though I'd been out there trying to get it.'
'I don't remember you working too hard to avoid it,' Merrion said.
'No,' Hilliard said, his voice roughening, 'I didn't. I stopped living a monk like Sam Evans said after Mercy alleged adultery. The hell was the point of celibacy after that? Sit around and beat my meat after I've been publicly accused of getting laid three times a day? But I didn't go out and arrange the damned press coverage, which is what Emily's doing. She's deliberately staging this sideshow so it'll be in all the papers that she's a lesbian. Part of my job's enforcing college rules that say no public sexual conduct or display. And I've actually got people on my campus who say that's violation of academic freedom. So now Emily's very sweetly asking me if I wouldn't love to be a part of her little pagan feast.
'I gave it some thought. 'Which'd I rather do: what my dear daughter's offering here or jump into a live volcano?' I decided I'd prefer the volcano. This isn't a celebration she's planning; this is a counterattack. No reason to stand out in front of it. So I said: 'Uh uh, no thanks. Appreciate the call though. Lots of luck to you and Karen. Toodle-ooh.' And that's the way we left it.
'So, who did that leave with a key around here? You're looking at him.
Hot-water heater tank blew a relief valve. I got Ralph Stallings to fix it this morning, actually come out on a Saturday, but I had to be there, let him in. Then wait around while he fixed it; lock up again after he left.'
'You still got a key?' Merrion said.
'Yeah,' Hilliard said. 'I didn't realize it either, not for quite a long time. I first found out I still had it I dunno when it was, five, six years ago, same situation. Somebody was going to go there to do something, install something, I dunno, and that was the only day they could come and she'd been waiting a long time have it done. But it so happened she had to be someplace else that same day, so would I be a nice guy and do her a favor and go over there, let him in. I was kind of surprised myself. It wasn't like I minded or anything, I'm only just up the street and let's face it, I pretty much come and go as I like. So it was no big deal.
'But when she first called up and asked me, did I still have my key; I admit I was kind of surprised. I said: 'Yeah, I think I might still have it around here someplace; I don't think I threw it away. Why?'
And she told me, and I said: 'Well, geez, you know, the reason I'm not sure I've got it is I assumed it wasn't any good anymore. Isn't it sort of traditional, part of the ritual, that when the wife winds up with the house, she gets all the locks changed?'
'And she said yeah, she guessed it was, but one thing and another, she never got around to it. The kids when we split up, they were still living there. Later on, they're in college, they still had to have a place to come back to. After that Tim's first marriage came apart; he lived here until he got resettled. Emmy was sort of between jobs and up in the air for a long time, figuring out what she was. So they both would've needed new keys if Mercy'd gotten the locks changed.
''It just seemed simpler,' she said to me, 'if I left things the way they were. And it wasn't as though, you know, I was ever afraid of you. I never considered myself a prospect for one of those afternoon talk-shows: 'Women whose ex-husbands stalk them.' I never went to bed at night thinking maybe you might be looking in the windows; I never thought you'd ever want to hurt me. Not in that way, anyway.'
Hilliard smirked. 'My little Mercy, just as sweet as ever always gets her little dig in.
''And anyway,' she says, 'everybody that I know who's got a house, ex-husband or no ex-husband around, they've all got someone who doesn't live there that's got a key to it. In case someone needs to get in while they're gone, the fire department or something. Someone they can trust. Well, you're ideal far as that kind of trust's concerned anyway. You live right near me; I know if I fall down some night, break my leg or something and can't move, if I can call an ambulance I can get you up and you'll come over, let the paramedics in. And when I'm on the island, you're usually here. So I just never got around to it.'
'So anyway, that's where I was,' Hilliard said. 'Waiting for Ralph Stallings to come. And finish his work and then go. Sorry to've kept you waiting.'
'So, are we playing?' Merrion said, catching another whiff of cognac, thinking: Mercy's still stocking the bar in the study with V.S.O.P.
'I called Bolo up this morning,' Hilliard said, 'after I called your house first and I got your machine. That to me says you'd either left already to come here or were on the road to God-knows-where-else first, and then you're coming here. Or else that you got lucky last night and you haven't been home, and as soon as you two get through hiding the salami a few more times with last night's catch-of-the-day, you're coming directly here. I didn't have your car-phone. So I called Bolo and told him the situation. So when you got here and came looking for me, tell you what's going on, ask you to wait; I'm on my way. Bolo said when I got here to find him and he'd fit us in whenever we wanted.
I take it you didn't bother, see Bolo.'
'No point in it,' Merrion said. 'Your car wasn't in the lot when I got here. Obviously you're not here. I changed my clothes and come out here. Obviously also, something's going on, which so far I don't know about, but probably will when you finally get here. So I'll sit here and wait, watch Heck's baffling kid for a while. You've known me a long time, Daniel my friend. I'm the patient sort, not a guy who craves excitement. I'm more the type who likes to sit back, take his time and see how things develop. Hell, I out waited Larry Lane and Richie Hammond, both; so far that's worked out pretty well.'
Hilliard snickered. There was no happiness in it. 'Well, yeah, up 'til now it seems to've,' he said. 'Like the guy who fell off the roof forty stories up: when someone yelled from the twentieth floor he was gonna get killed, he said: 'Oh I dunno; so far now it's been all right.' I'm just not so sure how much longer.' ''How much longer' what?' Merrion said.
'How much longer things stay okay,' Hilliard said. 'I'm beginning to think time isn't always on your side. You can't always count on it being that way, time's always working for you. Stands to reason that sometimes it has to work the other way, right, in favor of somebody else. And therefore work against you.
'You shouldn't let yourself become too sure of things. They've got a way of turning on you in a flash and taking a big bite out of you.
Things don't always stay the same, the way we're used to and they've always been. At least that's what I'm starting to think. This could be a true fact; that we may be starting to find out what we've got on our hands now may not be something we're used to. And wed be a whole lot better off if we came to grips with it right off, started dealing with it. Things may now be very different. I think maybe we have to realize that.'
He paused and moistened his lips, gazing at Merrion as though expecting him to say something. Merrion frowned and shook his head. He said nothing.
Hilliard cleared his throat. 'Well, ah,' he said 'one reason I'm late … well, the reason I'm late is the reason I told you. I hadda go over Bell Woods. But I wasn't sorry, it made me be late. It gave me some time to think. I'm seeing some stuff going on that I'm not sure I like. And I'm not sure what we do about it. I wanted to think, before I saw you, about what it is that we should do about this shit.'
'Dan,' Merrion said, 'you're making me nervous here. I'm starting to get very nervous.'
'Yeah, I know what you mean,' Hilliard said, looking worried and licking his lips. 'That's what I mean, I was trying to say. I'm a little uneasy myself.'
TWELVE
'I doubt Larry Lane'd recognize the clerk's job you described to me,'
Hilliard said in the High Street office, a week deeper into the spring of '66. 'If he did, he'd never admit it. My guess is he'd tell you he's never seen one like it in Canterbury. Mere suggestion'd give him palpitations.'
'He's making trouble?' Merrion said. 'Who's he think he is, chief clerk or something?'
'I haven't talked to him directly,' Hilliard said. 'I saw Chassy Spring at the spring Hampden County Bar Association hoedown over at the old Worthy. I thought it might be a good chance to sort of sound him out about having you come in. He was not enthusiastic. He said he wouldn't stand in the way if I told him that's what I wanted, but he also said Lane hasn't given him any indication his two-man staffs overworked.'
'There's a job open, though,' Merrion said. 'Like I said: I already checked that out, long time ago. Canterbury's authorized for three, three assistant clerks, Chapter Two-eighteen, Section Ten. There's only two
