don't envy. The Queen is not going to like this.'
Talia and Elspeth exchanged a knowing glance and a sigh. Daren shook his head.
'Perhaps,' he suggested gently, 'I should be the one to break the word first to Selenay. I shall remind her of how sad the little ones would be to become half-orphaned; I hope then she will not slay the father of her children out of sheer pique.'
Elspeth and Talia waited nervously in the rather austere antechamber to Selenay and Daren's private suite, but it seemed almost no time at all before Daren was back, beckoning to both of them to come with him. They followed him into Selenay's private office, and Elspeth's heart ached to see how drawn and worn her mother's face was. And to add to that burden of grief and worry - But Selenay only came straight to her, held out her arms, and embraced her tightly but not possessively. Her body shook with tension but not with the tears that Elspeth had feared.
Finally she released her daughter, and held her away at arm's length, searching her face for something although Elspeth could not tell what it was. Her eyes were narrowed with concentration, and Elspeth saw many fine worry lines around her eyes and creasing her forehead that had not been there when she left.
'Good,' she said finally. 'This isn't something someone talked you into. You know exactly what you're doing. You thought of this yourself?'
Elspeth nodded. Her mother had pulled her hair back into a no-nonsense braid like Kero's, and like Talia, she was wearing breeches and tunic, her only concession to rank being a bit of gold trim on the tunic hem and her coronet about her brow. Her sword and sword-belt were hanging from the chair beside her desk, and knives lay on top of a pile of papers. Although she had seen her mother in armor and on a battlefield, this was not a Selenay that Elspeth had ever seen before, but she rather expected that anyone who had fought with her mother and grandfather in the Tedrel Wars would find this Queen very familiar. Selenay had pared everything from her life that was not relevant to the defense of her land. Valdemar was in peril, and the Queen was ready for personal action.
'I thought about trying to be a commander, but I'm not a tactician, and not even a particularly good fighter. No one knows me to follow me as a charismatic leader,' Elspeth said slowly. 'In the lines, I would be just one more warrior. Yes, I could help with magic defenses - I could even coordinate the mages - but I would be your daughter, and the ones from outKingdom would always expect me to favor Herald-Mages and their safety over those from outside. Such suspicion could be fatal. Kero always taught us that you don't stand off and fling sand at a fire from a safe distance; you go in and cut a firebreak right in its path.'
'Kero taught you well.' Selenay rubbed her eyes with her index finger, and blinked hard against tears. 'The Queen agrees with you; the mother - what can I tell you? I hate the idea of sending my child off into this kind of danger, my heart wants to hold you back and keep you safe. But you are a woman grown, Elspeth. You are responsible for your own safety and I can't protect you anymore. Besides, there is no safety anywhere in Valdemar, not now. Elspeth, I am so proud of you!'
Elspeth had never expected to hear that last; it caught her by surprise, and her heart swelled and overflowed. She flung herself into her mother's arms again, and this time they both gave way to weeping. Talia, and then Daren, joined them in a fourfold embrace, offering comfort and support. This was sorrow both bitter and sweet, sweet for the accomplishment - bitter for all that accomplishment meant to all of them. Nothing would ever be the same again, even if they all survived this.
When both of them got control over themselves again, they separated, slowly and reluctantly, with tremulous smiles.
'Thank you, Mama,' Elspeth managed. 'That is the most wonderful thing you have ever said to me. I've always been proud of you, too, but never more than today....'
'When you were such trouble - before Talia came - there were times that I despaired of ever seeing you act like a responsible adult, much less make me so very proud that you are my daughter,' Selenay said at last, with a grateful glance at Talia who only blushed. 'No one could ever ask of you what you have just given to Valdemar.'
Now it was Elspeth's turn to blush. 'I don't know if Papa told you about my rather florid speech in there about saving the people rather than the land,' she said. 'But being with k'Sheyna and the Hawkbrothers is what showed me that. The way they simply give up their homes and move on when it's time - but mourn the loss of every hawk and owl, hertasi and human - that showed me where we should be putting our effort. Let Ancar grab land; the people of Valdemar ran and survived before, and they can now. And if we five can pull this off, they'll have something to return to.'
Selenay shook her head in wonder. 'You've grown up. And you're wiser than I ever will be - '
Elspeth laughed shakily. 'No, just knowledgeable in different things, that's all. Mama, I have to get back to Kero; the sooner we get out of here, the better for all of us.'
'If you can spare me for a moment, I'll go with her,' Talia added. 'I think I have a contact that will give them a way to move across Hardorn quickly.'
Selenay nodded. 'I will need you in about a candlemark, to help me calm some hysterical highborns when I tell them they are in the path of an invasion we can't stop, but not until then.'
Selenay took Elspeth into a quick embrace. 'If I don't see you before you leave - remember you take my love with you,' she whispered into Elspeth's ear. 'And you take my respect and hope as well. I love you, kitten. Come
