The White Raven

mugwort and everlasting and the milk of a mare, a goat and a cow.

'Does it work?' demanded Skula, a raw-boned youth who had started skinny and was now yellow and wasting. Thorgunna, who was feeding him with it, assured him it was infallible, but from the face he made swallowing it down I was glad I did not have the squits.

'He will get more out of the other part of Bjaelfi's cure,' Thorgunna muttered as she passed me. The bit that has him rest in the soft and warm.'

Too many were dead, or dying, or sick. In the end, I had to gather the Oathsworn together and ask for people to stay with those too sick to travel, partly to make sure the villagers remembered their manners, partly to try and make sure they lived.

I had expected a torrent of volunteers, but was surprised; only two said they would stay, making out that is was for the good reason of tending their sick comrades but really because they were too weak themselves and knew they could go no further. The others were determined to go on and, in the end, I had to tell two more they would stay and listen to them grumble.

One was Skula and, though he curled his lip at my decision, looked more relieved than annoyed; he was weak enough to die if he left the village and knew it.

The other was Tjorvir, whose boils were now beyond Bjaelfi's powers to prevent and Thorgunna and Thordis' lancing prowess with a needle and wool. They erupted where clothing chafed, so that his neck and wrists were a mass of sores and pus — but he was frowning at my leaving him behind.

'This is not a good thing,' he declared, shaking his head, so I pointed out that he could barely walk, use a sword or wear a helm but it made no difference. In the end, Finnlaith clapped him on the back — from Tjorvir's wince, he had found a new boil — and said: 'Don't worry — I will serve the weregild and make sure you get your share.'

It was Jon Asanes who explained it to me, which did not make me feel any better about being put on the straight path by a stripling and one who had been weeping-sad since his friend, Pai, had died.

'The ones who came with Thorkel feel bad for what he did and do not wish you to think badly of them,' he told me. 'They will follow you to the door of Helheim — as will the others and not because of the oath they made in the eye of Odin.

'They don't call you Bear Slayer, they call you Trader,' he added with a quiet grin, 'because everyone knows that, if you fare with Orm, you get a good deal. They know you are All-Father's favourite and think that will bring most of them home, too.'

We spoke quietly, under four eyes only, about Olafs plan to keep Jon in Novgorod. I knew enough about Crowbone not to find it strange that a mere boy of nine should be deciding the future of one I had known since he was a child himself.

Jon did not smile. He looked uncomfortable and scrubbed at what I saw was the beginnings of a passable beard, dark against the pale olive of his skin. The gesture made my heart skip, for it was so like old Rurik, the man I'd thought my father, as to have been a copy. Then I realized he had picked the gesture up from me.

Crowbone dreams his dreams,' Jon said wryly, 'and depends on the actions of birds to make them come true — one more to a flock here, a flutter to the left there. He will fail in the end, for no true god guides his hand in that.'

'You can say that?' I countered. 'Even after all you have witnessed with us?'

'Always the hand of the White Christ — the Hvitkristr — is in it,' Jon answered levelly. 'That has ever been a barrier between us.'

Not on my account, nor would it and I said as much, so that he flashed those white, straight teeth at me, big as rune-stones now in a face made too thin from hunger.

'You call him hvitkristr for a reason,' he answered. 'Perhaps you have used it for so long that you no longer hear it as I do.'

'Which way is that?' I asked, though I already knew it.

'The way that hvit means not just 'white' but cowardly,' he replied, then dropped his eyes from mine. 'That and worse. So I am tarred with the same. I cannot fight well, nor can I take the Odin- oath. I am neither fish nor fowl in this company.'

It was true enough, though I did not see how a godlet who let himself be nailed passively to a lump of wood could be anything but white-livered, as we Northmen say. I did not say that, all the same, out of deference to Jon Asanes' beliefs.

I had not known — or not thought — of any of this and it came as a shock of cold water to hear him speak as though we were strangers. I looked at him and remembered him as the skinny Greek boy on Cyprus. It rose up in me and barred the door of my mouth, so that the words I should have spoken were blocked.

He grinned, shamefaced, his too-large eyes bright. 'I know bribage and port dues and lading weights,' he said. 'I know the worth of a dozen coins and how they relate to each other and how to tell bad amber from good. I speak Greek and Latin and write in both and my runes are passable. I will be a good trader myself one day. But I am not a northman and I am not a pagan and I am not Oathsworn and never will be so.'

'All true,' I managed to reply, but the wormwood of the moment made my tongue bitter. 'Perhaps you should also remain here, being so valuable.'

He shook his head sadly, which shamed me to silence. Then, he lowered his eyes to stare at the floor.

'When you first arrived in Novgorod I was. . ashamed. Finn stank and Kvasir was not much better. Even you, Trader.'

I shrugged. He had been too long away from honest Northmen, that was all. And we had left him when he was but a boy. I said as much and he nodded, still ashamed.

'You looked like all the tales the priests told — hard men, who smell bad and spend your days killing men and humping unwilling women.'

'Not unwilling, some of them,' I managed and that trembled a grin on him but it vanished just as quickly.

'I am a Greek who is no longer a Greek, fighting with a varjazi and yet not a Northman. Crowbone imagines he is favouring me; the prince also — but I have my own ideas on what my life will be.'

It was true enough and the ache of knowing it, having it said and so made real, was keen and swirled in me like molten metal until it finally forged itself into anger. We had been good to Jon Asanes and I said so. Whatever his life would be, he owed it to us.

He looked at me and there was dark fire in those olive eyes.

'You came to Cyprus and what you did there killed my brother and forced me to go with you into the scorching Serkland. I was shot by an arrow and almost died, then finally carried far from the world I knew to the far north, a bitter cold place of unwashed folk who wear skins.'

That made me blink with the harsh of it, but he had more of the same.

'I have had no say until recently and had plans of my own — until you returned to my life. As soon as you did I faced the stake and am now here, in this frozen waste, where I may die.'

He stopped and smiled sadly. 'That is your goodness to me? I would hate to have you be bad to me, Trader.'

The anger went from me; sadness and — loss surged in to fill the space. Whatever the future held, it seemed the Goat Boy was gone from us.

As Gunnar, my real father, had often said — everything you need should be in a sea-chest; everything else can be left behind. Like all simple solutions, it was flawed, relied on making no attachments to people. In the end, of course, even he realized that for he could not leave me behind.

'It would be nice all the same,' Jon Asanes added wistfully, 'if I could have a cut of those runes on your stone, just like all the others.'

I nodded, unable to speak. Runes on a stone, or a finekenned verse. That is why no-one wanted to be left behind, huddled in a bed in a village — those left standing get the most honour from skalds, unless their death was particular.

Finn, it seemed, had decided on a particular death.

As the dawn struggled up, we stood and watched him stand in the cold — no Northman kneels, even to the gods — bareheaded and facing north, sprinkling the best white emperor salt in a cup of meltwater, which he then dedicated to Odin with all of All Father's names. Finally, he rammed The Godi into the earth, bowed his head,