There were several things I wanted from the store, and I took this opportunity to gather them up: more clothes, for one thing, so I could wash mine at the brook; some soap, some more tinned food. As an afterthought I took some fishhooks and fishing line. Mr Klein did not sell rods and reels, and mine was in the house, but I could fish well enough without it.
My goods assembled and stowed in a brown bag, I debated whether or not to go directly up the hill to the cave or take the long route. Though he had not appeared at the grove while I waited, he might have come to it since. Eventually I compromised, and walked half a mile in the wrong direction towards the gap, keeping the store between me and his line of sight. Then I turned left, was quickly in the trees, and worked my way back to the cave.
I cut a sapling for a pole, found some worms under a log and went fishing. I would have chicken for dinner and, with luck, fish for breakfast.
Chapter Twenty-two
By four o’clock I had caught and cleaned three middle-sized fish. From the pond as I sat I could look down on the field of wheat, a darker green acre in the pasture that stretched towards the gap. It was not, after all, vitally important that it be fertilized today—or at all. We were not trying for a real wheat crop, but only a harvest of seeds, and it would surely produce that, at least. I put the fish on a string and walked to the house. I placed his share, one and a half fish, on the back porch, hoping he was watching so he would know to pick them up. The cow was waiting to be milked and fed, but gave only half a can of milk—less each day, but better than none, which was what it would be soon. I turned her back out to pasture, closed the barn door, put the top on my can and walked back to the store, through for the day.
I had reached it and was debating which way to go when I heard the tractor engine, faint in the distance. It was earlier than he had used it the other times, and I wondered why. It sputtered slowly for a couple of minutes, and then suddenly smoothed out and was running fast. It got louder very quickly. He was on the road, and was coming this way at top speed.
I debated no longer, but made a dash up the hill, to the right of the pond, to reach the woods behind it before he turned the bend. I slopped a bit of my milk, but I made it. Once in the woods I circled to the left as I ran to reach a spot from which I could watch. I did not worry about crashing noisily through the brush: the tractor engine was getting louder all the time. I found a vantage point behind a bush, set down my milk, crouched and waited.
The tractor had come out of the trees and ran in plain view down the road, covering the last half mile to the store. Mr Loomis sat astride, steering with his left hand. In his right, to my amazement and horror, he held his rifle. He looked like an Indian on horseback in an old western movie, attacking a wagon train. I stared, at first not comprehending at all.
About a hundred feet from the store he turned the tractor halfway round and stopped it, leaving the engine idling. He climbed down on the far side, keeping it between him and the building. He stood there watching for a minute or two. He cut the engine and put the key in his pocket. Holding the gun in both hands, he moved towards the store. His eyes were on the windows and the door.
I remembered how he had acted once before, when he fired two shots into the house. I thought, he has suffered a relapse, he is back in his delirium. But no, it was quite clearly different. That time he had been dreaming. There was nothing dreamlike in the way he moved forward, alert as a cat, to the door. He paused, listened, and backed away. He looked to the right, to the left, behind him; moving more quickly, he circled the building, disappearing from my view, reappearing, staring at every window, upstairs and down. Back at the door, he opened it with the greatest caution, then pushed it wide and stepped inside.
I stayed motionless behind my bush, watched, and wondered. Why was he storming the store? “Storm” was the word I thought of, because that was really how it looked—like a surprise attack. Why the gun? Did he intend to shoot something? To shoot me? Why else does one carry a gun?
For ten minutes or so all was quiet. I stared at the building and the tractor. A movement caught my eye—a curtain pushed aside in an upstairs window, and his face looking out, pale in the dark frame like a ghost in a haunted house. And I knew part of the answer.
He was not in the store proper at all. He had gone up to the Kleins’ living quarters on the second floor. He was, of course, looking for me.
I had deceived him too well. Each night when I left the house I had walked towards the store. In the morning, when he had watched, I had appeared suddenly beside the store. That same morning I had gone to get his water from the pond—in the same general direction as the store—and reappeared carrying things of mine, milk can and knife. So he had, quite sensibly, decided that I was living in the store. He had, I supposed, the first time he went into it, discovered there were living quarters upstairs—perhaps he even went up and looked.
But in fact I had only been in the Kleins’ apartment one time since they drove away that day with my parents. It was on a rainy Sunday, after I had been to the church. Since it was Sunday I did not want to work; it was too rainy to fish or to take a walk as I sometimes did, and by then the radio stations had all gone off. So I had decided to read, and as always, was wishing I had some new books. It occurred to me the Kleins might have some.
Their apartment was shadowy, being heavily curtained on a grey day. It was entirely clean, as Mrs Klein, a small and tidy woman, would have left it, but it had a stale smell from being shut up. I felt quite uneasy, though I had been there once or twice before; it was a private place, and all in it belonged to two dead people. I knew as soon as I entered I was not likely to find any books, and there were none—not even magazines—with two exceptions: a dress pattern book near Mrs Klein’s sewing machine, and some account and inventory books in a room Mr Klein used for an office.
I even looked in their bedroom, feeling guiltier than ever, but there was nothing but the usual furniture and some pictures on the walls. The only thing in the whole apartment that was out of place was a photograph of a young man, smiling, dressed in a dark suit and tie, in a stand-up frame. It looked quite old. It lay on the bed faceup. I wondered who he could be. Either Mr or Mrs Klein had looked at it one more time before leaving and left it lying there. A son? But I could not recall anything about their having a son. It might have looked a little like Mrs Klein when she was younger, so perhaps it was a brother. I never found out, of course. I left it lying on the bed.
The point was, however, that Mr Loomis was sure to know at a glance that I was not living there. That was why he had looked out of the window; if I was not there, he was thinking, I must be somewhere in the vicinity.
He came out of the front door again, looked around, and went back in. He reappeared about thirty seconds later from behind the store—he had walked straight through it and gone out of the back door, which I could not see from my vantage point. He had left the gun inside. He walked a few yards away, turned, and appeared to be studying the building, tapping his chin with his hand. He disappeared again—I could guess he had gone in through the back door—and for fifteen minutes or so I could not see him.
I thought of the gun again. It was frightening to see. But I thought, perhaps not so frightening as it seemed at first. I was beginning to get used to the way his mind worked, the way he thought about things. There was a pattern that kept repeating. In the case of the gun it meant—or, I thought, it
And thought, if I was encamped there and saw him coming I might be frightened, and might try to drive him away. But what made him think I had a gun at all? My guns had been at the cave all of the time since his arrival, and I was quite sure I had never mentioned them.
He had had plenty of time for thinking. And during the past two weeks he must have recalled his first days here, the day he came over the hill in his safe-suit pulling his wagon, and went to the house. He had seen, thanks to my carefulness, that it was empty and had not recently been lived in. Thinking back on that, he would realize that I had, even then, another place to live.
He would know, too, that in a country household, where people hunt, there are always guns; so he would
