calling. “If I could have your attention,
please.” The applause quieted. “We're going to have a run-off ballot. When the people passing out the slips of paper get to you, please write the couple you favor on it.”
He left the mike, looking relieved.
The ballots were circulated; they had been hastily torn from leftover prom programs. The band played unnoticed and people talked excitedly.
“They weren't applauding for us,” Carrie said, looking up. The thing he had felt (or thought he had felt) was gone. “It couldn't have been for us.
“Maybe it was for you.
She looked at him, mute.
“What's taking it so long?” she hissed at him. “I heard them clap. Maybe that was it. If you fucked up-” The length of jute cord hung between them limply, untouched since Billy had poked a screwdriver through the vent and lifted it out.
“Don't worry,” he said calmly. “They'll play the school song. They always do.”
“But-”
“Shut up. You talk too fucking much.” The tip of his cigarette winked peacefully in the dark.
She shut. But
(oh when this is over you're going to get it buddy maybe you'll go to bed with lover's nuts tonight)
her mind ran furiously over his words, storing them. People did not speak to her in such a manner. Her father was a lawyer.
It was seven minutes of ten.
He was holding the broken pencil in his hand, ready to write, when she touched his wrist lightly, tentatively.
“Don't… “What?”
“Don't vote for us,” she said finally.
He raised his eyebrows quizzically. “Why not? In for a penny, in for a pound. That's what my mother always says.”
(mother)
A picture rose in her mind instantly, her mother droning endless prayers to a towering, faceless, columnar God who prowled roadhouse parking lots with a sword of fire in one hand. Terror rose in her blackly, and she had to fight with all her spirit to hold it back. She could not explain her dread, her sense of premonition. She could only smile helplessly and repeat: “Don't. Please.”
The Honor Society ushers were coming back, collecting folded slips. He hesitated a moment longer, then suddenly scrawled Tommy and Carrie on the ragged slip of paper. “For you,” he said. “Tonight you go first-class.”
She could not reply, for the premonition was on her: her mother's face.
The knife slipped from the whetstone, and in an instant it had sliced the cup of her palm below the thumb.
She looked at the cut. It bled slowly, thickly, from the open lips of the wound, running out of her hand and spotting the worn linoleum of the kitchen floor. Good, then. It was good. The blade had tasted flesh and let blood. She did not bandage it but tipped the flow over the cutting edge, letting the blood dull the blade's sharp glimmer. Then she began to sharpen again, heedless of the droplets which splattered her dress.
If thine right eye offend thee, pluck it out.
If it was a hard scripture, it was also sweet and good. A fitting scripture for those who lurked in the doorway shadows of one-night hotels and in the weeds behind bowling alleys.
Pluck it out.
(oh and the nasty music they play)
Pluck z. t
(the girls show their underwear how it sweats how it sweats blood)
out.
The Black Forest cuckoo clock began to strike ten and (cut her guts out on the floor)
if thine right eye offend thee, pluck it out.
The dress was done and she could not watch the television or take out her books or call Nancy on the phone. There was nothing to do but sit on the sofa facing the blackness of the kitchen window and feel some nameless sort of fear growing in her like an infant coming to dreadful term.
With a sigh she began to massage her arms absently. They were cold and prickly. It was twelve after ten and there was no reason, really no reason, to feel that the world was coming to an end.
The stacks were higher this time, but they still looked exactly the same. Again, three counts were taken to make sure. Then Vic Mooney went to the mike again. He paused a moment, relishing the blue feel of tension in the air, and then announced simply:
“Tommy and Carrie win. By one vote.”
Dead silence for a moment. Then applause filled the hall
again, some of it not without satiric overtones. Carrie drew in a
startled, smothered gasp, and Tommy again felt (but for only a
second) that weird vertigo in his mind (carrie carrie carrie carrie)
that seemed to blank out all thought but the name and image of this strange girl he was with. For a fleeting second he was literally scared shitless.
Something fell on the floor with a clink, and at the same instant the candle between them whiffed out.
Then Josie and the Moonglows were playing a rock version of “Pomp and Circumstance,” the ushers appeared at their table (almost magically; all this had been rehearsed meticulously by Miss Geer who, according to rumor, ate slow and clumsy ushers for lunch), a scepter wrapped in aluminum foil was thrust into Tommy's hand, a robe with a lush dog-fur collar was thrown over Carrie's shoulders, and they were being led down the center aisle by a boy and a girl in white blazers. The band blared. The audience applauded. Miss Geer looked vindicated. Tommy Ross was grinning bemusedly.
They were ushered up the steps to the apron, led across to the thrones, and seated. Still the applause swelled. The sarcasm in it was lost now; it was honest and deep, a little frightening. Carrie was glad to sit down. It was all happening too fast. Her legs were trembling under her and suddenly, even with the comparatively high neck of her gown, her breasts
(dirtypillows)
felt dreadfully exposed. The sound of the applause in her ears made her feel woozy, almost punch-drunk. Part of her was actually convinced that all this was a dream from which she would wake with mixed feelings of loss and relief.
Vic boomed into the mike: “The King and Queen of the 1979 Spring Ball-Tommy ROSS and Carrie WHITE!”
Still applause, swelling and booming and crackling. Tommy Ross, in the fading moments of his life now, took Carrie's hand and grinned at her, thinking that Suzie's intuition had been very right. Somehow she grinned back. Tommy
(she was right and i love her well i love this one too this carrie she is she is beautiful and it's right and i love all of them the light the light in her eyes)
and Carrie
(can't see them the lights are too bright i can hear them but can't see them the shower remember the shower o momma it's too high i think i want to get down 0 are they laughing and ready to throw things to point and scream with laughter i can't see them i can't see them it's all too bright)
and the beam above them.
Both bands, in a sudden and serendipitous coalition of rock and brass, swung into the school song. The audience rose to its feet and began to sing, still applauding.
It was ten-o-seven.
Billy had just flexed his knees to make the joints pop. Chris Hargensen stood next to him with increasing signs of nervousness. Her hands played aimlessly along the seams of the jeans she had worn and she was biting the softness of her lower lip, chewing at it, making it a little ragged.
“You think they'll vote for them?” Billy said softly.
“They will,” she said. “I set it up. It won't even be close. Why do they keep applauding? What's going on in there?”
“Don't ask me, babe. I-”
The school song suddenly roared out, full and strong on the soft May air, and Chris jumped as if stung., A soft gasp of surprise escaped her.
All rise high for Thomas Ewen Hiii?yyygh
“Go on,” he said. “They're there.” His eyes glowed softly in the dark. The odd half-grin had touched his features.
She licked her lips. They both stared at the length of jute cord.
We'll raise your banners to the skyyyyyy.
“Shut up,” she whispered. She was trembling, and he thought that her body had never looked so lush or exciting. When this was over he was going to have her until every other time she'd been had was like two pumps with a fag's little finger. He was going on her like a raw cob through butter.
“No guts, babe?”
He leaned forward. “I won't pull it for you, babe. It can sit there till hell freezes.”
With pride we wear the red and whiiyyyyte.
A sudden smothered sound that might have been a half-scream came from her mouth, and she leaned forward and pulled violently on the cord with both hands. It came loose with slack for a moment, making her think that Billy had been having her on all this time, that the rope was attached to nothing but thin air. Then it snubbed tight, held for a second, and then came through her palms harshly, leaving a thin burn.
“I-” she began.
The music inside came to a jangling, discordant halt. For a moment ragged voices continued oblivious, and then they stopped. There was a beat of silence, and then someone screamed. Silence again.
They stared at each other in the dark, frozen by the actual act as thought never could have done. Her very breath turned to glass in her throat.
