off. I kept a round table, a few chairs and a cot out there so I could eat and sleep and entertain a select guest list. People like Jackie Swaitkowski and Joe Sullivan. Maybe an occasional Jehovah’s Witness or a neighborhood dog Eddied bring home to share water and biscuits. A little hospitality to prove to God I wasn’t completely disillusioned with His creations.
The cottage was never the center of Oak Point social life. At least not when my father was around. People shied away, and my mother tucked herself into a corner of the living room with her knitting when she wasn’t waging a losing war on the sand and salty damp air that clung to the walls and soaked through cereal boxes and bed linens. My father wasn’t much with people, especially the ones who lived in the house he built. He ran almost entirely on momentum and the acid gas of a nearly uncontrollable fury. I never knew why he was the way he was. I never thought about it until he was gone. I do know how he died. Beaten to death in the smelly men’s room at the back of a dusky, threadbare bar in the Bronx. It was down the street from his weekday apartment. They never learned who did it. They never really tried. There were no witnesses, even though a half-dozen barflies and the bartender were there at the time. The police figured it was a pair of junior-grade wise guys passing through the neighborhood under their customary cloak of invincibility. They assumed it was provoked. They knew my father.
While I was growing up he spent most of his time in the City working on cars and oil burners while my mother, sister and I were in Southampton at the cottage on Oak Point. In those days the peninsula was a working class neighborhood, on the whole, made up of guys from the Bronx like my father and local service people and unheated, do-it-yourself summer retreats. But it was wooded and filled with East End light, and under the beneficence of the Little Peconic Bay, and, most of the time, free of my father’s corrosive wrath.
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After making and breaking my share of good and bad habits over the years, I decided to stick with those already established, for better or worse. One of them was running along the sandy roads that thread their way along the bay coast and connect several North Sea neighborhoods. The day after Sullivan came to see me, Eddie and I were up early and moving west at a brisk pace. In the summer this was only possible in the morning. Later on the heat was too much. At least for a fifty-three-year-old guy with a full set of bad habits to counterbalance the benefits of regular exercise. Eddie might’ve stood it, but not happily.
An atomized mist had been sprayed around the scrub pines and oaks. A smooth cloud cover hung above the tree-tops. The sun had a few hours to burn it all off. Enough time for me to make it all the way to the Hawk Pond Marina where my friend Paul Hodges lived on his boat. My T-shirt was already getting soaked and I had to occasionally wipe off the sweat that slipped through my terry cloth headband. The chirping bugs from the wetlands were quiet now, having exhausted themselves during the night, but their diurnal relatives were up and about, buzzing around the forest and sticking themselves to my arms and legs. Eddie stopped a few times to pick a critter or two out of his fur. We shared some water from a bottle Velcroed to my waist and soldiered on.
“You burning some of that for me?” I asked Hodges as we approached down a slender swayback dock.
“I knew the smell of food would turn you up,” he said, standing in a cloud of smoke coming from the rusty Weber grill he’d set up on the dock next to a short mahogany gangplank. Some of the smoke was caught under the market umbrella that shaded a white plastic table and two canvas director chairs. Hodges was somewhere in his mid-sixties, big around the middle and heavy shouldered, with short, gnarly legs. His arms were formed out of thick bunches of twisted cable. He’d seen forty years of fishing boats and construction crews, which had turned his skin into the working side of a catcher’s mitt. Under the best of circumstances you wouldn’t have called Hodges a good- looking man. He looked more like a superannuated frog. The gray-white hair that burst out in lunatic clumps from his head and chin didn’t help.
Hodges had a pair of Shih Tzus he’d inherited from his wife. They treated Eddie like he was some sort of rock star, skittering up to him, all sharp-edged noise and wiggling fur. Eddie was magnanimous.
“Canadian bacon on the grill. Scrambled-up shit in the skillet. Season to taste. Want a beer with that?”
“Coffee’s fine.”
“Not if you’re drinking mine.”
He dumped our breakfast out on paper plates and went below for beverages and sesame seed bagels. The swan couple who freeloaded around the marina glided up to the side of the boat, hoping to get in on the action, which provoked Eddie and the Shih Tzus to go berserk. The swans floated away, deciding it wasn’t worth the trouble.
“And don’t come back,” Hodges called to them as he came through the companionway.
“I thought you were a bird lover.”
“In the sky or on the grill, exclusively.”
We ate and drank coffee under the big umbrella and watched the colorless sky turn blue overhead.
Hodges ran a bar and grill out of a dilapidated boathouse on the grounds of a commercial marina up in Sag Harbor. Most of the trade were professional fishermen or men and women who crewed on the charter boats during the season. The place was called the Pequot and it had a rickety deck out back where Hodges and his daughter Dotty, who helped him run the restaurant, ate most of their meals. At least until one afternoon when the deck collapsed while Hodges was finishing off a plate of the house special—baked, stuffed whitefish of unknown origin.
“How’s the rib cage?” I asked him.
“Almost healed. Give’s new meaning to breathing easier.”
“And the neck?”
“Good as it’s gonna get.”
“Can still make breakfast.”
“They want me to do more rehabilitation.”
“Some people are beyond that.”
“That’s what I tell em. How’s your butt?”
“My back. It was my back.”
“We’re a pair of sorry chewed-up fuckers, aren’t we. More eggs?”
I was still hot, but the breeze coming off the bay had started cooling me down. Hodges’s cuisine was sitting surprisingly well in my belly. All of which was eroding the desire to run back home. Hodges sat back in his chair with his coffee and looked at me intently. Something he rarely did.
“What?”
“I saw a friend of yours in Town yesterday. Jackie What’s-her-name.”
“Swaitkowski,” I told him.
“Looked like crap.”
“I know.”
“She said you’d been around.”
“I saw her before she went in for another round of surgery.”
“She’s not telling you,” said Hodges.
“Telling me what?”
“She’s not doing too good, but she won’t tell you.”
Jackie’s moods had always flown around the room like a drunken sparrow. But since all this she had trouble getting anything off the ground.
“I can’t do anything about that,” I told him.
Hodges grunted and looked up at the sky. The sun had done its work on the low clouds. The bay water reflected the color of the sky and the languid disposition of a midsummer’s day.
“Ross Semple’s got the Southampton cops working on the case,” I told him.
“Joe Sullivan to the rescue.”
“I guess. It’s sort of out of his league.”
“At least he’ll work the crap out of it,” said Hodges.
“He wants me to talk to the guy’s wife. The guy who got blown up.”
Hodges seemed to like that.
“Excellent. Get the old team back in action.”
“Sullivan and I are not a team. Not remotely.”
Hodges scraped a few spoonfuls of some indeterminate fried stuff up against the side of the pan and hovered over my plate.
