chapter 20
Bert Haggerty was sitting in the Chevrolet coupe, wearing a stalled expression. I got in beside him and handed him the key.
'What's this?'
'The key to the liquor. You better keep it. Hoffman's had as much as he can take.'
'Did he throw you out?'
'No. He passed out, while hitting himself in the face. Hard.'
Haggerty thrust his long sensitive nose toward me. 'Why would Earl do a thing like that?'
'He seemed to be punishing himself for hitting his daughter a long time ago.'
'Helen told me about that. Earl treated her brutally before she left home. It's one thing I can't forgive him for.'
'He can't forgive himself. Did Helen tell you what they quarreled about?'
'Vaguely. It was something to do with a murder here in Bridgeton. Helen believed, or pretended to believe, that her father deliberately let the murderer go free.'
'Why do you say she pretended to believe it?'
'My dear dead wife,' he said, wincing at the phrase, 'had quite a flair for the dramatic, especially in her younger days.'
'Did you know her before she left Bridgeton?'
'For a few months. I met her in Chicago at a party in Hyde Park. After she left home I helped her to get a job as a cub reporter. I was working for the City News Bureau then. But as I was saying, Helen always had this dramatic flair and when nothing happened in her life for it to feed on she'd _make_ something happen or pretend that it had happened. Her favorite character was Mata Hari,' he said with a chuckle that was half a sob.
'So you think she invented this murder?'
I suppose I thought so at the time, because I certainly didn't take it seriously. I have no opinion now. Does it matter?'
'It could matter very much. Did Helen ever talk to you about Luke Deloney?'
'Who?'
'Luke Deloney, the man who was killed. He owned the apartment building they lived in, and occupied the penthouse himself.'
Haggerty lit a cigarette before he answered. His first few words came out as visible puffs of smoke: 'I don't recall the name. If she talked about him, it couldn't have made much of an impression on me.'
'Her mother seems to think Helen had a crush on Deloney.'
'Mrs. Hoffman's a pretty good woman, and I love her like a mother, but she gets some wild ideas.'
'How do you know that this one is so wild? Was Helen in love with _you_ then?'
He took a deep drag on his cigarette, like an unweaned child sucking on a dry bottle. It burned down to his yellow fingers. He tossed it into the street with a sudden angry gesture.
'She never was in love with me. I was useful to her, for a while. Later, in some sense, I was the last chance. The faithful follower. The last chance for gas before the desert.'
'The desert?'
'The desert of love. The desert of unlove. But I don't think I'll go into the long and dreary chronicle of my marriage. It wasn't a lucky one, for either of us. I loved her, as far as I'm able to love, but she didn't love me. Proust says it's always that way. I'm teaching Proust to my sophomore class this fall, if I can summon up the _elan_ to go on teaching.'
'Who did Helen love?'
'It depends on which year you're talking about. Which month of which year.' He didn't move, but he was hurting himself, hitting himself in the face with bitter words.
'Right at the beginning, before she left Bridgeton.'
'I don't know if you'd call it love, but she was deeply involved with a fellow-student at the City College. It was a Platonic affair, the kind bright young people have, or used to have. It consisted largely of reading aloud to each other from their own works and others'. According to Helen, she never went to bed with him. I'm pretty sure she was a virgin when I met her.'
'What was his name?'
'I'm afraid I don't remember. It's a clear case of Freudian repression.'
'Can you describe him?'
'I never met him. He's a purely legendary figure in my life. But obviously he isn't the elusive murderer you're searching for. Helen would have been happy to see _him_ go free.' He had withdrawn from the pain of memory and was using an almost flippant tone, as if he was talking about people in a play, or watching ceiling movies at the dentist's. 'Speaking of murder, as we seem to be doing, you were going to tell me about my ex-wife's death. She's completely ex now, isn't she, exed out?'
I cut in on his sad nonsense and gave him the story in some detail, including the man from Reno who ran away in the fog, and my attempts to get him identified. 'Earl tells me you went to Reno last summer to see your wife. Did you run into any of her acquaintances there?'
'Did I not. Helen played a trick on me involving a couple of them. Her purpose was to stall off any chance for an intimate talk with me. Anyway, the one evening we spent together she insisted on making it a foursome with this woman named Sally something and her alleged brother.'
'Sally Burke?'
'I believe that _was_ her name. The hell of it was, Helen arranged it so that I was the Burke woman's escort. She wasn't a bad-looking woman, but we had nothing in common, and in any case it was Helen I wanted to talk to. But she spent the entire evening dancing with the brother. I'm always suspicious of men who dance too well.'
'Tell me more about this brother. He may be our man.'
'Well, he struck me as a rather sleazy customer. That may be projected envy. He was younger than I am, and healthier, and better looking. Also, Helen seemed to be fascinated by his line of chatter, which I thought was pointless--all about cars and horses and gambling odds. How a highly educated woman like Helen could be interested in such a man--' He tired of the sentence, and dropped it.
'Were they lovers?'
'How would I know? She wasn't confiding in me.'
'But you know your own wife, surely.'
He lit another cigarette and smoked half of it. 'I'd say they weren't lovers. They were simply playmates. Of course she was using him to hit at me.'
'For what?'
'For being her husband. For having been her husband. Helen and I parted on bad terms. I tried to put the marriage together again in Reno, but she wasn't even remotely interested.'
'What broke up your marriage?'
'It had a major fracture in it from the beginning.' He looked past me at the house where Earl Hoffman was lying senseless under the past. 'And it got worse. It was both our faults. I couldn't stop nagging her and she couldn't stop--doing what she was doing.'
I waited and listened. The church-bells were ringing, in different parts of the city.
'She was a tramp,' Haggerty said. 'A campus tramp. I started her on it when she was a nineteen-year-old babe in the woods in Hyde Park. Then she went on without me. Toward the end she was even taking money.'
'Who from?'
'Men with money, naturally. My wife was a corrupt woman, Mr. Archer. I played a part in making her what she was, so I have no right to judge her.' His eyes were brilliant with the pain that came and went like truth in him.
I felt sorry for the man. It didn't prevent me from saying: 'Where were you Friday night?'
'At home in Maple Park in our--in my apartment, grading themes.'
'Can you prove it?'
'I have the marked papers to prove it. They were turned in to me Friday, and I marked them Friday night.
