoked him. ‘Zellah would never have done anything like that if it hadn’t been for those others corrupting her,’ he cried in a little flash of defensive spirit.

‘Done anything like what?’ Slider asked.

Wilding didn’t answer that, but he talked. ‘I tried to keep her safe. I tried to keep her away from bad influences. That was all I ever wanted, to keep her as she was – so beautiful, so perfect. Was that wrong?’ He laid his big, hard hands on the table in a gesture of finality. Even after only three days away from his bench, the little nicks and scratches were healing, the recent scars fading. Life could be very cruel, in its thoughtless regeneration. ‘But everything was against me. The whole of modern society is a disease. What can one man do against it?’

‘Her friends, Sophy and Chloe . . .’ Slider began.

The fire lit in him. ‘Those girls! She wanted them as Zellah’s friends – my wife. Her own mother was complicit in corrupting her. Friends? What kind of mother would want her child to mix with creatures like that? Trollops with empty minds. Hussies with no interest in anything, beyond sex and celebrities and clothes.’ He rocked back and forth in an anguish of mourning. ‘But that’s what her mother wanted. She wanted my daughter, with all her wonderful intelligence and talent, to be . . . a model.’

His tone of disgust and outrage and grief said this was the worst fate a girl could encounter. Worse than death? Well, perhaps. Perhaps.

‘And what did you want for her?’ Slider asked quietly, hoping to slip his questions in isotonically so Wilding would hardly notice.

‘To be something that mattered. To be herself. To use all her abilities, not just her looks. Not to waste herself. But all the time I was fighting against the world. The foul, trivial, dirty, corrupting world.’ Slider felt Atherton’s ears prick, though he was not looking at him. ‘It was the world that took my Zellah from me,’ Wilding cried. ‘I tried to save her, but in the end . . .’

He didn’t finish the sentence, which was a pity, because the conclusion of it might have been ‘the only way I could save her was to kill her’ or words to that effect. The tears were seeping out again and Wilding took another tissue. Atherton stirred just very slightly, so that Slider knew he thought Wilding was hiding in there and ought to be winkled out. But Slider didn’t think so. There was a momentum now. He just had to keep it going.

‘What made you decide that particular day that something was going to happen?’ he asked, without emphasis. ‘Was it the fact that she was staying over?’

‘I was always against that,’ Wilding answered without pause. ‘I could understand Zellah wanting to – the other girls often did it, and she was too innocent to see the danger they represented. But her mother wanted it, too. There’s no excuse for her. Good God, she prides herself on being worldly!’ he said bitterly. ‘They both asked, over and over. Zellah sounded so wistful. Pam – well, I knew she wouldn’t let up. In the end . . . But I shouldn’t have given in. I shall always blame myself for that.’

‘What were you afraid was going to happen?’

‘I had no specific apprehension. I just knew it would not be good for her to spend time unsupervised with those creatures. But then . . .’ He paused so long that Slider was on the brink of prompting him when he went on, very low, his head bent, so it was hard even in the silent room to hear him. ‘It was the deceit that was so hard to bear. I was used to it from Pam. I expected it from her. But not Zellah. Not . . . my little girl.’

Slider took a chance. ‘You found her mobile phone,’ he suggested.

‘Almost as soon as she’d left the house,’ he said. ‘I went up to her room. It was lying on her bed. I was worried about her being out without it. I thought I could catch her up in the car and give it to her.’

Slider shook his head. ‘That wasn’t the way it was,’ he said, gently but firmly. ‘If that was your intention, you would have gone openly and told your wife about it. But you left secretly without her knowing. You decided to follow Zellah and see what she was up to. Why was that? What aroused your suspicion?’

It was a rule they were taught early on in the CID, never to ask a question you don’t already know the answer to. Sometimes you couldn’t help it, but in the present case it was a useful tool. Wilding didn’t answer, and Slider was able to say, ‘You used the last-number recall to see who she’d been speaking to, and found she had called the young man you had forbidden her to see.’

Wilding raised his head and his voice was anguished, a cry of pain. ‘She deceived me! She must have been deceiving me for months with that – that piece of trash! I had to know! You must see that! I had to know how far things had gone, how far he had corrupted her! You must see I had to!’

‘I do see,’ Slider said. ‘If she felt she had to hide it from you, you were afraid it might be very bad.’

‘She was so innocent, she wouldn’t know – she wouldn’t see it coming. I didn’t want her to be shocked. I wanted to step in before that happened, before he exposed her to things she wouldn’t understand. So I drove to the Cooper-Hutchinsons’ house and waited there until she arrived. I saw her go in. For a moment I was relieved. And then I thought, what if that was a ruse? What if they were conniving at her ruin? So I waited. And sure enough, she came out again, alone. Dressed like . . . dressed like . . .’ Tears flowed so freely Slider wondered where all the moisture could be coming from, in a man who had been dehydrated. ‘They weren’t her clothes. Those girls – her friends – had dressed her like a prostitute.’

Slider took a bunch of tissues from the box and pushed them into his hands, but he couldn’t afford to let the momentum drop. ‘Why didn’t you stop her then?’ he asked, though he knew it would hurt. But hurt, in this case, might be a useful weapon.

‘I had to know!’ he cried out in pain. ‘I had to know the worst. If I’d stopped her then, she might have lied to me. I couldn’t bear my child to lie to my face. If it was bad, I had to know so I could face her with it.’

Interesting, Slider thought – the same rule of interrogation he had just been thinking about. Know the answer before you ask the question.

‘So you followed her to the pub.’

Wilding didn’t seem to wonder how Slider knew. He said, ‘I thought she was meeting him inside. I was going to go in and confront her, but there wasn’t a parking space, and I was afraid if I drove off to find one, she might come out and I’d miss her. And while I was still debating what to do, she did come out. She was obviously waiting for someone. And in a moment he drove up on his motorbike. Before I could get out and stop her, she got on and drove off with him. I followed, but he could weave in and out of the traffic. I couldn’t catch him up, and I lost him at the lights.’ He blew his nose again. The tears had stopped, perhaps from exhaustion of the reservoir.

‘What did you do?’

‘I drove about looking for them. It was hopeless.’

‘Why didn’t you go to his flat?’

‘I had no idea where he lived. I thought he lived with his mother in Reading, but I didn’t know the address. I didn’t think he would be taking her there. I thought, in fact, he was taking her to the Carnival. She wanted to go, but I’d forbidden it. It was too dangerous for a young girl. But it was the sort of thing I assumed he’d like.’

‘So did you go there?’

‘I tried to. But of course you can’t get near it in a car. It’s all cordoned off. I looked for a parking space and the nearest I could get was in Barlby Road. I parked there and tried walking down Ladbroke Grove, but the streets were packed. So many people – all that noise – it was bedlam. How could I find her in that crowd? It was hopeless. I was jostled and deafened – I thought I was going to be robbed – but I kept going. I was sure she was there somewhere, and I had to find her – save her . . .’ He stopped, staring dully at his hands.

‘Was it just by chance that you found them again?’ Slider asked after a moment.

‘What?’ Wilding said. He raised his head at the question. Was that wariness?

‘You were parked in Barlby Road. Your way home was back down North Pole Road. Opposite the end of North