taken the old cabin had been a blessing in disguise, I decided. Tom had rebuilt it completely and the furnishings, while not new, looked much more comfortable.
I made a quick, approving tour of the facilities, then started shedding clothes. My day had begun at eleven P.M. the previous night when Spider Kern had given me the all-clear signal to go into the hospital washroom and change into my escape clothing.
By any standards, it had been a full day.
I slid into bed and relaxed fully for the first time in nearly twenty-four hours.
Not Cordelia's beaus nor anything else woke me until morning sunlight streaming in the cabin window hit me in the face.
5
Even as a kid I was a loner.
I never knew why, since I was the youngest in a family of eight. I had five sisters who tended to tell me what to do. Long before I was in my teens I ran them off the reservation on that point. They got the idea eventually that I'd manage my own life. They pouted, but they got the idea.
What clinched it was an incident that happened when I was twelve. I had a Persian kitten named Fatima. I never played with the other kids the way my family kept urging me to do. I played with Fatima. She was a ball of fluff with bronze eyes.
Some women in the town put on a pet show. I entered Fatima, and in the finals of the judging I was in the ring with her. So was a fat boy who went to the same school that I did. He had a big boxer dog. Fatima didn't like dogs, and I asked the fat boy to keep the boxer away. He laughed and let the dog come closer. The boxer sniffed curiously and Fatima raked his nose. The dog snapped once and Fatima died in an instant of a broken neck.
I really climbed the fat boy. The women running the pet show pulled me off him finally. I went home and didn't say anything to anyone. The next day I caught the fat boy on his way home from school and I climbed him again.
The fat boy's father came to my house that night. My father was surprised to hear about Fatima. The fat boy's father said he'd get me another kitten. I told him I didn't want another kitten. My father took me upstairs and talked to me. I told him I didn't want the kitten.
The next day after school I had to chase the fat boy to within two blocks of his house before I caught him. It didn't help him when I did. My father gave me a licking when he got home. The minister came to our house that night. When he left, I don't think he felt his talking had accomplished much.
After two more go-rounds with the fat boy, I was kicked out of school. I waited for the fat boy on his way home and gave it to him again. By now he screamed like a girl at the sight of me. I got another licking at home that night. It didn't change anything.
The fat boy started leaving school by different doors at different times. When I had trouble catching him, I slipped out of the house mornings and caught him on his way to school. Each time his father called my father I got another licking. My mother argued with my father about his handling of me. I was sorry to hear it. I didn't feel like a martyr. I felt like someone doing what he had to do.
It went on for three weeks. Then one of my sisters ran into the house one day and said there was a big moving van in front of the fat boy's house.
The fat boy's family was moving away.
They let me back into school in two months. Around the house the subject was never mentioned. In a year I think everyone had honestly forgotten.
Except me.
Then during my senior year in high school I got cross-ways with a bullying local police sergeant. It started out as an honest misunderstanding. He was hardheaded, though, and so was I. We locked horns. I ended up at the police station. By that time he knew he was wrong, but he wouldn't back down. Neither would I. He roughed me up in a cell. I hit him in the face with the heel of my shoe. Afterward they took me to the hospital.
My father in his anger talked about suing the city. I wouldn't cooperate. I knew what I was going to do. It wasn't too difficult when I got out of the hospital. Three men had been in the cell with me. I watched them. I got the first two a couple of months apart, each in situations where his age and strength didn't help him.
Each time the chief of police came to our house afterward and all but accused me of it. I smiled at him and said nothing. I couldn't understand why my father grew more nervous-looking every day. The police hadn't a scrap of evidence.
The sergeant took longer. He was on his guard. No snotty kid was going to make a laughingstock of him. He came up his slippery front steps one night during a sleet storm, and I got him with a piece of pipe. Someone found him at the foot of his steps before he froze to death.
The chief of police was at my house before daylight the next morning. He was raging. Leave town, he told my father. You're harboring a wild animal. Cage him, or leave town. I couldn't believe it when a 'For Sale' sign went up on our front lawn. The police couldn't prove a thing.
I didn't intend to inconvenience the family, though.
My father might not be able to cope, but I could.
I left home, and I never went back.
I drifted a few hundred miles north and got a job in a gas station. It was night-shift work, and I slept days in a cheap rooming house. Working the hours I did, I met few people, but one odd duck took to turning up at the filling station during my midnight-to-eight shift.
He was older, perhaps thirty. He was educated, and he brought me books to read. I could see that he was lonely. At first I thought he was a homo, but he never made a move. He was interesting in the things he could tell a kid who had never been anywhere.
Then one night the police came and scooped him. The charge was molesting a small girl. It turned out he'd done time for the same thing twice before. That should have been that, except that I learned the hour he was supposed to have committed the molestation. I knew he'd been picking up some of his books at my rooming house at that time.
I went to the police. They wouldn't listen to me. They'd decided that he'd done it. I insisted that whatever he had done before, he hadn't done this. I made no impression. I did my talking to a lieutenant who could have been die cast from the same mold as my hometown police sergeant.
The lieutenant ran me off. I tried to go over his head. All of a sudden I had no job, and the next day I had no room. I walked the street lugging my bag all one wintry night until the bus station opened in the morning.
I left town because it wasn't possible to get another job. The police saw to that. I ended up a hundred miles away working as a stock boy in a supermarket. The job was so low-paying I couldn't accumulate any money. I lived from day to day. Nights in my room I had plenty of time to think over my two encounters with police. Then one noon at lunch I picked up a discarded newspaper and saw a paragraph that said that my acquaintance from the filling station had.been convicted and sentenced to fifteen years.
I knew he hadn't done it, but there it was-fifteen years. If that was the way the system worked, I'd had enough of the system. I never went back to the supermarket. I couldn't accumulate there the money I needed for what I had to do.
I began robbing filling stations at night, on foot at first, until I'd heisted enough for a car. I faked a gun at first until I was able to buy one. The week I had it and the car, too, I drove the hundred miles back to the town where the police lieutenant lived. When he opened his front door, I killed him. I couldn't do anything about the fifteen-year bum rap, but I was damned if I was going to let the bastard responsible for it get away with it.
For the next couple of years I knocked around from place to place. I graduated from filling stations to theater box offices to liquor stores. Then I met a guy who introduced me to a group setting up a bank job. There were five of us, and we worked on it for four months. Nothing went right. Two were burned down during the getaway. The rest of us holed up in a barn where we were found the next day. Another one was killed there and two of us were captured.
As a kid with no record, I drew three-to-five. If I could have shown a means of support, it might have been
