following Minnie and Seth. Then Will handed his guitar to Reid and everyone clapped hands as he and Reid’s red- haired Fitzi did a cross between an Trish jig and mountain clogging. (A Fitzi, I’d discovered, was a gorgeous third- year law student named Patsy Fitzgerald, who was going to spend the summer clerking for one of the state justices in Raleigh.)
Most of the kids knew a little clogging and soon they were into it too. Minnie and I passed from hand to hand as more dancers crowded into the hall or spun off into the living room. Eventually, Stevie came round again.
“So whose heart are you breaking this year?” I asked him as we swung through the dining room for another glass of cider.
“Not me,” he shrugged, suddenly serious.
“Somebody breaking yours?”
“That’s what I need to talk to you about,” he said. “Could we? For just a minute?”
“Sure, honey. What’s wrong?”
We took our glasses out onto the side terrace and I sat down on the white brick wall. Stevie leaned against a nearby pillar. The mild night air felt good after the warmth of dancing among crowded bodies. Overhead, the moon was one night from full and shone in the sky like a battered silver platter handed down through the generations: most of the decorations polished flat now, but a precious heirloom all the same. I’d shed my jacket and changed earlier into a more festive skirt, but I still wore my red patent heels and they glistened in the moonlight. I tapped my heels together lightly, experimentally, and looked up to see Stevie watching.
He grinned. “Does it feel like Oz?”
“Not yet. Ask me again after the runoff next month.”
“You’ll win,” he said loyally. “Aunt Minnie says you have poll appeal and Dad says she knows politics.”
“Yes,” I agreed, “but that’s not what you wanted to talk about, was it?”
“What’s going on with Gayle Whitehead?”
“What makes you think anything’s going on?” I countered.
He gave me a patient look. “She said there was. She said she doesn’t want to talk about it, but if I really wanted to know, you’d tell me.”
“Stevie-”
“Is this the famous attorney-client confidentiality you always hear about on those lawyer shows?” he asked.
I leaned back on my hands. “If you’re still planning to go to law school, you’d better quit thinking it’s like a Paramount sound stage. I didn’t know you and Gayle were going together.”
“We’re just starting,” he said. “We’ve been good friends for years, but lately- I don’t know. It’s like now that high school’s coming to an end, we’ve suddenly realized it’s maybe something more than just a friendship.”
Before I could say something wise and auntlike, he grinned, “Yeah, we know all about nostalgia and fear of the future. We also know we’ve got at least four years of college before we can do anything about it. All the same, right now…”
Ah, the sweet right now!
“Anyhow, she really did say you could tell me,” he finished earnestly.
I believed him, so I did.
When I concluded, he was quiet. All the kids had grown up knowing that Gayle’s mother had been murdered, but now that he cared for her, I guess it was the first time the edges had been taken off for him.
He gave me such a pure look of “Here am I, Lord, send me,” that I jumped up and hugged him hard. “Thanks for offering, honey. If there’re any dragons you can slay, I will ask you, I promise.”
The party was winding down as we came back inside. “Ah, there’s our candidate,” beamed Miss Sallie Anderson. “Come right here and let me hug you good night, honey, before I take these poor old bones home to bed.”
More neighbors followed, but there were plenty of friends and kinfolk left as Will and Haywood picked up their instruments and began to play a final and familiar tune. Seth carried the verse in his clear baritone and I went and stood beside him to sing alto. One of my earliest memories was harmonizing with Seth, me just a baby and him nearly grown. The others stood and listened till the chorus; then everyone linked arms and swayed together, and all our voices blended in a sweetness too beautiful to bear:
Will the circle be unbroken
By and by, Lord, by and by?
There’s a better home a-waiting,
In the sky, Lord, in the sky.
Corny as that old song is, it always brings tears to my eyes. My mother dead, Seth and Haywood’s mother dead, our daddy too proud to come celebrate tonight-our circle sure was gapped.
Even so, enough of it remained.
9 now that we’re alone
My one scheduled court case next day had been postponed, but it didn’t help as much as I’d hoped for catching up on office chores. Every time I’d start to dictate a letter or abstract a deposition, the phone would ring. I’d finished about a half a percentage point ahead of Luther Parker-exactly sixty-two votes ahead, to be exact-and everybody who hadn’t come by the house last night seemed minded to call in their congratulations.
“I’ll say you’re busy if you want me to,” Sherry offered. Wednesday mornings were usually slow for her, too, because that’s when John Claude normally attended court in Widdington and Reid headed for Makely.
“No, I’ll talk to them.” As long as people felt like they had a personal stake in my election, every conversation could mean one more vote in June.
Most well-wishers were disposed of quickly, but Minnie kept me on the line forty-five minutes discussing how best to utilize our less than thirty days till the runoff election. Even the defeated ADA from Black Creek called to say-at pompous length-that I could count on his support both now and in November. No word from Perry Byrd’s fat protege. He’d struck me as a closet Republican though, so I doubted if he’d be supporting Luther Parker either.
I kept going straight through lunch and by midafternoon had just about had it with telephones. When Sherry buzzed that Gayle Whitehead was there, I immediately pushed aside the papers and had her sent in.
“This is probably a bad time,” Gayle apologized.
“Your timing’s perfect. You don’t know what a relief it is to actually see who I’m talking to.” I waved her over to a chair and caught a whiff of fragrance. I almost never wear perfume and it makes me sensitive to everybody else’s. This was something light that reminded me of my mother’s spring gardens. Wisteria? Narcissus? I was caught offstep by an underlying hint of tobacco. A lot of high school kids still think it’s cool to smoke; evidently that included Gayle.
“I’m sorry you didn’t flat-out win yesterday.” She wore jeans and sneakers today and her hair was caught up in a loose ponytail by a yellow plastic clip that matched her yellow shirt. “I voted for you.”
“Hey, your first time voting, wasn’t it?” Incredible to realize that little baby Gayle could now help pick judges and presidents, negotiate contracts and marry or join the army without parental consent.
“You really are all growed up, aren’t you?” I teased.
“Yeah.” Dimples flashed in her cheeks. “Still not old enough to buy beer though.”
“Do you want to?” Despite what I see in the courtroom, I’m always curious about what turns people on.
“Not really. It’s the principle of the thing. Kids buy pot or white light”-her voice faltered, and in that split second, I knew she was wondering whether to take her foot out of her mouth and apologize and maybe make it worse, or pretend there was nothing personally embarrassing to me about bootleg whiskey-“ning all over the county, but when it comes to something as harmless as a Bud Lite for anybody under twenty-one, forget it.”
It would have been a perfectly smooth recovery if she could have kept from flushing.
I’d had more practice at pretending not to notice things. “So what brings you over to Dobbs today? I’m afraid I don’t have anything new to tell you yet.”
“Oh, I didn’t think you would,” she said, though she was too transparent to hide a slight disappointment. “Dad made me promise I wouldn’t do anything stupid by myself and I know you’re busy and all, but I was wondering if-”
