“I did not. To be honest, I think I already know. You may roam this city day and night, exposing yourself to every sort of wickedness, but men of the Church do not.” He took a breath, straightened. “I’m telling you to leave him alone. I don’t want him having anything to do with you.”
“I’ve already told you that I have no control over Mister Pell. I’ve done nothing to corrupt him or put him in danger, and I never would.”
“And his whereabouts last night?”
“You’ll have to ask Pell.”
Caner said nothing. After a moment, Ethan said, “Good night, Mister Caner,” and turned to go.
“What were you doing at my chapel?” the minister asked.
Ethan faced the man once more, and sighed. “I heard a rumor that Jennifer Berson had been buried. I was hoping I would find it wasn’t true.”
Caner’s brow furrowed. “Why?”
“Because now I can’t prove that she was killed by a conjuring, and the wrong man is going to be blamed for her murder.”
The rector raised a hand to his mouth. “He’s to be hanged?”
Ethan shook his head. “He’s dead already.”
Caner’s forehead wrinkled again with puzzlement, but Ethan didn’t bother to explain. He turned and hobbled away, leaving the minister to ponder what he had said.
This late in the evening, the streets of Boston were largely deserted. Ethan did cross paths with a man of the watch who called out the time and eyed Ethan warily as he walked past. But other than this fellow, and a few men far gone with drink, he saw no one.
When at last he entered the Dowser, he found it practically empty. Diver sat alone in the far corner, a cup of ale resting on the table in front of him. His nose was swollen and discolored, and his eyes were ringed with dark purple bruises. Seeing Ethan, he stood so quickly that he toppled his chair.
“Thank goodness!” Ethan heard from the bar.
Kannice stepped out into the great room, crossed to where he stood, and put her arms around him.
“I’ve been worried sick,” she said.
“I’m fine,” he told her, breathing in the scent of her hair. “They took me to see Hutchinson.”
“Hutchinson?” Diver said, sounding impressed. “What did he want with you?”
“He wanted to make sure I knew that the same people who wrecked his house would have been capable of killing Jennifer Berson.”
“Surely you haven’t been with him all this time,” Kannice said.
“No. After I left the Town House, I had another encounter with Sephira’s men.”
Diver walked toward them, looking from Ethan to Kannice. “And what did they want?”
“Sephira would like me to finish my inquiry and leave matters as they are,” Ethan said. “Aside from that though, it was mostly the usual bluster.” He should have told Diver about Folter, but he didn’t want to speak of the matter in the middle of the tavern. “I would have come back here after speaking to Hutchinson, but her men chased me into the North End. And then Holin found me.”
“Holin?” Kannice asked, her tone hardening a bit. “Marielle’s boy?”
“I saw him home, and then kept an appointment with an illusion.” He held her gaze, until finally he coaxed a reluctant smile. “If you feed me, I’ll tell you all about it.”
“I’m sure you will.” But she was still smiling.
She went into the kitchen and reemerged a moment later with a bowl of dark stew that smelled of venison and red wine. She had bread for him as well.
He took the bowl from her, and after Kannice filled a tankard of ale for him, the three of them walked back to Diver’s table. Ethan began to eat, and in between mouthfuls he told them about Anna and the brooch. He also told them of the other killing he had learned about from Pell. And finally, he told them about Daniel.
“Daniel was no conjurer,” Diver said grimly, when Ethan had finally finished his tale. “He wasn’t the smartest of men, and I wouldn’t have lent him tuppence, but he wasn’t a murderer, either.”
Ethan sipped from his second ale. “I know. I won’t allow him to be blamed for Jennifer’s murder.”
Diver stared back at him, his face a mess, his dark eyes demanding more.
“You have my word, Diver. I won’t allow it.”
His friend nodded at last, stood, and drained his ale. “I’ll be going then,” he said. “I’m glad you’re all right, Ethan. I was worried about you.” He chanced a look at Kannice. “Both of us were.” And with that, he left.
Kannice and Ethan said nothing. Eventually Kannice took one of Ethan’s hands in hers, but she just watched him, her eyes shining with the light of a dozen candles.
“I didn’t intend to go to Marielle’s home,” Ethan finally said. “But with children being murdered in the streets, I wasn’t about to let Holin walk home alone.”
Kannice dropped her gaze to their hands, a sad smile on her face.
“You don’t believe me.”
“I believe you didn’t intend to go there. But I also think that you’ll find any excuse to see her.”
She looked up at him once more, still smiling, as if she wished to soften what she had said.
“I don’t love her,” Ethan said. “I did once, but I don’t anymore.”
“Do you love me?”
The question hung between them. Ethan started to answer, then stopped himself. He wanted to tell her that he did. He knew that he cared about her more than he did anyone else in the world, and he wanted to tell her that. But it wasn’t what she had asked.
The truth was Ethan didn’t know if he could love anyone anymore. He had loved once and that love had been ripped from him, along with his freedom and his pride and his ambition. His heart had been lashed day after day, month after month, for more years than he cared to count. The scars remained; they had grown hard, like calluses on a worker’s palm. He didn’t think they would ever soften.
“What I feel for Marielle is similar to what I feel for my father,” Ethan said.
Kannice raised an eyebrow.
“That sounded stranger coming out of my mouth than it did in my head,” he told her, grinning briefly. “I have something to prove to her. I want her to see that I’m more than the young fool who got himself transported to the Indies. Just as I would want my father to see that if he was still alive.”
Kannice shrugged. After a moment she nodded. “I can understand that. But I find it hard to believe that’s all you feel when you’re with her.”
“You’re right. I feel regret, and loss. Maybe I see the life that I might have led had things been different. But I don’t care for her the way I care for you. I don’t want to be with her.”
“Well, that’s the stew talking. And maybe the ale as well.”
Ethan shook his head. “No,” he said earnestly. “It’s me.”
She squeezed his hand gently, but said nothing.
Seeing the sadness that lingered in her eyes, Ethan cursed himself for not being able to say what she wanted to hear, for his inability to stay away from Elli and the children, even for his refusal to lie to Kannice by telling her that he did love her. At that moment he would have done just about anything to drive that pained look from her lovely face. But he knew her well enough to understand that the best thing he could do was tell her the truth and let her decide what she wanted.
“It’s getting late,” he said. “I should probably go.”
“Probably.” She still held his hand, and now she met his gaze. “You have too many people angry with you, Ethan. Sephira, this conjurer. Hutchinson will be angry if you don’t do what he expects of you. Don’t do anything stupid.”
“You mean like take on a job for Abner Berson?”
Kannice didn’t smile. “Just watch yourself. And don’t be shy about showing your face here and letting me see that you’re still alive.”
He lifted her hand to his lips. “All right.”
A short time later, Ethan left the tavern. The moon had vanished behind a bank of clouds and the wind off the harbor had freshened. Dressed only in his breeches, shirt, and waistcoat, he hunched his shoulders against the chill. He kept his hands thrust in the pockets of his breeches, one fist wrapped around Jennifer Berson’s brooch.
