possibility.”
I stayed where I was at first, caught in that awkward half lean, and then I pulled back and raised my eyebrows.
“I’m sorry?”
“It wouldn’t work, you know? We’d be at each other’s throats. We are half the time anyhow, and that’s in a friendship. Too many similarities. We’ve made the right decision, or maybe you made it for both of us, and I just need to do a better job of being grateful for that. I apologize. Good friends are hard to find, and painful to lose, Lincoln. I don’t want that to happen here.”
I hadn’t actually made the move to kiss her, but I felt like I had, and now I was struggling to connect with the sudden turn in the conversation.
“You have nothing to apologize for,” I fumbled.
“I let some emotions get away from me the other day, that’s all. The questions I asked you, like how many successful relationships I’ve managed since I met you, those should have been questions I directed at myself.”
“Actually, I was thinking—”
“
“What?”
“I was supposed to meet a friend for coffee twenty minutes ago. I didn’t realize how long I’d been here. I just wanted to drop off that article and apologize, that’s all.”
She was on her feet, gathering her purse.
“Let’s not cut off this conversation here and forget about it,” I said.
She gave me a hurried nod as I followed her to the door. “Sure, we’ll come back to it, but I really do have to run out of here. Sorry, Lincoln. I’ll talk to you soon.”
“I hope so,” I told the door as it swung shut.
A minute later, I went down to the parking lot as if to catch her, even though I’d heard her drive away. The lot was empty, none of the night owls hitting the gym tonight. I stood with my hands in my pockets, braced against the October wind, and stared at nothing for a while. It was cold, but I didn’t want to go back upstairs. I closed the door and locked it, then walked around the corner of the building and started west down Lorain.
I’d known Amy for a year and a half, spending more and more time with her with each passing month, and I’d never instigated anything beyond friendship. Then, the night she explains that she’s accepted that as a permanent —and appropriate—situation, I’m ready to make a move. Perfect. I’m a master of timing.
I hung a left on Rocky River, went down to Chatfield, and then walked east, taking as close to a circular route as you can get in a city where everything’s laid out in rectangles. A car swung in beside me and parked at the curb in front of a house with a giant inflatable witch on a broomstick, her face glowing a bright electric green under the pointed black hat. Halloween was one week away. I was headed for Joe’s house, but unintentionally. He’d probably still be up, watching whatever old game was being aired on ESPN Classic tonight, but I didn’t know if I really wanted to drop in on him and hit him with this news. Maybe because I didn’t want to bother him so late, and maybe because as the weeks stacked up he was starting to feel less like my partner and more like a guy I used to work with.
Several other houses along Chatfield were decked out in the holiday spirit, grinning jack-’o-lanterns in the windows and gleaming skeletons hanging from the trees. All holidays are bizarre when you think about where they started and what they became, but Halloween may be the strangest.
My breath fogged out in front of me as I walked, moving quickly, my hands still in my pockets, keeping my arms pressed against my sides for warmth. My wet hair soaked in the chill, made me shiver a bit. Just begging to catch a cold. Maybe that wouldn’t be the worst thing, though. I’d have to stay home, stay in bed, stay out of the world and all of the twists it could throw at you.
The attacker ran through the grass instead of on the sidewalk, so I didn’t hear his footsteps behind me until the last second. A car door had opened and closed, but I’d assumed it was the people who’d pulled up in front of the house with the witch decoration, and I hadn’t bothered to glance back. I was half turned to see what was coming when he hit me, a tackle that lifted my feet off the sidewalk and slammed my shoulder against a tree before I fell heavily to the ground.
I landed on my back, which put me in the best position to defend myself against the next attack from a man I saw only as a dark shape, his face obscured by the shadows and a baseball cap pulled low on his head. I pushed myself off the ground as he swung at me, ducked, and lunged toward him as the blow missed by inches. From the sound his hand made as it passed by my ear, I knew he was holding a weapon, something with some weight to it. He stepped back deftly and quickly at my move forward and, instead of collecting himself for another swing, he simply reversed his body and momentum and threw his right hand at my head again, this time in a smooth, fluid backhand, like a tennis player. He did it so fast and so hard that I thought I tasted the blood in my mouth before I was knocked into a black oblivion.
11
The first thought I had when I regained consciousness sent a bolt of pure horror through me—I was blind. I’d come around slowly, groggy, but then I was awake and alert, blinking and trying to focus and finding that impossible. There was nothing but blackness, and for a few awful seconds I knew a fear as great as any I’d ever felt, thinking that my vision was gone, maybe permanently. Then I felt the cloth on my face, and I realized there was some sort of bag over my head, fastened tight around my neck.
Someone prodded me in the ribs. “You back?”
I was starting to get my bearings now—on the ground, cool, wet grass beneath me, hands bound behind my back, not with handcuffs but one of those thin, incredibly strong plastic ties that cops use as an alternative. Cloth bag over my head, very thick, allowing absolutely no light to filter through the fabric. I ran my tongue over dry lips and winced as it touched a deep cut with a coppery flavor. There was a steadily increasing ache behind my right ear.
“Say something.” Another prod in the ribs, probably with the toe of a boot.
“Take the bag off my head, asshole.”
A laugh. “Ah, you are back.”
“Take the bag off. I can’t breathe.” As soon as I said it, I began to feel as if I really
“You don’t want that bag to come off. That bag represents a nice alternative I’m providing to you, Lincoln Perry. It’s a chance to do some talking. The other option is that you do some dying. So, no, I don’t think you want that bag to come off.”
A hand reached down and grabbed the bag, taking some of my hair with it, then jerked me upright. When I was on my knees, he released me.
“Stay up.”
Sitting there on my knees, hands bound behind me, a bag tied over my head, I felt like I was waiting for execution. I tried to get to my feet, but he put his boot in the middle of my back—not gently—and shoved me back to my knees.
“No movement. Just sit still and talk. Do that, and you’ll go home tonight.”
I licked my lips again, and the moisture turned the dried blood to liquid, filled my mouth with the taste.
“Who are you?”
“A man who has plenty in common with you,” he said. “That’s one of the reasons I prefer you talking to you dying. We’ve got some similarities, yes, we do.”
I was silent, waiting for more.
“You don’t need to know about me, Lincoln Perry. I know about you, and that’s the important thing. I know who you are, I know what you’ve done with your life, I know who is important in it. I know that you paid a visit to Karen Jefferson last night, that you worked in your partner’s garden this morning, that you spent some time with that good-looking reporter this evening. She seemed upset when she left. What’d you do to spoil her fun?”
“Told her I wanted to play kinky games with my hands tied behind my back and a bag over my head.”
