The Natchee had learned quickly, and probably they could get along without us. Reluctantly, I agreed to myself that Keokotah was right, but we could not leave when trouble was coming. I said as much and he shrugged again.
Keokotah's girl went outside for fuel, and I watched her go, wondering about their relationship. Indian men often went on long hunts, and sometimes they returned, sometimes they did not. Their women found other men or lived alone, given meat by successful hunters. Was it that way with the Natchee? There was so much I did not know.
Leaning against the backrest I stretched my bad leg. Sometimes the cold made it ache. Aside from that and a slight limp it was as good as new. I could still run.
When I went outside, Itchakomi was there. She had cleaned her buckskin skirt and leggings. 'You think they come?'
'Yes.' I pointed toward the entrance. 'Keokotah and I will be there. Your people should be in the trees along the creek and out of sight until they get close.'
She looked over the ground sloping away from us. The plan was good enough and probably the only one. We could not stop them, but we might get one or two before they got through into the valley. After that it would be a fight, and there were too many of them.
'It is time to go,' she said. 'We must go to the upper valley.'
'Wait. We may stop them this time. I do not believe there will be many this time.'
Of course, I did not know, but I doubted many would come, thinking we were very few. We had little choice. A retreat to the upper valley would delay them only a little. They would find us, and where would we go then? If Keokotah was right and more snow was coming, we might be snowed in, our only retreat the high country beyond. It would be cold, and there would be danger of snowslides.
'It is a warming time,' she suggested. 'Does the grass come back now?'
I repeated what Keokotah had said, and she nodded. 'I have heard of this. Long ago some people came to us from far up the Great River. They spoke of this. Is it so in your country?'
'In England? I do not know. My father spoke of a time when England was warmer than in his time. There had been vines growing grapes, and they made wine. Then it became colder and the vines did not grow.
'I think it was colder here,' I said, 'in far gone times. It was a time for the buffalo, who understand the cold. When the wind and snow blow hard they do not walk away from it. They bunch together and turn their heads to the wind, and their heavy coats are soon matted with snow and they are warm.'
She stood beside me, a tall, lovely girl, wise for her years. I moved a step to the side, putting more distance between us. Her being close disturbed me, and I felt uneasy. Anyway, I had no time to think of women. I had much land to see. And I was happier when alone. I reminded myself of this. I had always been a loner.
Even with Keokotah I was a loner, for he walked with his own thoughts and we did not intrude. We were two loners together.
Keokotah was annoyed by staying on. He felt no duty to these people and he wanted to be away. Only the snow was holding him or holding us.
'What will you do,' she asked, 'when the grass grows green?'
My gesture took in the western mountains. 'Go out there, I suppose. I want to see what is beyond the mountains.'
'And then?'
My tongue touched my lips and I shifted my feet. Well, it was a sensible question, what would I do?
'I don't know. Find a meadow somewhere with a stream running and build a cabin, I guess.'
'And then?'
She was backing me into a corner and I didn't like it. I was like a buffalo calf, cut off from the herd. I was hunting a corner to duck around or a place to hide.
'It would be a place where a man could hunt,' I explained, 'and sort of live off the country.'
'Alone?'
'I've always been alone,' I said, 'even when I was with folks. I don't fit in with people, somehow. Books, now. I'd like to have some books.'
She didn't push me any further and I was glad. I was feeling crowded and beginning to sweat a little.
'What of your brothers?'
'They were going their own ways. Yance had found him a woman and by this time Kin prob'ly has, too. A man has to blaze his own trail, and mine was to the west.'
'I would like to know your brothers.'
'You'd like them. Good men. My sister, Noelle, she went back to England with Ma. By now she's probably going to balls an' such, living the life of a real lady.'
'I would like to meet her. I wish--'
'What?'
'I would like to see how it is over there. I would like to see the clothes your women wear.'
'Most of them are kind of silly. Seems so to me, anyhow. Hair all done up an' powdered, fancy silk skirts. Pa said they could look mighty fetching, though.'
'Could I wear those clothes?'
Well, I looked at her again. She could wear anything. With that figure and the way she walked--she was more like a queen than any queen I'd heard of.
'You could,' I admitted, 'and you'd be beautiful in them. You would turn every head in the place.'
She was pleased, so I went on and told her more about the balls and such. Ma had told us about them, told Noelle most of all, but we had listened. She told about dancing and about clothes and the ballrooms, so I repeated it to Itchakomi. 'There would be nobody as beautiful as you,' I finished, realizing what I said was true.
It was easier talking about such things than about my plans. Whenever she got on that tack it set me to fidgeting because I hadn't really thought it out. I'd never thought that far ahead. I'd settle down somewhere, I supposed. Maybe with some Indians, as there was not much chance of a man getting by alone.
Or I'd go back.
But I wouldn't. I had known that from the beginning. My destiny was here, where the west was. Like I'd told her, I'd find a meadow somewhere with a stream flowing through it and I'd build a log house. Maybe more than a cabin. Might be things would get better with the Spanish and I could get some books from them. I would like to be reading again. There was so much I did not know.
The sun was warming things up and I looked toward the opening of the valley. I should be over there, waiting. Those Indians would come.
Yet I lingered. A man living off the country and in a land where there's risk at every hand does not get much time to contemplate himself. He has no time to speculate on the ifs and the buts of his life, nor to ask questions of himself and his motives. Each day is a day to live and in which to keep from dying, and a man's energies are directed out from himself and his thoughts as well. Contemplation is a leisure indulgence. It is for a man in an armchair or beside a fire in his own house. It isn't for a man whose every sense is attuned to sounds outside himself.
Itchakomi had asked me questions I'd never asked myself, and I suspected she had a lot more lying in wait for their proper moments. She was a disturbing woman, in more ways than one.
Pa, being the man he was, had laid a duty on me to sort of play godfather to the Indians. They were good people, with wise men among them, and customs suited to the country, but sometimes they needed an outside opinion or in my case somebody to act for an old gentleman not up to the trip we'd made.
More than that, I liked the Ni'kwana. There was something between us, and we had sensed it when we had come together. We could have sat down and talked from the first moment like old friends.
All right, so here I was. I'd found Itchakomi and delivered his message. Why was I hanging around? Because of the cold and the snow. Would I be around if it wasn't for that? I shied from the question like a bird from a sudden move.
'There's a wind blowing in this country now,' I said, 'that's going to blow a lot of change. The Indian way of life will be the first to go, I think, because the white man is part of that change, and most of them can't see any way but their own.
'Pa, he was different. First off, he was raised in the fens and the life was different there, more independent
