This was the smallest and heaviest. It opened without protest and Nicholas felt his stomach tighten. More books: herbs and magic. Druidism. Voodoo. The Apocrypha. Despite Suzette telling him the books were here, he was amazed to hold them in his hands. How could his mother, his pragmatic, no-nonsense mother, ever have cohabited with a man who read books like this? But of course, she didn’t. Not for long. Their marriage had lasted just four years.
Nicholas stacked the books to one side as he pulled them out. What was he looking for? Would he have to go through all these dreary volumes one at a time?
There were three books left. He lifted aside
Nicholas felt the pulse in his neck beat stronger. He flipped open the book.
The contents were broken into three chapters: the first twenty-five years, then 1914 to 1939, 1940 to 1964. Within the chapters were sprinkled black and white photographs of principals, of buildings being erected, of a governor’s visit, and, of course, year photos of students, seated in four rows of eight or so, their teachers smiling cheerfully or wearily or dutifully from their midst.
Was his father’s photo in here? Nicholas flipped through to the end of the book. As he did, a page slipped out and slid like a feather to the dark earth. He picked it up. No, not a page. It was a newspaper clipping, yellow and crisp: a truncated advertisement for Hotpoint clothes dryers. He turned the clipping over. As he read the headline of the small article, he felt his face go cold.
‘Boy Missing — Police Seek Information’.
It took half a minute to read the article. A twelve-year-old boy named Owen Liddy had left his Pelion Street home on a Saturday morning; he was to catch a train into Central Station and visit a model aeroplane exhibition at the City Hall. His mother became worried when he hadn’t returned by four. People attending the exhibition were interviewed; none recalled seeing a boy fitting Liddy’s description. Police were inviting any information from the public.
Nicholas re-read the article. Then he noticed the last page of the Tallong schoolbook was dog-eared. He picked it up and opened to the marked page.
It showed a photograph of the 1964 year seven students. A grinning girl in pigtails held a pinboard with the class name: 7C. But it was the face of a short, smiling boy third along in the second to back row that Nicholas stared at. The face was circled in dark lead pencil. He slid his eyes down to read the caption below the photograph: ‘Left to right: Peter Krause, Rebecca Lowell, Owen Liddy. .’
Nicholas stared at the clipping for a long moment. What did it mean? Had his father known the boy? Unlikely — Donald Close would have been in his late teens in 1964. A friend’s brother? Possibly. Had the boy turned up safe and well? Nicholas thought it unlikely; besides, why would his father have kept the clipping? There was only one answer.
A boy went missing, and Donald Close thought it was odd enough a disappearance that he kept the article. Kept it for nearly ten years, until he himself had disappeared from his family’s life and broken himself in two when his sliding car was sliced open by a poorly marked concrete road divider.
He folded the clipping and slipped it into his pocket. Outside, the morning had gone grey and the air in the garage was cold.
He hurriedly put the suitcases back on the overhead planks, eager to be out of this room that was as uncomfortably quiet as a grave.
Nicholas let himself back in the house. The hall was quiet, and the air was freezing.
‘Suzette?’
He rapped on her bedroom door, opened it. Her bed was made, her suitcase open on a chair under the window. From underneath the house came a low thrumming. His mother’s pottery wheel: the electric hum of industry.
Halfway back down the hall, the walls took on a heavy tilt and Nicholas lurched. As he steadied himself, two large drops of sweat fell on the timber floor. He was feverish.
He fetched a change of clothes and went to the bathroom. In the bottom drawer of the vanity he found a half-empty box of Disprin and popped four in his mouth and felt them fizz on his tongue. Then he stripped off and turned on the shower.
As he showered, he chewed and took a half-mouthful of water, swallowing the bitter soup. His eyes slid down to his right foot and the scar: a faint line of pale skin where his sixth toe had been removed.
From his first job out of college — dish pig at the Kookaburra Grill — he’d saved every spare cent towards the elective surgery, and a lucky commission to design a logo for a new chain of wheel alignment garages topped his war chest to the required three thousand dollars. He booked himself in for the day op, had the offending appendage removed, spent a week recovering, then went out to the Lord Regent Hotel to find a girl to lose his virginity to, choosing the soon-to-be-unsatisfied Pauline McCleary. But every time he’d showered or bathed in the seventeen years since, his eyes had been drawn to his right foot, just to confirm that the horrid deformity hadn’t grown slyly back.
As he looked at the jagged white line, into his mind sprang the image of pale scars in dark wood: the marking scratched with a blade into the stock of Gavin’s rifle. Why had he hidden it from Suzette? And why hadn’t he told her that same mark on the health food store door had been the very one on the dumb, round woven head of the dead bird? Something had stopped him. Now, under the steaming water with the aspirin starting to work, he realised why.
Nicholas turned off the taps.
Now he had a piece of new information that he’d exhumed from his father’s musty suitcases in the garage. He’d come into the house ready to tell Suzette about the child who went missing in 1964, but now he was glad she was out.
As he dried himself, his head began to throb again. Missing children. Dead children. Confessing murderers. Dead murderers. A strange mark. A strange message.
By the time he’d dressed, Nicholas had a plan.
He would find out when Gavin Boye was to be buried.
Suzette waved down a young waiter with a very nice bum and ordered a third long black with hot skim milk on the side.
A notepad with a page full of newly written notes was open in front of her, and a small pile of stapled cost projection reports, their margins crammed with her comments, all of which were now lined through. With one hand she flipped icons on the laptop screen, shrinking her address book, restoring her mailbox, opening an accounts summary spreadsheet, highlighting days in her diary. In her other hand was her mobile phone; on the other end was Ola, her PA, a blocky and unattractive girl with a voice that was as lovely as her face was not. It was Ola’s good phone manner and skill at mail merging that got her the job.
Suzette was pleased. In the last hour and a half she’d concluded most of a day’s business, and with the strong coffees removed most traces of her mother’s awful porridge from her tongue. She asked Ola to send out a tender to a few architect firms, and confirmed she’d be back in Sydney in a day or two. Then she rang home. Bryan answered.
‘Hello?’
‘Hello yourself. What happened to “Hello beautiful wife, I miss you and can’t bear another hour without you”?’
