It was a lot to absorb, and I was glad he hadn't stuck
around to baby me through it.
I flipped open my phone and pushed the Contacts button
to bring up my list of names and numbers. I didn't want to
cal my dad, I hadn't quite made up enough with Kira, and
Leo was with Arty. If I went home to Lebanon, I'd need a
ride in the morning to get my car. If I got a ride home, I
could take the bus to work and pick up my car later. I saw
two names in a row, one after the other. Two names, but
only one choice.
He came right away. I wasn't even ashamed that I hadn't
even doubted he would. It was simply something I knew I
could ask, and he would give.
The lobby doors parted and he walked through. The air
disappeared around me. I opened my mouth to speak, to
disappeared around me. I opened my mouth to speak, to
breathe, and could do neither.
I loved him.
I hadn't known it, or wouldn't admit it, but now I couldn't
do anything but feel it. Love was like a punch in the gut,
but I didn't double over. The world tipped up again, the
floor a rocking, roling platform that had decided to throw
me off it. I didn't fal because he was there to catch me.
The smel of him blocked out the scents of bad coffee and
exhaustion and bad news. I breathed, and he filed me.
It was Austin.
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Of course, like an idiot, I didn't tel him I loved him. I let him drive me home and I took him upstairs, where he
hesitated in the doorway until I puled him close and shut
the door behind us. When my mouth found his, he sighed
and his arms went around me as tight as I liked it.
We'd never been shy about fucking on the floor, a table,
the couch. Against a wal. But this time I took his hand and
led him to my bedroom, where I pushed him gently until he
lay on the bed and I crawled up over him to kiss his mouth
and face. Straddling him, I rocked against his denim-
covered crotch until his cock sweled inside his jeans, and
then I slid my body down until I could kiss him there.
My lips left a wet mark, and through the thick material I
could feel his hardness. I pushed my hands under his ass to
lift him closer to my mouth as I rubbed my face on his
thigh. I unbuckled his belt and puled down the jeans and
his boxers. I took him in my mouth, and he made a sound
like coming home.
I let the smel and taste of him fil me up the way it always
had, and I stopped trying to pretend it wasn't anything
had, and I stopped trying to pretend it wasn't anything
more than this. My hands found the weight of his bals, the
length of his cock. My mouth sucked, fingers stroked, lips
