Phoenix and Ashes

He had Budd along with him, just in case his knee gave out and he couldn't wrestle the old bus any further along, but he was looking forward to the day when he could go out on his own. On his own—because then, he could open her up and let tear, and if he went smash, he'd hurt no one but himself.

And if I go smash, no one's to know how much of an accident it is . . . or isn't. Once he had fought death off like a tiger. That had been before every day was a battle, and every night a little war, and he could feel his sanity slipping through his fingers like water. Maybe death was just the door into another life. At the moment, he didn't believe it. He didn't believe in a higher power, either. What higher power would ever let the slaughter across the Channel go on and on and on as it had? Unless that higher power were stark raving mad.

So the big thing would be to do yourself in a way that was fast, and hopefully painless. A good smash into a solid oak tree at the Prince Henry's top end would do that.

But that wouldn't be today. Today, Budd had tendered that rather awkward and shy invitation to—a pub.

'Not just any pub, milord,' he'd hastily said. 'Used to be the workingman's pub, afore the war, so they say. Now—' He'd shrugged. 'Not many workingmen in Broom. Them of us got mustered out, took it over, more or less.'

He'd captured Reggie's dull attention with that. The only men that were 'mustered out' these days were those who were too maimed to go back into the lines.

'Really?' he'd said, looking up at Budd over the Prince Henry's bonnet. 'Tell me more.'

'Not much to tell,' Budd had replied. 'Just—we didn't feel none too comfortable around—people who weren't there, d'ye see?'

'I do see, believe me, I do.' He had tried to give Budd that look. 'So, no one else ever comes in?'

'Mostly not, and they mostly goes back out again pretty quick.' Budd had sighed, and stared glumly down at the carburetor. 'Not a cheery lot, are we. Don't go in for darts, much. Skittles, right out. Tend to swap stories as make th' old reg'lars get the collie-wobbles and look for the door. Now, we're a rough lot. And old Mad Ross the socialist is one of us. But I wondered, milord, if you might find a pint there go down a bit easier than a brandy—' and he had jerked his head up at the house.

'I have no doubt of that,' he'd said savagely, giving his wrench a hard crank. 'And I'd be obliged if you'd be my introduction.'

So that was how he found himself now on dusty High Street holding his fast auto to a chugging crawl she did not in the least like, while curious urchins came out to watch him pass.

Now, he had not, as a rule, held himself aloof from Broom in the old days. He wasn't at all averse to a pint or a meal at Broom Hall Inn. He tried to make some sort of a point of knowing a bit about his villagers, and he'd had a good memory for names and faces. And it was a shock, a real shock, to see what was going on now.

There was a woman delivering the mail. He thought it might be Aurora Cook. The postman had been Howard Sydneyson—the postmaster had been Thomas Price—

Who were both something like thirty. . . . Gone, of course, by now. Conscripted. Neither job came under the heading of 'vital to the needs of the nation.'

David Toback had been the constable—another shock came when Reggie saw poor old sixty-year-old Thomas Lament making the rounds in his stead. What would he do to a miscreant? Talk them to death? It was a good thing that most of the troublemakers were gone too—also conscripted, or else told by the judge it was the infantry or jail.

Carlton McKenney's blacksmith shop was closed; there were no sons to take his place at the forge, and blacksmithing was no job for a daughter. . . .

Thank heaven for a moment of normality—Stephen Kirby's apothecary shop was still open with Kirby in it— but then, the poor man was the next thing to blind, and his wife Morgan had to read out all of the doctor's prescriptions to him. Not good on the front line.

The saddlery was closed. Reggie bit his lip, remembering that one of the last things he had done before going off to the RFC Flying College at Oxford was to take his hunting saddle down there for repairs.

He finally stopped glancing to the side; there always seemed to be more bad news than there was good. Finally Budd directed him to park next to a whitewashed, two-story building he wouldn't have known was a pub except for the sign 'The Broom' over the door.

'Here we are, milord,' Budd said, getting out. 'Now, don't you mind Mad Ross. He'll probably be on you the minute you're inside.'

Reggie raised an eyebrow. 'If I can't manage Ross Ashley, I'm in worse condition than I thought,' he said