The Anchoress of Shere

maybe find my book,” he said aloud.

He stared up and down the cellar corridor and his eyes alighted on the large crucifix. And then he knew what had to be done.

He tore at the crucifix with furious strength, but it was fixed firmly on the wall. He went back up to the kitchen for tools, and returned to loosen the fixtures and drag it off the wall. The cross was heavy, but he could just about pull it, dripping, up to the steps. His manic strength enabled him to stagger up the stairs with his load. He stopped for a moment, to draw breath and to think.

Frantically assembling the things he would need, he put them in a small hold-all that he hoisted over one shoulder. Over the other he dragged the cross to the front door. It was too heavy to carry very far, and he saw that the police had removed his old Morris from the drive. His rage was mounting to fever pitch.

Constable McGregor, dozing in the front seat of his police car parked on the road outside, awoke to the sound of a hammer smashing through the driver’s window. He did not have the time to raise his hands to protect his face as the hammer smashed twice into his skull. The third blow blinded him. He gurgled blood as his left hand reached out and fell lifeless on the tartan thermos flask. Duval wrenched the door open and, in frustrated rage, battered the policeman’s head until it was a shapeless crimson pulp.

It was less than a mile to St. James’s church from Hillside. Duval drove the police car with the rear doors open, the spar of the cross protruding. It was very dangerous. But Duval didn’t really care any more about anything, except how to tease out a little more time. He needed just a short breathing space to complete what he had to do. The journey along the winding lane between the dark hedges took just over a minute.

One hundred yards in front of the church, the village square was silent and deserted; the rear of St. James’s, shrouded in trees, was in total darkness. Shere was unusual in having no street lighting; the local council had decided that it would spoil the medieval ambience of the village.

Leaving the car and the crucifix in the lane behind the church, he crept through the shadows to the edge of the square.

The White Horse was in darkness, as was the lane beside it. No lights were on in the upper floor. Duval used the hammer to force the rear door of the pub open, and carefully ascended the stairs to the residents’ floor. He knocked gently on the door to room number three, Gould’s room. There was no answer. One heave of his shoulders broke the flimsy lock. Cautiously switching on the light, he entered the room; it was unoccupied. He could see a manuscript on the coffee table. It was his work, his life’s work. He seized it with both hands, and left quietly and quickly.

Keeping to the shadows, he walked along the stream side of the square. He glanced over his shoulder and saw two police cars, a hundred and fifty yards away, parked between the stone bridge and Marda’s flat. No one would expect him to be in the centre of Shere; that was the last place anyone would be looking, but he still had to move fast.

In the pitch darkness, he managed somehow to drag the heavy crucifix from the car to the side porch of the church. The door was never locked; even with the rise in crime, a village church was nearly always safe from vandals or thieves. Exhausted and soaked in sweat, he sat down on the pew nearest to the medieval site of Christine Carpenter’s cell. He looked with sadness on the sacred quatrefoil and squint, the last time he would gaze upon these relics of her life. These relics of his life, too.

He lit a candle and placed it at the base of the quatrefoil on the floor of the church. Alongside he placed his typescript, his offering to the holy Christine. Perhaps now, in his infamy, people would recognise his book, his lengthy intellectual toil.

Christine had prayed so long, so hard, for Jesus Christ to answer her; to provide a sign, to make the crucifix weep those tears of absolution. Now tears would weep for her. The agony of crucifixion would be displayed before her eyes.

The crucifix lay flat, shadowed by the flickering candle. One arm of the crucifix still had a nail protruding from where it had been fixed in the cellar. He hammered six-inch nails into the other spar and into the small spar on the base. Duval had practised a crucifixion recently. He had failed then, but nobody would stop him now.

Once the nails were in place, he carried the cross to the edge of the chancel, a short distance from the place where Christine had sought absolution. He propped the cross at a forty-five-degree angle to the wall. Using the thick cross-spar at the base as a step, he stretched his arms along the span of the cross and gazed longingly at the two squints, the windows of Christine’s cell, the lights of her tiny universe. His book stood reverentially at the base of her anchorhold, flickering in the candlelight of remembrance. Tears would fall from the crucifix before her very eyes.

Duval felt the salt taste on the edge of his mouth. Balanced precariously on the cross-spar at the base of the cross, he removed his jacket, shirt and trousers. He was too engrossed in his spiritual dedication to feel the cold, but it would take a supreme act of will to force his wrists and feet through the beckoning nails.

The powerful presence of the saintly anchoress would be appeased by the blood of crucifixion, the ultimate act of worship. But Duval asked himself whether he was strong enough, let alone holy enough, to imitate his Saviour.

Despite the lateness of the hour, Marda’s parents had made her flat warm and inviting. And, despite the presence of the police guard and the lanky American, Marda was smothered with family affection, and the dog was curled up in front of an electric heater. It was a time of joy and concern: a daughter returned, a son recovering in intensive care. Marda’s father and the professor demolished most of a bottle of Scotch, while the two women and the police officer consumed endless cups of tea.

Marda tried to explain her feelings, the complete desperation she had felt while in her prison, her total anguish at the manner of her brother’s treatment by Duval, the lengths to which Mark had gone to save her.

“But I also feel so strong,” she said. “I survived the ordeal and I’m alive! Perhaps God, after all, answered my prayers…”

She stopped, surprised to realise how important these prayers had been to her sanity. She wondered, too, if she could continue to be strong, to survive the coming weeks, especially, God forbid, if Mark did not pull through.

Her mother seemed to read her thoughts. “It might be hard, coming to grips with life again. A new life, for it will never be the same,” she said, putting both her arms around the emaciated girl. Her very last reserves of strength utterly depleted, Marda fell soundly asleep on her mother’s shoulder.

The knock on the flat door came at eight o’clock in the morning, when it was still almost dark outside. The policeman opened the door and was met by his breathless superintendent, who enhanced the drama of his message by trying to underplay it: “We’ve found him,” he said, trying to control his excitement. “In the church. We’ve called off the alert.”

“So you trapped him there?” Gould asked.

Superintendent Woodward led Gould outside to answer him, because he thought the details might upset the already distressed Stewart family. “No, he was already dead. Crucified, it appears.”

Gould looked at the policeman in amazement.

“This is just preliminary, you understand. One of my men saw a police car at the rear of the church and went in. I’ve just taken the message on the car radio. One of my men is missing, too. I’m going straight to the church now, but I wanted to tell the Stewarts first.”

“May I come with you, Superintendent?” asked the professor.

The policeman nodded, and the two men hastened to the nearby church.

Gould had seen thousands of depictions of crucifixions, but nothing could have prepared him for the reality: the head was slumped on the chest and dried, matted smudges of blood and strands of tissue disfigured the body, especially around the wrists and feet.

The three policemen and the academic just stared.

Gould was the first to ask: “Why is his face so smashed up?”

He waited a long moment before adding, “Are you sure it’s Duval? You said one of your men was missing. It must be damned difficult to crucify yourself.”

The policemen looked at him in horror. They did not want to believe it could be one of their own.

Shere’s doctor had had a busy night. Arriving a few minutes after Gould, he cleaned up the face a little and