Odd Apocalypse

wove among one another, describing lazy eights in the air, they still seemed to occupy some of the same places at the same times without catastrophe, but now an open path lay between me and the egg.

Trusting that those golden jawbones would not abruptly snap me in two, I moved toward the passenger capsule without fear or shadow. When I was within a few feet of the egg, its rotation slowed, slowed, stopped. The capsule seemed to float unsupported in the air, a foot off the floor, the top of it about two feet above my head.

A five-foot-high segment of the egg swung upward, an access hatch invisibly hinged at the top. Within the capsule waited two leather cockpit chairs with a console between them.

When I stepped inside, turned, and sat in one of the chairs, the hatch closed, presenting me with what appeared to be a simple control panel.

At the top of the panel, a fourteen-window clock presented the current year in the first four windows; the month, day, hour, minute, and second were displayed in two windows each. Black numbers, painted on drums, rolled down like cherries and lemons in an old low-tech slot machine. As far as I could tell, the time was precisely correct.

Under the first clock, a second remained blank. Fourteen knobs, one below each window, allowed me to turn the drums until I dialed up the desired date to which I wanted to travel.

The other controls consisted of just five labeled push keys as big as those on a toy for little children. The first, on the left, advised LOCK DATE.

Beside that one was a key marked TRAVEL ONLY. Below it, a third key offered PARK. Between those two keys, painted on the console, was the word OR. I assumed that if the Roselanders wanted to take forty years off their appearance, they punched TRAVEL ONLY. If they wanted to get out of the capsule in spite of the risks known and unknown, they punched PARK instead of the key above it.

Aligned with the first two keys was another labeled LAUNCH. Beside that one, the fifth and final key promised RETURN.

Time travel for dummies.

While wandering around the chronosphere before approaching the egg, I had taken the Gypsy Mummy fortune-teller’s card from my wallet without realizing what I was doing. I stared at it in my hand: YOU ARE DESTINED TO BE TOGETHER FOREVER.

If I went back in time to the day before the act of terrorism that took her life, I could park the capsule, slip quietly out of the Roseland of that period — where I was not yet known — and make my way to Pico Mundo.

I could warn Stormy that she was going to be shot dead the following day. Although my story would have fantastic elements, she would believe me for two reasons: First, she knew well that my life has always been riddled with the bizarre and the absurd, and she’d been involved in many such moments with me; second, we never lied to each other, and we never doubted each other.

YOU ARE DESTINED TO BE TOGETHER FOREVER.

But because nothing I could do in the past would change the present from which I traveled, I would return to a world in which Stormy remained dead. Yet the Stormy I brought with me would be her, not some kind of clone or soulless automaton, but Stormy Llewellyn complete. Like Timothy, she would be a living paradox.

I would be able to hear her voice again, her laughter. Her hand in mine once more. Her lovely, loving eyes. Her face, such a face. Her kiss.

She would never age. But if I found a way to take Roseland for my own, I would have this machine, and therefore I would never age, either. We could fulfill the destiny that Gypsy Mummy had promised us. We could live here together forever.

The pain of my injuries was unrelenting, and I found myself in tears again, though not because of that pain. They might even have been tears of joy.

My psychic magnetism might not have brought me to the master switch I sought, but it had brought me to what I wanted, what I so needed, to what my heart demanded.

I entered my destination date in the second clock. I pressed LOCK DATE.

I made my selection between TRAVEL ONLY and PARK.

I hesitated, considering the risks, which were incalculable, and the implications, which were many and some devastating. I considered how much I might come to regret my choice, and I urgently reminded myself that people should never be treated like toys. I warned myself that the human heart is a great deceiver, deceitful above all things. Still I wept.

And then I pushed LAUNCH.

If the capsule began to rotate at high speed again, I had no awareness of spinning. I had no sensation either of moving up or down, or side to side, or back and forth. I did feel some motion but one I had never experienced before: a turning inward, as if I were a slack watch spring being wound tight again. That isn’t an accurate description of the feeling, although it’s the only one I am capable of giving.

During this, as I moved backward in time, my pain relented. I could feel my ribs knit again and the blood recede from my mouth. My tongue found all my teeth where they belonged, and the swelling in my face quickly declined until my eye was no longer pinched to a slit.

I knew instantly when the capsule slipped sideways, out of time. My heart no longer beat, and I drew no air into my lungs. Neither the ebb and flow of breath nor the rush of blood was required to sustain life in this timeless realm.

I wished the capsule had windows, that I might see what lay around me, but no sooner had this thought occurred to me than I realized how wrong and dangerous it was. Whatever might lie outside of time, it would astonish and amaze. It would inspire a sense of wonder beyond conception. But the awe aroused by the sight might be of an intensity so exhilarating and so terrifying, so profound, that no living person was ever meant to see it — or could remain sane and go on living after having seen it.

The shift back into time set my heart beating again, and once more the bellows of my lungs labored automatically.

I hadn’t needed to press the RETURN button to come back to the present, because I had never pressed PARK. I had not gone back to a time when Stormy Llewellyn was still alive, but only back one day, not to grow that much younger, but to reverse the damage that Constantine Cloyce had inflicted on me, just as the Roselanders had used the machine to reverse the aging process.

Stormy believed that this life is boot camp, preparing us for a life of service and great adventure that comes between this world and our third and final one, which some call Heaven. Although she was Catholic, her theology was certainly not orthodox. But if she might indeed be engaged now in some grand exploit, my love for her, even as deep and enduring as it was, did not give me the right to disturb the time line of her life and thereby possibly diminish, in ways I could not fathom, the joy she might take from that adventure in which she currently found herself.

When it seemed that the egg had come to a rest, out of curiosity I attempted to set the destination calendar to a future year. But as I expected, it wouldn’t allow me to do so.

Because we have free will, our tomorrows are never determined until we make them day by day. I couldn’t travel into the future because one didn’t exist, only many possible ones. The past is as locked in stone as a Jurassic fossil, but by our daily actions, we continuously change the future.

As the hatch lifted, before I could get up, I was startled by the appearance of someone in the seat beside me. Tesla. His hawkish face, his proud nose, his eyes as penetrating as radiation.

“Sir,” I said, in such awe of him that no other words occurred to me.

“A great and terrible mistake, all of this,” he declared, and then he went into a rant, though a solemn and dignified one. “But J. P. Morgan, Westinghouse, all the financiers, they underfund your research, nevertheless make fortunes from it, then penny-pinch the budget on your next project! There are no visionaries among them!”

“Sir,” I said.

In the high room, past the swooping arms of the inner gimbal mounting, Annamaria appeared with Timothy.

“No visionaries whatsoever! They seek nothing more than profit, not knowledge, not wonder, not the secrets of God! Cloyce and Chiang presented themselves as visionaries, and they had all the money in the world. But they were thugs, liars, mental midgets!”