It lasted a month. Then Linnet crept around again in the schoolroom, not even caring when Henry took her white crayon and chewed it reflectively into a crumbled mess that he had trouble spitting into the wastebasket when discovered. Again her three trembling fingers crept up to cover a quivering mouth. Again she forgot simple words she had known for months, and again she cried before trying new ones. One day the reading group laughed over the story of Spot dragging the covers of Ally to wake her up. They all had wide-eyed stories to tell about how hard they were to wake up or how incredibly early they woke up by themselves. Then Miss Peterson was dismissing the group with her automatic, 'Lift your chairs, don't drag them.' 'You know what, teacher? That's just like Daddy and Mother this morning,' said Linnet softly. 'They didn't get out of bed, so I fixed my own breakfast and got ready for school, all by myself.' 'My, you're getting to be a big girl, aren't you?' 'Yes. When I got up I went in their bedroom but they weren't awake. I pulled the covers up for Mother because her shoulders were cold. Her nightgown hasn't got any sleeves.' 'That was thoughtful of you,' said Miss Peterson. 'Who combed your hair for you if she didn't wake up?' 'I did.' Linnet flushed. 'I can get me ready.' 'You did a pretty good job,' acknowledged Miss Peterson, ignoring the crooked part and the tangled back curls. When Linnet brought up the smudged, straggly writing paper that had again replaced her former neat and legible ones, Miss Peterson wondered why this morning, when Daddy was home, Linnet's work hadn't improved. 'You know what, teacher?' Linnet was saying. 'Last night Mother promised she wouldn't cry any more, not ever again. And she said Daddy won't ever go away again.' 'Isn't that fine?' asked Miss Peterson. 'Now you can have lots of fun together, can't you?' Linnet turned her head away. 'Daddy doesn't like me any more.' 'Oh, surely he does,' protested Miss Peterson. 'All daddies love their little girls.' Linnet looked up at her, her shadowy eyes and pale little face expressionless. 'My daddy doesn't. Mother let me take him a cup of coffee last night while she was doing the dishes. He drank it and said, 'Hell, even the coffee around here is enough to turn your stomach. Beat it, brat.' And he pushed me and I dropped the empty cup and it broke.' 'But if he isn't going away any more-' 'Mother told me that.' Linnet's eyes were full of unchildlike wisdom. 'She told me lots of time before. But she didn't hear Daddy swear.' 'Well, it'll be nice if your mother doesn't cry any more.' 'Yes,' said Linnet, 'When she cries, I cry, too.' Miss Peterson watched Linnet go back to her table and start her fun-paper. Poor cherub, she thought . . . 'Do you suppose I ought to do something about it?' she asked Miss Estes in the cafeteria. 'Do what?' asked Miss Estes. 'Call the sheriff because a father swore at his child and called her a brat?' 'You know it's more than that. An unwholesome home environment.' 'What would you do?' asked Miss Estes, nibbling her square of cheese. 'Take her away from them? In that case you'd have to take half the kids in the nation away from their parents. Nope, as long as she's fed and clothed and carries no visible scars, you can't invoke the law.' 'Maybe I could talk with her mother.' 'My, you are a neck-sticker-outer, aren't you? She'd probably spit in your eye.' 'I'm awfully uneasy-' 'It's the beans. They didn't cook them long enough today.' After the buses had gone, Miss Peterson saw a lonely little figure sitting in one of the swings. 'Oh, whirtleberries!' she thought. 'Who missed the bus this time?' 'Hi, teacher!' 'Why, Linnet! How did you ever come to miss the bus?' 'I didn't miss it. Mother told me not to come home on the bus today. She said someone would come after me.' 'Is she busy somewhere this afternoon?' Miss Peterson dropped into the swing next to Linnet, savoring the quiet of the empty playground. 'I don't know.' Linnet was opening and shutting a little blue-and-white box. 'What's that?' asked Miss Peterson. 'It's empty,' Linnet's voice defended. 'Mother wouldn't care. She lets me play with empty boxes. But not with medicine in them.' 'That's right,' said Miss Peterson. 'We never play with boxes that have medicine in them.' 'Mother got this at the drugstore yesterday. It had medicine in it then.' 'Yesterday?' Miss Peterson was surprised. 'But it's all none.' 'It was Mother's sleeping stuff.' Linnet snapped the box shut again. Miss Peterson was curious. 'Let me see it, Linnet.' She took the box and turned it over in her hand. There was only a prescription number and Take as directed on it. 'You know what, teacher? She put an awful lot of sugar in Daddy's coffee before I took it to him, and he doesn't like very much sugar. Maybe that's why he got mad last night.' 'Could be,' said Miss Peterson grimly. 'Where did you get this box, Linnet?' 'It was on Mother's dresser by her coffee cup. When I went in this morning to see if they were awake, I found it. It was empty. I took her cup back to the kitchen.' Miss Peterson sat eyeing the box for a long minute. Of course it couldn't be. Children so often exaggerate and draw mistaken conclusions. Add to that an overly imaginative teacher and you could dream up some mighty weird situations. But . . . 'Let's play something while you're waiting,' she said. 'Let's play What Comes Next. You know, like we do with the picture stories in our workbooks.' 'Okay, teacher!' Linnet's eyes lighted with pleasure. 'Now,' said Miss Peterson. 'Your mother started to wash the dishes last night. What Comes Next?' 'And I got to dry the knives and forks and spoons!' added Linnet. 'Yes. Then your mother poured your daddy's coffee. What Comes Next?' 'Oh, you missed What Comes Next!' laughed Linnet. 'Mother put a lot of the sleeping stuff in Daddy's cup. She said Daddy was getting restless. Then she poured the coffee.' 'Then you took it to your daddy?' 'Uh-uh! First I had to get Mother a hankie because she was crying. Then I took it to Daddy.' Miss Peterson massaged the goose bumps over each elbow. 'And then your daddy drank it.' Miss Peterson's voice was flat. 'What Comes Next?' Linnet swung herself to and fro without letting her feet move. 'I don't know,' she said, her face averted. You said you dropped the cup-' half-questioned Miss Peterson, sensing the withdrawal. 'Yes-yes, I dropped the cup when Daddy got mad and pushed me.' 'Yes,' said Miss Peterson, knowing Linnet was deliberately forgetting. The two sat in silence a while, then Miss Peterson took up the thread again. 'When it got dark, you got ready for bed and your mother and daddy said good night.' 'Not Daddy,' said Linnet. 'He went to bed before I did last night. He yawned and yawned and went to bed. And then I went to bed and Mother woke me up and hugged me and told me she wouldn't ever cry again and that Daddy wouldn't ever leave her again. And then-and then-' Linnet's forehead creased and her three grubby little fingers came up to cover her soft, dismayed mouth. 'Oh, teacher! You know what? She gave me a note to give to you and I wasn't even absent yesterday!' 'Where is it?' Miss Peterson felt her innards sinking into some endless nothingness. 'Did you lose it?' 'No,' cried Linnet triumphantly. 'She put it in my shoe so I wouldn't.' She pulled off the scuffled little oxford and fished inside it. Finally she came up with two grimy pieces of paper. 'Oh!' she was shocked. 'It came in two. Is it spoiled?' 'No,' said Miss Peterson, taking the two pieces and fitting the folds together. 'No, I think I'll be able to read it.' She sat in the swaying swing, watching vagrant papers rise and circle in a sudden whirlwind and then drift lazily
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