nothing more than a passenger, watching in terror as two thousand pounds of glass and steel hurtled toward his fragile, awkward frame.
But I didn’t hit him —or, at least, the Fiesta didn’t. Quick as death, the old man raised a hand, and suddenly, the car was still. Unfortunately for me, though, I wasn’t. I guess Gio was smart enough to belt his fat ass in, but I never cared much for seatbelts myself, they being a little after my time among the living. So when the car stopped dead, I shot out of the driver’s seat and plunged full-on Superman through the windshield. I heard a sickening crack —bone or glass, I wasn’t sure —and then I was soaring through the chill morning air. I hit the man, and then flew through him. Not as though he was some kind of ghost, though; more like I was an angry toddler, and he was a playmate’s stack of blocks. He just, I don’t know, fell apart around me, and next thing I knew, I was eating dirt.
I have no idea how far I must’ve slid along the ground, getting bit and clawed by rocks and twigs along the way. Felt like a fucking mile. All I know is, when I stopped, the world around had disappeared in a cloud of reddish dust, thick like fog in the sickly glow of the Fiesta’s headlights, and every molecule of my borrowed body was letting me know just how much they didn’t like this sudden turn of events. I tried to move. It didn’t take. And that’s when the fucker grabbed me.
If I’d been thinking clearly, it wouldn’t have made much sense —I mean, I felt the old man fall apart when I flew into him. And truth be told, grabbed doesn’t begin to cover what he did to me. I mean yeah, he took a fistful of suit-coat and all, but then he lifted me like I was nothing, and tossed me like a rag-doll into the desert. I heard a rib crack as I hit the ground, and my right shoulder popped like a drumstick pulled from a roast bird; the arm attached went slack and numb. I bit my cheek so hard on impact, blood poured red-black from between my lips. Before I could so much as take a breath, he was on me again, rolling me over and yanking me close. I screwed shut my eyes and prayed. I was sure that he would kill me. I only prayed he’d do it quick.
But he didn’t. Instead, he spoke, with a voice like wind through autumn leaves, a voice that seemed to come at once from everywhere and from nowhere at all.
Where is it?
At first, his words didn’t register, so disturbed was I by their timbre, their unearthly quality. And it wasn’t just his words —his whole body seemed to rustle and quake, his every movement a disquieting susurrus.
Disquieting, and familiar.
With a sinking heart, I realized where I’d heard that sound before.
In a camp full of dead men at the heart of the Amazon rainforest.
In an anonymous motel room outside of Springfield, Illinois.
I forced open my eyes, and saw the old man’s face inches from my own. But it was not a face at all, and this thing was not a man —nor was it like any demon I’d ever seen. No, this creature before me was more a vulgar sketch of a man, rendered in a teeming mass of writhing, scratching bugs. What I’d taken to be weathered skin of dusky bronze was nothing more than a living coat of roaches, their constant motion allowing the occasional glimpse of ropy muscles rendered in blood-red millipedes, which pulsed and flexed around stick-bug bones. The man-thing was clad in a tattered robe of massive, velvet-backed spiders, giant, gleaming ants, and a dozen other varieties of crawly things I’d never before seen. Its hair and scraggly beard were a wriggling mat of gray-white maggots, which occasionally tumbled with a patter onto my face and chest. And from beneath a brow of twitching locusts, the man-thing glared at me with slate-blue beetle eyes.
The creature cuffed me in the ear, shaking me from my reverie and pasting my face with a thick smear of crushed insects. Then I was struck by a fresh wave of agony, rippling outward from my suddenly swelling ear, thanks to what I could only assume was a wasp’s sting.
You shall listen when I speak, it said. You shall answer when I ask. And you would be advised to do it soon, before I tear this rotting body limb from limb. Now where is it?
“Wh-where is what?” I stammered, my panicked, addled brain not catching on to what my gut already knew. But the beast was having none of it —it pulled me closer to its repulsive visage, its hot breath like rot and death.
Don’t play coy with me, boy. You know I’m here for the Varela soul.
“You–” I said, fighting back the bile that rose in my throat as the creature’s stench invaded my sinuses, “– you’re my Deliverants?”
At that, the man-thing shuddered and hitched, a hundred-thousand insect wings fluttering as one against each other. I’d never heard so horrible a sound in my entire life. Never so horrible a sound as that abomination laughing.
I’m afraid, Samuel, that on that point you are quite mistaken. These creatures —these shepherds —are but humble servants, lending form to that which in this realm is formless. Just as that decaying sack of meat you’re wearing lends you form.
“No,” I said, revolted at the very thought. “You and I are nothing alike.”
You dare balk at that? You who have for so long been granted asylum in my realm? How dare you speak to me this way?
As the creature seethed with fury, a kernel of a plan began to take root in my mind. Not a good plan, mind you, but then, I wasn’t in a position to be picky.
“I’ll speak to you any goddamn way I please,” I spat, every syllable sagging under the weight of my contempt. I’ll grant you, on the face of it, goading this thing didn’t seem like the best idea ever. But the way I figured it, this fucker was gonna kill me either way. Either I could stick around and get tortured until it figured out I didn’t have what it was looking for, or I could piss it off, and maybe make it kill me quick. Sure, it’d hurt like hell, but once this vessel was dead, I’d be reseeded somewhere else. Where, I didn’t know, but the way I saw it, anywhere was better than here.
You think your God has any power to damn me? Me, who reigned while he was but a babe in his crib, and this cesspool you call existence was but a glimmer in his eye? Your God is nothing more than a seditionist —a pretender to the throne. For eons before him I ruled, and my dominion was Chaos —the Great Nothing from which this filthy rock you call a home emerged.
“You expect me to believe that shit? Man, every demon worth a damn likes to spin himself a yarn about how he’s the biggest, baddest creature in the land, and ain’t a one of ’em is telling the truth. Now, the bug thing’s neat and all, but why don’t we cut the crap. You’re no more an Old God than I am —you’re nothing but a scavenger. So save your parlor tricks for someone who gives a shit.”
I steeled myself for my inevitable eviction from this meat-suit, but the death blow never came. Instead, the creature laughed that horrible, rasping laugh. The sound set my skin crawling, and made this meat-suit’s fillings ache.
Nothing but a scavenger, it said, shaking its nightmare head as it did. I suppose I am, at that. And for that, I have your precious God to thank —he and that Fallen brat of his. Those two bickering little snots carved up my glorious empire of Nothing, taking what they wanted and leaving me only the narrow border of the In-Between to claim for my own. And angry though I was to be left with their table-scraps, for a time, it was enough. After all, the living had the good sense to honor me, to pay a tithe in return for safe passage through my realm. Never before had there been subjects in my domain, and I admit that I was flattered. But now the old ways have been forgotten, and with them, so too have I been. Now, such forgetfulness may be unavoidable in the living, but I assure you, I’ve no intention of allowing another of your kind to forget. No, over you, I have dominion, and as such, I demand your fealty. So I suggest you tell me where the Varela soul is before I’m forced to lose my patience.
“I don’t have it,” I said.
Lies!
The creature roared, and once more tossed me into the air. I slammed into the ground a good thirty feet from where I started, and for a moment, everything went white. The man-thing leapt after me, covering the distance in one insectile bound. Then it grabbed me by the lapel and slapped me hard across the face. I felt the swell and burn of another fresh sting, but this time, it was just another white-hot point of light in my constellation of suffering.
