At last Wong let up on him and he went back to a normal routine. He was settling into it when he found himself posted for an extra duty. Pursuant thereto, he reported one morn-
ing to the officer of the watch, received a briefing, memorized a list 'of names, and was issued a black armband. Then he went to the main airlock and waited.
Presently a group of scared and greenish boys began erupting from the lock. When his turn came, he moved forward and called out, 'Squad seven! Where is the squad leader of squad seven?'
He got his charges rounded up at last and told the acting squad leader to follow along in the rear, then led them slowly and carefully down to 'A' deck. He was glad to find when he got there that none of them had gotten lost. 'This is your mess room,' he told them. 'We'll have lunch before long.'
Something about the expression of one of them amused him. 'What's the matter, Mister?' he asked the boy. 'Aren't you hungry?'
'Uh, no, sir.'
'Well, cheer up-you will be.'
X GUIS CUSTODIET IPSOS CUSTODES?
INTERPLANETARY PATROL Cadet Matthew Dodson sat in the waiting room of Pikes Peak Catapult Station and watched the clock. He had an hour to wait before boarding the New Moon for Terra Station; meanwhile he was expecting his roommates.
It had been a good leave, he supposed; he had done everything he had planned to do-except joining the others at the Jarman ranch at the end; his mother had kicked up such a fuss at the idea.
Still, it had been a good leave. His space-burned face,
lean and beginning to be lined, looked slightly puzzled. He had confided to no one his tentative intention of resigning while on leave. Now he was trying to remember just when and why it had ceased to be his intention. *
He had been sent on temporary duty to the P.R.S Nobel, as assistant to the astrogator during a routine patrol of cir-cum-Terra bomb-rockets. Matt had joined his ship at Moon Base and, at the conclusion of the patrol when the Nobel had grounded at Terra Base for overhaul, was detached with permission to take leave before reporting back to the Randolph. He had gone straight home.
The entire family met him at the station and copied him home. His mother had cried a little and his father had shaken hands very vigorously. It seemed to Matt that his kid brother had grown almost incredibly. It was good to see them, good to be back in the old family bus. Matt would have piloted the copter himself had not Billie, his brother, gone straight to the controls.
The house had been redecorated throughout. His mother obviously expected favorable comment and Matt had given it-but he hadn't really liked the change. It had not been what he had pictured. Besides that, the rooms seemed smaller. He decided that it must be the effect of redecorating; the house couldn't have shrunk!
His own room was filled with Bill's things, although Bill had been temporarily evicted to his old room, now turned into a hobby room for his toother. The new arrangements were sensible, reasonable-and annoying.
In thinking it over Matt knew that the changes at home had had nothing to do with his decision. Certainly not! Nor his father's remarks about posture, even though they had stuck in his craw-He and his father had been alone in the living room, just before dinner, and Matt had been pacing up and down, giving an animated and, he believed, interesting account of the first time he had soloed. His father had taken advantage of a pause to say, 'Stand up, son.'
Matt stopped. 'Sir?'
'You are all crouched over and seem to be limping. Does your leg still bother you?'
'No, my leg is fine.'
'Then straighten up and 'square your shoulders. Look proud. Don't they pay any attention to your posture at school?''
'What's wrong with the way I was walking?'
Bill had appeared in the door just as the subject had come up. 'I'll show you, Mattie,' he had interrupted, and proceeded to slouch across the room in a grotesque exaggeration of a spaceman's relaxed and boneless glide. The boy made it look like the amble of a chimpanzee. 'You walk like that.'
'The devil I do!'
'The devil you don't.'
'Bill!' said his father. 'Go wash up and get ready for dinner. And don't talk that way. Go on, now!' When the younger son had left his father turned again to Matt and said, 'I thought I was speaking privately, Matt. Honestly, it's not as bad as Bill makes out; it's only about half that bad.'
'But- Look, Dad, I walk just like everybody else-among spacemen, I mean. It comes of getting used to free-fall. You carry yourself sort of pulled in, for days on end, ready to bounce a foot off a bulkhead, or grab with your hands. When you're back under weight, after days and weeks of that, you walk the way I do. 'Cat feet' we call it.'
'I suppose it would have that effect,' his father had answered reasonably, 'but wouldn't it be a good idea to practice walking a little every day, just to keep in form?'
'In free-fall? But-' Matt had stopped, suddenly aware that there was no way to bridge the gap.
'Never mind. Let's go in to dinner.'
There had been the usual round of family dinners with aunts and uncles. Everyone asked him to tell about school, about what it felt like to go out into space. But, somehow, they had not actually seemed very interested. Take Aunt Dora.
Great-aunt Dora was the current family matriarch. She had been a very active woman, busy with church and social work. Now she was bedfast and had been for three years. Matt called on her because his family obviously expected it. 'She often complains to me that you don't write to her, Matt, and- '
'But, Mother, I don't have time to write to everyone!'
'Yes, yes. But she's proud of you, Matt. Shell want to ask you a thousand questions about everything. Be sure to wear your uniform-she'll expect it.'
Aunt Dora had not asked a thousand questions; she had asked just one- why had he waited so long to come to see her? Thereafter Matt found himself being informed, in detail, on the shortcomings of the new pastor, the marriage chances of several female relatives and connections, and the states of health of several older women, many of them unknown to him, including details of operations and postoperative developments.
He was a bit dizzy when he escaped, pleading a previous date.
Yes, maybe that was it-it might have been the visit to Aunt Dora that convinced him that he was not ready to resign and remain in Des Moines. It could not have been Marianne.
Marianne was the girl who had made him promise to write regularly-and, in fact, he had, more regularly than had she. But he had let her know that he was coming home and she had organized a picnic to welcome him back. It had been jolly. Matt had renewed old acquaintances and had enjoyed a certain amount of hero worship from the girls present. There had been a young man there, three or four years older than Matt, who seemed unattached. Gradually it dawned on Matt that Marianne treated the newcomer as her property.
It had not worried him. Marianne was the sort of girl who never would get clearly fixed in her mind the distinction between a planet and a star. He had not noticed this before, but it and similar matters had come up on the one date he had had alone with her.
And she had referred to his uniform as 'cute.'
He began to understand, from Marianne, why most Patrol officers do not marry until their mid-thirties, after retirement.
The clock in Pikes Peak Station showed thirty minutes until up-ship. Matt began to worry that Tex's casual way might have caused the other three to miss connections, when he spotted them in the crowd. He grabbed his jump bag and went toward them.
They had their backs toward him and had not seen him as yet. He sneaked up behind Tex and said in a hoarse voice, 'Mister-report to the Commandant's office.'
Tex jumped into the air and turned completely around. 'Matt! You horse- thief, don't scare me like that!'
'Your guilty conscience. Hi, Pete. Hello, Oscar.'
'How's the boy, Matt? Good leave?'
