Nicholas and Alexandra

overwhelmed with sadness”: ibid., 21.

22 “Ran like fools”: ibid., 14. His life in St. Petersburg: ibid., 12–31. 18–19 “All day I found myself in a state of gaiety”: ibid., 25. A direct telephone line: ibid., 43. Reviewing Cossacks: ibid., 23.

23 Bungalow at Krasnoe Selo: Alexander, 166.

24 “I am happier than I can say”: N to MF, 35.

25 “Never forget that everyone’s eyes”: MF to N, 33. “I will always try”: N to MF, 36.

26 “We got stewed,” etc.: Kaun, 133.

27 “Where is Kschessinska?”: Kschessinska, 28. “Be the glory and adornment of our ballet”: ibid., 28. “In both our hearts, an attraction”: ibid., 29. “Supper with the pupils”: ibid., 29.

28 “Ah, you must have been flirting”: ibid., 33. “I thought that, without being in love with me”: ibid., 33. “Gossiped at her window”: ibid., 34.

29 “Villages and clusters of palm trees”: N’s Diary, 33. “Nothing worth talking about”: ibid., 33. “This time it was much better”: ibid., 34.

30 “Red uniforms everywhere”: ibid., 36. “I’d like to think”: MF to N, 42.

31 The assassination attempt: N’s Diary, 37–8; MF to N, 51; Alexander, 167; Kschessinska, 35. “I received the Swedish minister”: N’s Diary, 45.

32 Vladivostock: Tupper, 83, 85.

33 Kschessinska again: Kschessinska, 37–42.

34 “Though he did not openly mention it”: ibid., 42. “We led a quiet, retiring life”: ibid., 44.

35 “I have been nominated a member”: N’s Diary, 46. Exercise with the Hussars: ibid., 14. “What, but you know the Tsarevich?”: Quoted in an introductory passage in N’s Diary, 45.

36 “Uncle Bertie, of course”: N to MF, 59. “May is delightful”: ibid., 59. Nicholas mistaken for George: Buxhoeveden, 37; Hanbury-Williams, 89.

37 “She was very friendly”: N to MF, 60. Kschessinska’s career: Kschessinska, 47.

38 The end of the affair: ibid., 50–1. “The terrible, boundless suffering”: ibid., 52.

39 “I was not alone in my grief and trouble”: ibid., 53. Grand Duke Andrei: ibid., 78. A son: ibid., 89. Married in Cannes: ibid., 209.

CHAPTER 3 PRINCESS ALIX

 1 “My dream is some day to marry Alix H.”: Pares, 33.

 2 “Mama made a few allusions”: Radziwill, 38.

 3 Princess Helene and Princess Margaret: N to MF, 61.

 4 “Oh, Lord, how I want to go to Ilinskoe”: Pares, 33.

 5 Nicholas insists on Alix: Buxhoeveden, 33.

 6 Alexander Ill’s health: Mosolov, 44.

 7 “They murder my name here”: Buxhoeveden, 4. “A sweet, merry little person”: ibid., 4. “Sunny in pink”: ibid., 4.

 8 Prussia and Hesse-Darmstadt: ibid., 3; Botkin, 24.

 9 Darmstadt: Buxhoeveden, 1; Almedingen, 7.

10 English mementoes: Buxhoeveden, 2. Mrs. Orchard: ibid., 5. Pony cart: ibid., 6. Goldfish: Almedingen, 14. Crinoline: Buxhoeveden, 6. Christmas: ibid., 7. Visits to England: ibid., 7, 9. Diphtheria: ibid., 9–10.

11 Alix withdraws: ibid., 12. Queen Victoria’s interest: ibid., 12.

12 A student: ibid., 13–15. Ella’s marriage: ibid., 18–19. Nicholas presents a brooch: Vyrubova, 19.

13 Alix’s visit to Russia, 1889: Buxhoeveden, 23–4. Ilinskoe: ibid., 26–7.

14 Alix’s feeling about Nicholas: ibid., 21, 34. Prince Eddy: Pope-Hennessy, 183; Longford, 512.

15 Banjo: Buxhoeveden, 22. Italy: ibid., 31.

16 Nicholas’s arrival in Coburg: N’s Diary, 48. “What a day”: ibid., 49. “I tried to explain”: N to MF, 63.

17 Two sittings at dinner: N’s Diary, 50. Queen Victoria’s Dragoons: ibid., 49. The Kaiser helps: N to MF, 64. “The depths of Alix’s soul”: N’s Diary, 51.

18 “A marvelous, unforgettable day”: ibid., 52. “We were left alone”: N to MF, 64, “ ‘I’m going to marry Nicky’ “: Almedingen, 23.

19 Military drill: N’s Diary, 52. “My superb Alix came to me”: ibid., 52. “Everything in my heart was bright”: ibid., 52. “We answered all day”: ibid., 53.

20 “Your dear Alix”: MF to N, 65, 66.

21 “She has changed so much”: N’s Diary, 54.

22 “We were together a long time”: ibid., 59. “It is so strange”: ibid., 57. “What a sorrow”: ibid., 54. “What sadness”: ibid., 60. “A ring on my finger”: ibid., 57. Gatchina: ibid., 62–3.

23 “Into the arms of my betrothed”: N to MF, 71. Walton-on-Thames: ibid., 71.

24 Engagement gifts: Buxhoeveden, 38. Faberge’s sautoir of pearls: Bainbridge, 56. “Alix, do not get too proud”: Buxhoeveden, 38; Dehn, 59.

25 “Galloping like a fool”: N’s Diary, 63. “I can’t complain”: N to MF, 71.

26 “I simply had to get up”: N to MF, 73.

27 “I dreamed that I was loved”: N’s Diary, 76–7. “What is past is past”: ibid., 78.

28 “Granny loves me so”: N to MF, 74. Aldershot: N’s Diary, 71.

29 “A son was born to Georgie and May”: N’s Diary, quoted by Catherine Radziwill, The Intimate Life of the Last Tsarina (New York, L. MacVeagh, Dial Press, 1928), 26.

30 “Instead of plunging the infant”: N’s Diary, 75. “What a nice, healthy child”: N to MF, 73. “Georgie came for lunch”: N’s Diary, 76.

31 “Love is caught”: ibid., 81. “Sleep gently”: ibid., 83.

32 German fleet: ibid., 83. “I am yours”: ibid., 86. “For the past is past”: ibid., 85.

CHAPTER 4 MARRIAGE

 1 Nephritis: Witte, 46; Mosolov, 44; Vorres, 63.

 2 “My duty to remain here”: N’s Diary, 90.

 3 “There is some ice cream in the next room”: Vorres, 64.

 4 “My God, what a joy to meet her”: N’s Diary, 101. Welcome in the Crimea: ibid., 101. The Tsar in dress uniform: Vyrubova, 20.

 5 “Sweet child, pray to God”: N’s Diary, 103. “Be firm and make the doctors come to you”: