boy fed him the last of his own ice cream, and the crowd laughed. The dog, encouraged, licked and nibbled the boy’s ears, and the crowd went ohh, feech, yuk, how sweet!
The dog jumped down from the bench. Its eyes were steady and its paws huge. For two pins, or the dog equivalent, it would set itself to eat the crowd, worrying each nape and tossing the children like pancakes.
Colette stood and watched until the crowd had dispersed and she was alone. She crossed the bridge and edged down Eton High Street, impeded by tourists. I am like the dog, she thought. I have an appetite. Is that wrong? My mum had an appetite. I realize it now, how she talked in code all those years. No wonder I never knew what was what and who was who. Nor surprising her aunts were always exchanging glances, saying things like I wonder where Colette gets her hair from, I wonder where she gets her brains? The man she’d called her father was distinguished by the sort of stupidity that made him squalid. She had a mental picture of him, sprawled before the television scratching his belly. Perhaps, when she’d bought him the cuff links, she’d been hoping to improve him. Her Uncle Mike, on the other hand—who was really her father—was a man whose wallet was always stuffed. Hadn’t he been round every week flashing his fivers and saying, here, Angie, get something nice for little Colette? He’d paid, but he hadn’t paid enough; he’d paid as an uncle, but not as a dad. I’ll sue the bastard, she thought. Then she remembered he was dead.
She went into the Crown and Cushion and got a pineapple juice, which she took into a corner. Every few minutes she checked her watch. Too early, she started back across the bridge.
Alison was sitting in the front room of the Harte and Garter with a cafetiere and two cups. She had her back to the door, and Colette paused for a moment, getting a view of her: she’s
Colette sat down. She crossed her legs. She fixed Alison with a cool stare. “You don’t mind what you say, do you? You could have really upset me, back there.”
“There was a risk.” Alison smiled.
“You think you’re a good judge of character.”
“More often than not.”
“And my mum. I mean, for all you know, I could have burst into tears. I could have collapsed.”
Not a real risk, Al thought. At some level, in some recess of themselves, people know what they know. But the client was determined to have her moment.
“Because what you were saying, really, is that she was having an affair with my uncle under my dad’s nose. Which isn’t nice, is it? And she let my dad think I was his.”
“I wouldn’t call it an affair. It was more of a fling.”
“So what does that make her? A slag.”
Alison put down her coffee cup. “They say don’t speak ill of the dead.” She laughed. “But why not? They speak ill of you.”
“Do they?” Colette thought of Renee. “What are they saying?”
“A joke. I was making a joke. I see you think I shouldn’t.”
She took from Colette the thimble-sized serving of milk she was fumbling with, flicked up the foil with her nail, and tipped the milk into Colette’s coffee.
“Black. I take it black.”
“Sorry.”
“Another thing you didn’t know.”
“Another.”
“This job you were talking about—” Colette broke off. She narrowed her eyes and looked speculatively at Al, as if she were a long way off.
Al said, “Don’t frown. You’ll stay like that one day. Just ask me what you need to ask.”
“Don’t you know?”
“You asked me not to read your mind.”
“You’re right. I did. Fair’s fair. But can you shut it off like that? Shut it off and then just turn it on when you want it?”
“It’s not like that. I don’t know how I can explain. It’s not like a tap.”
“Is it like a switch?”
“Not like a switch.”
“It’s like—I suppose—is it like somebody whispering to you?”
“Yes. More like that. But not exactly whispering. I mean, not in your ear.”
“Not in your ear.” Colette stirred her coffee round and round.
Al picked up a paper straw of brown sugar, pinched off the end, and dropped it into Colette’s cup. “You need the energy,” she explained. Colette, frowning, continued to stir.
“I have to get back soon,” Al said. “They’re building up in there.”
“So if it’s not a switch—”
“About the job. You could sleep on it.”
“And it’s not a tap—”
