I remember the day my brother married her, and how he never let go of her hand, not even to stand before the altar. She has plain gray eyes, but a beautiful smile. And her laugh. It is deep and throaty, full of the greatest
“I’ll get it,” Wolfgang says at once. He hurries from the table, and I look to my mother. Perhaps it is Edmund. Perhaps he’s had a change of heart. But it’s a woman’s light footsteps on the stairs, and a moment later Wolfgang appears with the baron’s daughter, Abrielle. Johann passes a meaningful look to Isabel. Did they know she’d be coming?
Wolfgang clears his throat and announces nervously, “I’d like you to meet the daughter of the Baron de Besenval, Abrielle.”
Her gaze roams quickly around the room, and she looks like a small, startled deer. She is dressed in an exquisite red velvet gown with a white ermine cloak and matching muff. She belongs in the queen’s rooms, not on the Boulevard du Temple, but she tries for a smile, and everyone raises their voices in welcome. My mother hurries to take her cloak, and Curtius finds her an extra chair. The room is silent while she seats herself between Wolfgang and Johann. How did she get here? Does her father know she’s come, or did Wolfgang steal her away somehow?
“I suppose you’re all wondering what Abrielle is doing here,” Wolfgang begins.
“Not at all,” my mother says cheerfully. “In fact, she’s just in time for the ham.”
“Yes, well …” He looks around the table and begins fidgeting with his napkin. I have never seen Wolfgang nervous about anything. Then finally he blurts out, “We are both here to stay.”
My mother lowers her glass of wine. “You mean a little vacation?”
Wolfgang hesitates. “No.” He looks at Abrielle, who nods slowly. “I mean Abrielle is pregnant, and this morning we were married.”
I think my mother is going to faint. She begins fanning herself with her hand, and Wolfgang adds quickly, “It wasn’t planned. It simply happened. But now we are married in the eyes of God—”
“And in the eyes of her father?” my mother exclaims.
“Yes, well that … That hasn’t gone so well.”
“He tried, Maman,” Johann explains. “He went to me first, but I’m not close to Besenval. Then he went to Edmund …”
My mother stops fanning. “Edmund has always been a favorite with the baron. He must have done something.”
Wolfgang clenches his jaw, and Abrielle is close to tears. “Yes,” Wolfgang replies. “He did.”
“He went straight to Besenval and told him the news,” Johann says. “Wolfgang has been dismissed from his position, and Abrielle …”
He doesn’t have to say what has become of Abrielle. This is a disaster for them both. I can only imagine the sort of scandal that was created. A heavy silence has fallen, and my mother covers her eyes to weep. Then Curtius raises his glass and says loudly, “To Wolfgang and Abrielle!”
I repeat, “To Wolfgang and Abrielle!”
Everyone follows, and there is no more talk of traitorous brothers or angry fathers. She is nine weeks pregnant, and Wolfgang is sure it will be a girl, but Paschal has decided it must be a boy. “Else who will I play with?” he exclaims. We all laugh, and Abrielle bears it as best she can.
“Soon, it will be Marie’s turn,” Johann says, and they all look at me. “We’ve heard the rumors. So when will it be?” My brother looks from me to Henri.
“When Curtius retires from the National Guard,” Henri replies and takes my hand.
“Another year,” I confirm.
“And then you will be bouncing a fat baby on your knee,” Isabel teases.
It’s what every woman wants, surely. And in another year, who knows what will be? I might be made a member of the Academie. Or perhaps Curtius will be. If that happens, there will be money enough to hire an apprentice.
As everyone leaves, Wolfgang and Abrielle linger behind. The guest room will now belong to them, and I wonder how Wolfgang must feel to know he will never serve the king with his brothers again. Johann embraces him tightly, and whispers what must be words of encouragement in his ear. When everyone is gone, my mother asks quietly, “Shall we see to your room?”
She is still upset, but as soon as the shock is over, this will be a great joy to her. She’ll finally have a grandchild in her home.
Abrielle follows her down the hall, but Wolfgang remains with me. We watch each other in the low light of the candles. “It may be a blessing,” I say to him.
“It’s hard to see that right now.”
“I know. But it wasn’t your calling.”
“I can’t afford a family,” he worries, “let alone a woman like her. Marie, she is inconsolable.”
“She just lost everything. Her father, her home. Give her time.”
Wolfgang nods. “Will you go to her? Maman is preparing her room, but she should have someone else—”
“Of course.” She’s my sister now. I must support her in any way I can. I climb the stairs and pause in front of Curtius’s door. I can hear my mother speaking to him in German, something about the clothes Abrielle has brought.
“They’re too fine,” I hear her telling him. “How will she ever be happy here?”
I continue to the guest room, with its sweeping view of the Boulevard du Temple, and peek around the open door. She is sitting on the wide four-poster bed with her beautiful velvet gown spread out around her, watching the snow settle on the rooftops and across the windowsills. She turns when she hears me, and her eyes are filled with tears.
“Is there anything you need?” I ask softly.
She shakes her head, and I think of the chances I took with Henri and realize now how foolish we were. For a moment’s pleasure, we risked altering our lives forever. “No. Thank you,” she says. “Your family has already been more than generous.” I see my mother has brought her heated bottles and a cup of hot chocolate, probably spiked with liqueur, to help her sleep. But she hasn’t touched it. She hasn’t even unpacked her chests.
“I know it must be difficult for you,” I say, “being torn from your father like this. But if it’s any consolation, I can tell you that Wolfgang loves you deeply, and my family is very happy to have you here.”
She begins to weep, dabbing her eyes with a square of silk. “Thank you, Marie. It’s more than I deserve.”
“Nonsense,” I say and cross the room to sit next to her on the bed. “You are married,” I remind her. “And unlike most women, you’ve had the opportunity to marry someone you love. Wolfgang adores you. He has spoken about you for months on end.”
She looks up at me, and her wide blue eyes are like pools of light. “Really?”
“Yes,” I assure her. “And as soon he is able, he will find employment and take care of you. Until then, you are always welcome here.”
She straightens her shoulders, and I can see that this talk has done her some good. “May I ask you a favor?” she whispers.
“Of course.”
“I—I have never undressed myself,” she admits, “and I don’t know how.… I’m not sure how I should take off this gown.”
The poor child! She doesn’t even know how to prepare for bed. How does Wolfgang think she will survive here, on the Boulevard du Temple, with prostitutes and fish sellers shouting over one another for business in the streets? I unlace her corset and help the gown from her shoulders. Her body is as smooth and flawless as her face. She’s like a porcelain doll. And this is how it must be for the queen. Every day someone to help her dress and undress. If she wants water, someone is there to fetch it. If she lacks perfume, or powder, or pomade for her hair, a dozen servants are happy to make it appear. Women like this have never known any different. I hand Abrielle a clean nightgown from her chest, and I wish her good night. “Tomorrow, I’ll be in the workshop,” I say. “You’re welcome to come and see what we do.”
