face to press against me there.
'Because I'l do it, if it makes you happy, Paige. I'l get on
my knees for you any time you want it. I'l let you do what
you want. If you tel me what you want me to do, I'l do it.
Whatever it takes, remember? Just…tel me. Please.'
'I want you to shut up and go,' I said as best I could
without breath. It had stuck in my throat, too, my world
spinning dizzily as I tried to draw in more air. 'Just go,
Austin!'
'If that's what you want.' He stood and his hands slid up
'If that's what you want.' He stood and his hands slid up
my body to pul me closer to him.
My nightgown fel back down, but it was no protection
against him. His belt buckle pressed my bely. The denim
of his jeans scratched my bare legs. I had my hands
between us, pushing at his chest, and he snared them both
in his. Too late, I realized I would have to look at him
now.
'I love you,' Austin said. 'Don't you know that?'
I opened my mouth and he kissed me until I turned my
face.
'You don't want to know it,' he said.
'We've been through this before,' I whispered. 'It doesn't work with us.'
'I want it to work. Things are different now. Aren't they?
I'm different.' He paused and tugged me half an inch
closer. 'You're different. You know you are.'
But I hadn't wanted him to know.
'We weren't al bad together,' he said.
'We weren't al bad together,' he said.
I looked at him again. 'We weren't al good together,
either.'
'I want to be with you. Not just to fuck you once in a
while. Again, serious. You and me. I'm wiling to try.'
I almost said yes. But then I said no. 'Leave.'
'Whatever it takes,' Austin said, and kissed me until I
couldn't breathe.
I didn't walk him to the door. I waited until I heard it close
behind him before I looked at the message on my phone.
It was from Eric, as I'd thought.
If I were with you right now, I'd be on my knees for you.
Your slave. I'd worship you. I wish I could be with you
right now.
It's easy to look back and blame a lot of things on
circumstance, and I could blame what had just happened
with Austin for my response to Eric. But I'l own what I
did. I answered him.
I think it's time we meet in person.
I think it's time we meet in person.
Then I wiped my face and refused to cry anymore.
