be missing. However, I’m sure that by checking with the trustee and/or with the grantor should s/he be available, this matter can be sorted out with very little difficulty. Once we have been informed of the correct account name, it will be easy to come up with the account numbers.
Please let me know if I can be of any further service in this regard.
Lana Franklin
Vice President
Customer Relations
First United Financial
Fargo, ND.
A bank in Phoenix, Ali thought in triumph. Yes!
It wasn’t what she had thought originally because now she was convinced Reenie hadn’t gone there in search of money for treatment in Mexico. Instead it had something to do with her children’s lost trust accounts. It could be as insubstantial as those old-fashioned Christmas Club things that you put money into each month so you’d have enough saved up to spend when next year’s Christmas came around. The e-mail made it sound like the missing accounts amounted to more than that, but that could be a simple corporate hyperbole.
Regardless of why Reenie had gone to the bank, however, Ali had picked up her trail after everyone else had lost it. No one seemed to have any idea about her movements or actions between the time she left Dr. Mason’s office and the time she went off the cliff.
Reenie Googled the bank information and copied it into her Reenie file. The bank office was on Northern, near I-17.
I’ll give Andrew Cargill a call in the morning. She thought about that for a minute. No, she decided, I think I’ll go see him in person.
She went to bed then and, for a change, slept soundly. Now that she no longer had to be up bright and early for her shift at the Sugarloaf, she was, of course, wide awake well before sunrise and aching all over. The stitches in her back and leg precluded soaking in the tub, so she settled for a quick shower and went back to the computer.
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005
My life is in limbo at the moment. Legal proceedings are moving forward in two separate states. Until those cases are concluded, it’s difficult to see into the future and decide where I’m going.
The job I thought I’d do for my whole life is no longer my job. I’ve left the home I’ve lived in for the past several years. I thought my parents needed my help with their restaurant, but it turns out they seem to be able to get along fine without me. For twenty-two years I’ve been a mother, but my son is grown now and ready to be on his own, so I’ve worked myself out of that job as well.
It would be easy to sit around and worry about all those things, but I’m not going to. The best way to banish worry is to do something, specifically the job that comes most readily to hand.
My friend Reenie was buried last Friday. As far as I know, her death has been termed a suicide. Maybe it is- and maybe it isn’t. But that’s the job I’m assigning myself to do right now-to find out for sure-to ascertain, to my own satisfaction, whether Reenie Bernard did or did not kill herself and, if she did, why. We’re not talking about legalities here. I’m not an attorney or a police officer. I don’t have any vested interest in probable causes or chains of evidence. I want answers that carry weight in my heart rather than in a court of law.
In the past, I’m sure I would have accepted the “official” answer as the “real” answer, but circumstances change, and so have I.
And since all of you have been walking along the Reenie road with me, I’ll keep you posted as well.
Posted 5:23 A.M. by Babe
Lucille had responded:
Dear Babe,
You can post my letter. I haven’t looked for my son. I don’t have the money, and I’m afraid of what I’d find. Maybe he’s dead. Or like his father.
Lucille
Ali posted Lucille’s first note, then she started to read the new stuff. The first one was from Andrea Rogers.
Dear Ali
Glad to know you’re feeling better. Thank God! That maniac could have killed you.
I’ll go to Goodwill first thing this morning, before I even go to the office. I know some of the people down there. When I tell them what’s happened, I’m sure they’ll do whatever they can to help. Some of Reenie’s stuff is probably gone-some but not all. I’ll do what I can.
Andrea
The next e-mail was a stunner.
Dear Mrs. Reynolds,
A friend of mine told me I could write to you here.
My husband was abusive. He use to beat me in front of the kids, but I stayed with him. Because of the kids. He finally got sick and died, praise the Lord!
But now my son is dead, too, and I keep wondering how much of it is my fault. I forgive you if you forgive me.
Sincerely,
Myra Witherspoon
Closing her computer, Ali went to get dressed.
Chapter 19
Myra Witherspoon’s note stayed with Ali as she dressed and tried to make herself presentable. For both Lucille and for Myra, domestic violence had been a communicable disease, spreading its poison through their families from one generation to the next. And maybe even to the generation after that. Both of them had lost their sons. But obviously, both women had somehow plumbed the depths of their own heartbreak and found a measure of forgiveness for others. Otherwise they wouldn’t have written.
It was humbling to realize that Myra was willing to forgive the person who had pulled the trigger and ended her son’s violent existence.
If our situations were reversed, Ali wondered, could I do the same?
She rummaged through her closet until she found a long-sleeved turtle neck she had left in Sedona over Christmas. That covered the bruises on her arms if not the ones on the backs of her hands, and a pair of jeans did the same for the stitches from the cut on her leg and the scrapes on her knees from where she had scrambled away from her attacker in the gravel driveway. Her face was another matter entirely.
Working in front of the bathroom mirror, Ali soon discovered what many other women had learned before her-makeup can’t do everything. No amount of Estee Lauder concealer camouflaged the ugly greenish yellow tinge of the bruise that spread from her cheekbone to the base of her neck. Eye-shadow only emphasized the cut near the corner of her puffy eye. Lipstick did the same for her cut and badly swollen upper lip.
Chris called as she was examining the final results in the mirror. “How are you feeling?” he asked.
“Medium,” she told him.
“Maybe I should come back over this weekend,” he offered. “My last final is over at noon on Friday.
“That’s not necessary, Chris. Really. I’m fine. I’ve got more food here than I’ll ever manage to eat. All I’m doing is hanging around with Sam and taking it easy.”
“I just read this morning’s post,” Chris countered. “That didn’t sound like you’d be taking it easy.”
