did-if you could swallow the grotesque suggestion that Morton was Barbara’s lover.
The manager came back to collect our plates and see if we wanted the peach melba. We opted for coffee. I needed that moment’s distraction.
“Out of a bottle, no doubt,” I remarked to Alice.
She nodded automatically, impatient to press on. Her eyes were dilated-I suppose with the excitement of defending her daddy. “Now let’s talk about that remark of Sally’s that we’d got it all wrong about Barbara and the apple pip. Sally was Barbara’s closest friend, yes?”
“Yes.”
“So if anyone knew about Barbara’s love life, it was Sally. If I understand it right about the business with the apple, the girls believed that the number of pips would tell them what kind of man they would marry. Now, when Barbara cut the apple in half, she got two pips: tinker, tailor. She cut one of the halves and got no more pips, so she cut the second half and found one: soldier. Will you listen, Theo? The soldier pip was severed and Barbara was pretty upset, because it was a bad omen. I think you said someone actually saw her crying in the afternoon.”
“It’s understandable,” I said. “They take their superstitions seriously in Somerset. Strangely enough, it could have been a premonition of tragedy if you believe that Duke was already a doomed man.”
“Not Duke,” said Alice.
I stared at her without understanding.
She said, “Cliff Morton.”
I gaped.
She said, “Cliff was the doomed man.”
I shook my head. “Duke was the soldier.”
“Not the one Barbara had in mind. Cliff had just received his call-up papers. She was thinking of him. She was about to lose him to the draft. Her lover. And when the apple pip was cut, she took it as a sign that he’d be killed in combat. Don’t you see, Theo? She wouldn’t shed tears over my daddy. She hardly knew him yet.”
I couldn’t fault her logic. If you assumed a relationship between Barbara and Cliff, it
“Do you see now why Sally told us we got it all wrong?” said Alice to underline the point.
“All right,” I said, switching to the offensive, “but if Barbara was so attached to Morton, how do you account for her going to the concert with Duke?”
“Bluff. She used it as a decoy, to reassure her parents. They disapproved of Cliff. They may even have banned her from seeing him after the incident in the orchard. So she pretended she was taking up with one of the GIs.”
I had her now. She had a good brain, and up to this point she’d concocted a plausible version of events, but I knew she was wrong over this.
I said with mild irony, “Pretended?”
‘That’s right, Theo. Like Harry said, there was never anything serious between them.”
“Barbara didn’t confide in Harry. She confided in me. That evening you were talking about, her first evening out with Duke, she came to my room afterwards and talked to me about it.”
She sighed and looked at her fingernails. “You told me.”
I wasn’t having it brushed aside. “She was radiant with excitement.”
“Okay, she had a good time at the concert. I figure a girl didn’t get much entertainment in wartime.”
I said in the hectoring voice I sometimes used with difficult students, “Alice, I’ve done you the courtesy of listening to you. Now you can do likewise. She wasn’t simply talking about the concert. She confided her thoughts about Duke. She said she was bursting with pride when he went on the stage to sing. She liked him: the way he treated her, his quiet manner, so different from the expectation she had of an American soldier. He was shy but with a gentle sense of humor. She told me she’d be seeing him again.”
“She was using you,” said Alice tersely.
“Come off it, that’s unfair.”
“She wanted her parents to get the idea she’d transferred her interest to my daddy, so she fed you this slush.”
I shook my head. “You’re wrong. She used to go out every evening to meet him.”
“Do you know that for certain? Did you see them together? Ever? She was meeting Cliff.” She grasped her plait and flicked it behind her shoulder. “And before you tell me about Mrs. Lock wood spanking you, has it crossed your mind that she
I did. Like so much else she’d said, it outraged me by challenging a version of events I’d grown up with and drawn comfort from, yet it had a sickening plausibility. I found myself remembering the eruption of strong language the morning in the cider house when Bernard Lockwood told his parents he’d noticed Morton’s bicycle on the farm. I’d been shocked by the force of their reaction.
Two chipped cups were put in front of us, each containing clear, tepid water with a teaspoon anchored in something brown and glutinous. Stirring made no appreciable difference. We were too preoccupied to complain.
We had different ideas of what lay ahead. Up to now Alice had made all the running. This theory that had seemed a rank outsider at the start had cleared each fence and was still looking strong. I was sure there was one barrier it couldn’t surmount.
After a period of silence I said, broaching it with caution, “You know, if someone wanted to choose between your interpretation and mine, they might be in two minds, except for one thing: There’s no getting around the fact that Morton raped Barbara.”
Her eyes behind the glasses were like chips of flint. She didn’t speak a syllable.
I added less guardedly, “It makes nonsense of everything you’ve said up to now.”
She found her voice and pitched it low, with an undertone of scorn. “Whose word have we got that this rape ever took place? Yours alone.”
So that’s your response, I thought. A straight challenge. I said, “It was accepted by a judge and jury. Are you putting yourself above them?”
She answered stiffly, “The judge and jury were appointed to hear a case of murder, not rape. The story of the rape was never seriously questioned. No medical evidence was given. They took the word of a nine-year-old boy.”
I said, “I may have been nine then, but I’m twenty-nine now, and that was rape.”
Alice smiled faintly, not a friendly smile. “This afternoon I got you to describe minutely what you saw that afternoon in the hayloft. The way they were lying, the sounds they made, the movements. I’m not the world’s expert on sex, but I figure I know more about what a woman feels than you, because nothing in what you described to me was untypical of passionate lovemaking. You said she had her clothes rucked up. She was gasping and crying out, turning her head, squirming. Do you know what it’s like for a woman to experience a powerful orgasm, or haven’t you noticed?”
I said, “Oh, come on. She was beating her fists on the floor.”
Alice took a quick, impatient breath. “Theo, she’d have been trying to push him away if he was raping her.”
She was looking at me through the glasses, entreating me to make some concession to her theory. I was intractable.
She persisted. “As a child, it’s understandable that a sight of adults in the act of love would alarm you, but surely with maturity you can analyze what you witnessed?”
I was in no frame of mind to analyze anything. I didn’t need to listen to her interpretation. I’d been there when it happened.
Angered by my lack of reaction, she pushed her face closer, taunting me. “Tell me this, then. Why was Cliff on the farm at all if it wasn’t at Barbara’s invitation?”
I didn’t respond.
She loosed off a salvo of questions. “Why did Barbara go up to the hayloft? And when my daddy ran into the barn, why didn’t he pull them apart?”
