Like most people of their race, the dark iris filled his eyes, but she saw the white flash as he glanced over at her. 'Sixty years ago,' he said. 'We lived in the Plantation compound. The canebrakes; some of us worked there, cut cane, worked in the mill. Most of
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the women, the little children. Most men and the boys over nine or ten went down the mines. Some of the girls, too, they wanted them small, to work the shafts a man couldn't get into- I was big. They sent me down the mines when I was eight years old.'
'Dark,' he said. Again she saw the flash of his eyes. 'I look back and think how did we live? how did we stay living in that place? The air down the mine was so thick with the dust that it was black. Black air. Your lantern light didn't go five feet into that air. There was water in most of the workings, up to a man's knees. There was one shaft where a soft-coal face had caught fire and was burning so the whole system was full of smoke- They went on working it, because the lodes ran behind that coke. We wore masks, filters. They didn't do much good. We breathed the smoke-1 always wheeze some like I do now. It's not just the berlot. It's the old smoke. The men died of the black lung. All the men. Forty, forty-five years old, they died. The Bosses gave your tribe money when a man died. A death bonus. Some men thought that made it worth while dying.'
'How did you get out?'
'My mother,' he said. 'She was a chiefs daughter from the village. She taught me. She taught me religion and freedom.'
He has said that before, Yoss thought. It has become his stock answer, his standard myth.
'How? What did she say?'
A pause. 'She taught me the Holy Word,'
Abberkam said. 'And she said to me, 'You and your brother, you are the true people, you are the Lord's
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people, his servants, his warriors, his lions: only you. Lord Kamye came with us from the Old World and he is ours now, he lives among us.' She named us Abberkam, Tongue of the Lord, and Domerkam, Arm of the Lord. To speak the truth and fight to be flee.'
'What became of your brother?' Yoss asked after a time.
'Killed at Nadami,' Abberkam said, and again both were silent for a while.
Nadami had been the first great outbreak of the
Uprising which finally brought the Liberation to Yeowe- At Nadami plantation slaves and city freed-people had first fought side by side against the owners. If the slaves had been able to hold together against the owners, the Corporations, they might have won their freedom years sooner. But the liberation movement had constantly splintered into tribal rivalries, chiefs vying for power in the newly freed territories, bargaining with the Bosses to consolidate their gains. Thirty years of war and destruction before the vastly outnumbered Werelians were defeated, driven offworld, leaving the Yeowans free to turn upon one another.
'Your brother was lucky,' said Yoss.
Then she looked across at the Chief, wondering how he would take this challenge. His big, dark face had a softened look in the firelight. His grey, coarse hair had escaped from the loose braid she had made of it to keep it from his eyes, and straggled around his face. He said slowly and softly, 'He was my younger brother. He was Enar on the Field of the Five Armies.'
Oh, so then you're the Lord Kamye himself?
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Yoss retorted in her mind, moved, indignant, cynical. What an ego! — But, to be sure, there was another implication. Enar had taken up his sword to kill his Elder Brother on that battlefield, to keep him from becoming Lord of the World. And Kamye had told him that the sword he held was his own death;
that there is no lordship and no freedom in life, only in the letting go of life, of longing, of desire. Enar had laid down his sword and gone into the wilderness, into the silence, saying only, 'Brother, I am thou.' And Kamye had taken up that sword to fight the Armies of Desolation, knowing there is no victory.
So who was he, this man? this big fellow? this sick old man, this little boy down in the mines in the dark, this bully, thief, and liar who thought he could speak for the Lord?
'We're talking too much,' Yoss said, though neither of them had said a word for five minutes.
She poured a cup of tea for him and set the kettle off the fire, where she had kept it simmering to keep the air moist. She took up her shawl. He watched her with that same soft look in his face, an expression almost of confusion.
'It was freedom I wanted,' he said. 'Our freedom.'
His conscience was none of her concern. 'Keep warm,' she said.
'You're going out now?'
'I can't get lost on the causeway.'
It was a strange walk, though, for she had no lantern, and the night was very black. She thought, feeling her way along the causeway, of that black air
he had told her of down in the mines, swallowing
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light. She thought of Abberkam's black, heavy body. She thought how seldom she had walked atone at night. When she was a child on Banni Plantation, the slaves were locked in the compound at night. Women stayed on the women's side and never went alone. Before the War, when she came to the city as a freedwoman, studying at the training school, she'd had a taste of freedom; but in the bad years of the War and even since the Liberation a woman couldn't go safely in the streets at night. There were no police in the working quarters, no streetlights;
district warlords sent their gangs out raiding; even in daylight you had to look out, try to stay in the crowd, always be sure there was a street you could escape by.
She grew anxious that she would miss her turning, but her eyes had grown used to the dark by the time she came to it, and she could even make out the blot of her house down in the formlessness of
the reedbeds. The Aliens had poor night vision, she had heard. They had little eyes, little dots with white all round them, like a scared calf. She didn't like their eyes, though she liked the colors of their skin, mostly dark brown or ruddy brown, warmer than her greyish-brown slave skin or the blue-black hide Abberkam had got from the owner who had raped his mother. Cyanid skins, the Aliens said politely, an ocular adaptation to the radiation spectrum of the Werelian System sun.
Gubu danced about her on the pathway down, silent, tickling her legs with his tail. 'Look out,' she scolded him, 'I'm going to walk on you.' She was grateful to him, picked him up as soon as they were indoors. No dignified and joyous greeting from
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Tikuli, not this night, not ever. Roo-roo-roo, Gubu went under her ear, listen to me, I'm here, life goes on, where's dinner?
The Chief got a touch of pneumonia after all, and
she went into the village to call the clinic in Veo.
They sent out a practitioner, who said he was doing fine, just keep him sitting up and coughing, the herbal teas were fine, just keep an eye on him, that's right, and went away, thanks very much. So she spent her afternoons with him. The house without Tikuli seemed very drab, the late autumn days seemed very cold, and anyhow what else did she have to do? She liked the big, dark raft-house. She wasn't going to clean house for the Chief or any man who didn't do it for himself, but she poked about in it, in rooms Abberkam evidently hadn't used or even looked at. She found one upstairs, with long low windows all along the west wall, that she liked. She swept it out and cleaned the windows with their small, greenish panes. When he was asleep she would go up to that room and sit on a ragged wool rug, its only furnishing. The fireplace had been sealed up with loose bricks, but heat came up it from the peat fire burning below, and with her back against the warm bricks and the sunlight slanting in, she was warm. She felt a peacefulness there that seemed to belong to the room, the shape of its air, the greenish,
