suppose there’s anyone else who—’
‘Cares for him?’ he suggested gently.
‘I don’t care for him,’ she said. ‘I did once, but that was a long time ago. However, there is such a thing as common decency.’
She hadn’t looked at Atherton since they’d sat down. She had forgotten him. And he could see she was ready to talk to Slider. He wondered again how Slider did it. Animal magic – pheromones – mesmerism? Something.
‘He was an attractive man,’ Slider suggested.
‘You don’t know how attractive.’ She stopped abruptly as something occurred to her. ‘You haven’t said yet how he died.
Slider held her eyes. They were not blue, as he had first thought, but greenish-grey. Unusual, but not very – what was the word? –
For the first time she lost her composure. Colour drained from her face, and she looked suddenly older. Her lips rehearsed some words she didn’t speak. At last she got a grip. ‘How can you be sure?’
‘He was shot in the back of the head,’ Slider said.
The words were as brutal as the shot itself.
‘Oh my God,’ she said, staring at him as if he had slapped her. She put both her hands to her mouth. But evidently her mind was still working. After a moment she said from behind them, ‘Was it over some woman?’
‘That’s what we have to find out,’ Slider said, ‘and it means going into his background, which is why I hoped you would be able to help us. The more we know about him, the better chance we have of finding who did this.’
‘There’ll be a woman at the bottom of it,’ she said, and now there was a hint of bitterness in her tone. ‘There always was. That’s what killed our marriage – women. He couldn’t resist them. And they couldn’t resist him. To some extent he wasn’t to blame. They threw themselves at him. He was so handsome, so charming. He had a way of making you feel you were the only person in the world who mattered. And of course it was sincere – at the time. It took me years to understand that. He wasn’t pretending. It was just that he made every woman feel like that.’
‘It must have been a useful thing for a doctor.’
She didn’t take it amiss. ‘Yes. The ultimate bedside manner. He ought to have been a psychiatrist. Or even a dentist. Women would have flocked to him.’
‘What was his field?’
She seemed slightly put out by the question. ‘Urology,’ she said flatly.
‘Not glamorous,’ Slider sympathized. But lucrative – and more male patients than female, he reflected. She should have been glad about that. ‘Was he ambitious?’ he asked. ‘I suppose he must have been to get as far as he did. He came from quite humble beginnings, didn’t he?’
She studied him a moment, as if to weigh the implications of his question, and then, oddly, glanced at Atherton. He took the cue. ‘On his birth certificate, it said his father was an insurance clerk.’
She nodded, as if that explained it. ‘He grew up in a terraced workman’s cottage. Two up, two down. He used to make jokes about D.H. Lawrence, but it wasn’t quite that bad. Greasely’s quite a pretty, country place. And his parents were respectable working people, very keen for him to get on. He went to the grammar school, and got a grant to go to university. Which is where I met him.’
Slider had not pictured her a student; and he became aware that he had noticed subliminally that there was not a single book on display in the immaculate sitting-room. On the shelves in the chimney alcove there were only ornaments. ‘Which one?’ he asked.
‘Edinburgh. He wanted to go to London but couldn’t get in. I chose Edinburgh to get as far away from home as possible. So we were both rather lost sheep.’
‘What did you study?’ Atherton asked, mainly to keep her going, but also out of curiosity. He couldn’t see her as a scholar, either.
‘Philosophy,’ she said, surprising them both. English – the easy option – was what they would have betted. ‘Daddy said it was a waste of time, because it couldn’t lead to a career. And Mummy didn’t want me to have a career anyway, so she didn’t want me to go to university at all. Least of all Edinburgh. She was afraid I’d meet someone unsuitable there. Which I did, in her sense. So they were both right.’
‘And you were attracted to David right away?’ Slider asked.
‘I admired him for the way he’d got over his disadvantages and moved himself into a different world. Without being resentful. There were other working-class students, of course, but they tended to be – what’s that word they use nowadays?’
‘Chippy?’ Atherton suggested.
‘Oh yes. There were a lot of chippy people around back then. But David wasn’t the least like that. He loved the fact that I came from a privileged home. He made me feel it was something to be proud of. So we – clung together, I suppose. And then – well, he
‘You fell in love,’ Slider suggested. She assented by a slight nod. ‘But you didn’t get married for quite some time.’
She sharpened. ‘You seem to know an awful lot about me.’
‘I’m sorry,’ Slider said. ‘We found the marriage certificate, you see, so we know the date.’
She sighed. ‘There was a lot of opposition at home. Mummy was horrified because he wasn’t “one of us”. Daddy insisted David must prove himself before we could get married. They hoped I’d meet someone else if they made me wait.’ Her mouth hardened as she said it. ‘For five years they threw eligible men of the “right” sort at me, made me go to every dance and party, tried to pretend David was just one of the field. It wasn’t until he was a senior houseman, and Bernard Webber got him a registrar slot, that they gave in.’
Interesting, Slider thought. She would have been of age on leaving university, and could have married him then, but it did not seem to have occurred to her to do it without permission. Or was it a matter of money? It wasn’t in his remit to ask, though he’d have liked to.
‘We got married,’ she went on, ‘and he proved them wrong – as far as career and income went. Mummy always looked down her nose at him rather, but Daddy respected him for what he achieved. I always kept the women thing away from them, until the end. But they wouldn’t have cared about that, anyway, as long as there wasn’t a scandal. They would have told me not to make a fuss. And I didn’t, for a long time. But in the end, it just wore me down.’ She met Slider’s eyes. ‘You don’t know what it’s like. The constant, constant—’ Her eyes glittered with unshed tears. ‘The lies. The excuses. The “conferences”. The “medical emergencies”. The tawdriness of it all! The way those girls behaved – no restraint. No self-respect. Notes left in his pockets. Telephone calls – the ones where they hang up when I answer and the ones where they pretend to be calling from work. The ones who sat in their cars outside the house hoping to catch a glimpse of him. The ones who were friendly to me at functions to show there was nothing going on and the ones who glared furiously at me across the room. The ones who showed up at the house in tears. The ones who thought he would marry them. They didn’t understand the first thing about him. He would never have left me. And I’d have put up with it, if it was just an occasional thing, if it was kept out of sight. But it just – never – stopped.’
She looked around her helplessly, and Atherton, divining her problem, jumped up and brought the box of tissues to her from the coffee table. She looked at him properly for the first time as she took one and said, ‘Thanks.’ He thought she might have been quite attractive if she ever smiled.
‘It must have been very hard for you,’ Slider said when she had dried her eyes and discreetly blown her nose.
‘It was. I did care for him, you see, and in a way he couldn’t help it. He was just made that way. He loved sex, and he couldn’t resist when it was offered. And of course a doctor gets offered lots of it. He was a very uncomplicated person, really. But I just couldn’t go on. He cried when he moved out. I hated that. We sold the house – we had a lovely place in Chipperfield – and the London flat, and divided the money, and I bought this house.’
‘Did he pay you maintenance?’
‘No. I told you, we shared the capital. I didn’t want anything else from him. I wanted to cut him out of my life, and that’s what I did. Made my own life, concentrated on my own career.’
